I’m at my parents’ house at the moment, so I don’t have access to my spreadsheet program. I will have to create and add my graph later. The second half of the week has been much better than the first half since I went over to my parents’ house. I have been able to relax and get a bit caught up on the laundry. We have even been able to inch Little Bear’s sleep to later in the evening each night. As of Friday night we got him to stay up to 7pm. Hopefully he won’t be waking up at 2am tomorrow morning.
Mood Score Key:
Sliding into Hypomania = 1 ~ Hypomania = 2 ~ Mania = 3 ~ Baseline (My Normal) = 0
Sliding into Depression = -1 ~ Depression = -2 ~ Severe Depression = -3
Energy Score Key:
Low = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ High = 1
Irritation Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Anxiety Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Migraine Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Aura Only = 1 ~ Aura with Pain but Functional = 2 ~ Extreme Pain, Not Functional, Please Kill Me Now = 3
Sleep Quality Score Key:
Poor = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ Good = 1
Saturday ~ Date
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 1 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Sleep Quality: -1
Hours of Sleep: 6am to 1pm on Saturday = 7 hours total, 0 Friday Night
Meds Taken
- Missed my morning meds since I didn’t wake up until 1pm
- 75mg Topamax at 7:15pm
Meals
- 1 meal all day – just dinner when I took the boys out to eat
- Ordered the seared duck with whipped potatoes and green beans
- Ate all of the duck, half of the potatoes and green beans – really miss my appetite because this was all really good
- So far today drank 4 cups of coffee and 2 glasses of water – think I’m getting better at reducing my coffee intake, we’ll see
- No snacks
Sunday ~ Date
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Sleep Quality: 0
Hours of Sleep: 3:30am to 9:30am today, none the night and woke up often, 6 hour block
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax at 9:30am
- 75mg Topamax at 7pm
Meals
- Just last night leftovers at dinner time for me, let the boys eat whatever they wanted at mealtimes today – which meant the older two cleaned out leftovers and Little Bear had a field day asking for grilled cheese
- 2 cups coffee, 2 glasses of water, and a 20oz. bottle of Dr. Pepper at the time of writing this – strange, I could have sworn I drink more coffee than this
Monday ~ Date
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Sleep Quality: 0
Hours of Sleep: 6am to 3pm today
Meds Taken
- Missed my meds, missed Little Bear’s meds – paying for this I as I write this at 4:3oam Tuesday morning: he is pinging off the ceiling and keeping my second son awake – I don’t particularly feel tired either but I am annoyed as shit, I have only myself to blame, I’ve got to make sure the meds don’t get missed anymore
Meals
- I only ate a few pickles and some chips
- 2 cups of coffee and 2 glasses of water since midnight
- I didn’t realize exactly to what extent the Topamax has been killing my appetite until I started this, I was a sporadic eater before but now I’m eating next to nothing. Now I’m really wondering why my cholesterol was so high that last lab.
Tuesday ~ Date
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 1 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Sleep Quality: 0
Hours of Sleep: 6:30am to 2:30pm today, 8 hours total – Little Bear passed out around 4pm
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax at 6am – gave Little Bear his at this time too because I was too tired to wait for 7am
- 75mg Topamax at 7pm – Little Bear still asleep, debating whether to wake him for his med, if I do I risk having him up all night
Meals
- so far just a few chips
- 1 cup of coffee
- 3 glass of water
Wednesday ~ Date
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 1 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Sleep Quality: -1
Hours of Sleep: 9:30am to 12:45pm and 10pm to 12am ~ so 5 hours total
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax at 7am
- 75mg Topamax at 7pm
Meals
- 5 cups coffee
- 4 water
- 2 cans Dr. Pepper
- took the boys out to eat first thing in the morning
- ate a bacon waffle (bacon is in the Belgian waffle), ordered a steak with eggs, spinach and rye toast and ate half of all that too
- went to parents house and ate a burrito, some strawberries and tomatoes
Thursday ~ Date
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Sleep Quality: -1
Hours of Sleep: 12am to 2am
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax at 7am
- 75mg Topamax at 7pm
Meals
- ate another burrito, more tomatoes, & strawberries when I woke up
- 1 cup coffee in the morning but after that I lost count of the coffee and soda I had – I know it was quite a few, at least 3 cans of soda and at least 3 more coffee
Friday ~ Date
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Sleep Quality: 0
Hours of Sleep: 6am to 3pm – 9 hours
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax at 7pm
Meals
- 2 bowls of Cheerios w/ bananas when I got up
- 3 hot dogs w/ wheat bread for dinner
- 3 cups of coffee so far at the time of writing this