Survived Labor Day weekend, but the aftermath following felt long and drawn out.
Mood Score Key:
Sliding Hypomania = 1 ~ Hypomania = 2 ~ Mania = 3 ~ Baseline (My Normal) = 0
Sliding Depression = -1 ~ Depression = -2 ~ Severe Depression = -3 ~ M = Mixed State
Energy Score Key:
Low = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ High = 1
Migraine Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A
Sleep Quality Score Key:
Bad = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ Great = 1
Special Notes for the Week
Menses Start Date: ~
Weigh-In at Med Clinic: ~
Sunday ~ September 2, 2018
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 3:30am, up at 7am – 3.5 hours total
napped 2:30pm to 5:30pm – 3 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- 4 cups of coffee
- 1 20oz. bottle of Dr. Pepper
- homemade meatloaf, baked potato with butter, carrots
Today’s Feelings
- tired and slightly agitated
Notes
- set up med box
- ex showed up at 9am today
- dinner was later than planned – wasn’t ready until 7pm – so ex stayed until 7:30pm or so since I did invite him for dinner
- this was his last day of his visit
- the boys fluctuated in wanting to spent time with him until they knew this was his last day, then they spent legit time with him
- I found this irritating and rude of my boys, they should have been spending legit time with him from the start
- to be fair I realize that right now Little Bear has no say in the matter, I have to make him spend time with him
- the other two have a choice in the matter however – I guess it goes to show how hard it is? ambivalence is real
- I found this irritating and rude of my boys, they should have been spending legit time with him from the start
- ex brought up Scholar Owl’s graduation at the end of this school year and how he wants to be here for that and I told him it’s up to my son, not me, to invite who he wants there
- couldn’t even talk to Tuxedo Cat’s father without ex husband inserting himself into the conversation and pushing me out
- we were talking about my draft for Surge of the Soul Eater that he’s offered to beta read and my ex just had to start talking about his book
- heaven forbid I talk to anyone – including the children – and get any kind of attention while he’s around
Monday ~ September 3, 2018
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at midnight, up at 7am – 7 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- 4 cups of coffee
- 2pcs. leftover meatloaf
Today’s Feelings
- content
Notes
- finished scheduling the Exploring Tarot Thursday posts
Tuesday ~ September 4, 2018
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at midnight, up at 6am – 6 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 6am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- ? cups of coffee
- forgot to document food
Today’s Feelings
- stressed
Notes
- Therapy Tuesday
Wednesday ~ September 5, 2018
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at midnight, up at 6am – 6 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- ? cups of coffee
- 1 large coffee from gas station
- forgot to document food
Today’s Feelings
- stressed
Notes
- med clinic appointment – prescribed Propranolol as a PRN for GAD
Thursday ~ September 6, 2018
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at midnight, up at 6am – 6 hours total
bed at 11:30am, up at 5pm – 5.5 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- missed AM meds
- 10mg Propranolol @ 11am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- 4 cups of coffee
- 20oz. bottle black tea
- 6in. roast beef sub
- 3 hot dogs
Today’s Feelings
- stressed
Notes
- finally got around to watching the Assassin’s Creed movie
- I liked it for the most part, but I didn’t think the main female character’s story arc should have ended the way it did
- the way it was set up pointed in a different direction for her in my mind: I truly expected her to join the Assassins instead
- I liked it for the most part, but I didn’t think the main female character’s story arc should have ended the way it did
Friday ~ September 7, 2018
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 3am, up at 6am – 3 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm
Meals
- 4 cups of coffee
- 20oz. bottle black tea
- I don’t remember eating anything
Today’s Feelings
- near panic
Notes
- ex husband messaged me first thing in the morning to inform me of his plans for this Christmas vacation:
- bring his new fiance and her daughter up to Maine for the ENTIRE WEEK of the school holiday so we can all have Christmas together
- we haven’t even been divorced for a full year
- this is the woman he had an affair with and divorced me for
- I’m confident he hasn’t even run this plan by her yet since she still has me blocked on Facebook
- bring his new fiance and her daughter up to Maine for the ENTIRE WEEK of the school holiday so we can all have Christmas together
- despite my extreme stress, I’ve spent the day trying to design a business logo for my online tarot shop – couldn’t even come up with a proper name for it
- Scholar Owl’s music lesson today at 3pm
Saturday ~ September 8, 2018
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Migraine: 1h
Hours of Sleep: bed at 8pm, up at 5:30am – 9.5 hours total
Napped 2:30pm to 4:30pm – 2 total hours
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
Meals
- 4 cups of coffee
- Chef Salad
Today’s Feelings
- stressed and exhausted
Notes
- woke up with a name for my online tarot business
- started working on a logo design and banner
- still wound up about yesterday
- got started on making thumbnails for the emotion themed tarot series