Another week survived! One more before school starts and then it’s a completely different can of worms to deal with! I can hardly wait… actually I could… like a few more months even. That’s how much I hate dealing with that school.
Mood Score Key:
Sliding into Hypomania = 1 ~ Hypomania = 2 ~ Mania = 3 ~ Baseline (My Normal) = 0
Sliding into Depression = -1 ~ Depression = -2 ~ Severe Depression = -3
Energy Score Key:
Low = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ High = 1
Irritation Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Anxiety Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Migraine Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A
Sleep Quality Score Key:
Bad = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ Great = 1
Saturday ~ August 13, 2016
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed @ 2am, up at 6:30am – 4.5 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- 20oz bottle Dr. Pepper
- 4 cups coffee
- 4 homemade pancakes
Sunday ~ August 14, 2016
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed @ 5am, up 11am – 6 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Meds Taken
- missed them this morning
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- 4 cups coffee
Monday ~ August 15, 2016
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0A
Hours of Sleep: bed @ 4am, up 11am – 7 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Meds Taken
- missed them this morning
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- 1 cup coffee (spent the day trying to descale my K-cup machine)
- 5 cups iced instant peach tea
- 6 mini Hershey special dark bars
- Bologna Sandwich on wheat
Notes
- By the end of the day I had an aura. Not enough pain to want any meds, but my neck was bothering me. Factors I’m certain that played into this: the lack of coffee and the meds I missed the last two days. I don’t know if the instant tea mix had played a role in this or not. I haven’t tried it before and the label doesn’t list any trigger ingredients, not even “natural flavors” which usually means lemon when it comes to tea. But seeming how the boys don’t like it and I ended up in misery I don’t think I’ll be trying it again. Certainly not as a substitute for coffee anyhow – there is obviously not enough caffeine in it to prevent me from dying. No seriously, I feel like like I’m dying here.
Tuesday ~ August 16, 2016
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 2A
Hours of Sleep: bed @ 2am, up @ 5:30am, 3.5 hours total
Sleep Quality: -1
Meds Taken
- 2 Excedrine Migraine – because no Ibuprophen in the home
- Topamax not taken that morning
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- 1 cup Coffee
Notes
- WHY do I even bother trying the Excedrine? I’m lucky if it stays down 15 minutes. The percolated coffee worked better. As soon as Scholar Owl gets up and takes his meds I’m sending him out to pick up the Ibuprophen. I can’t believe I allowed myself to run out.
- Edit: I failed to send him out to get said Ibuprophen, but two days later a bottle of it was found stashed away where it didn’t belong. *scowl*
Wednesday ~ August 17, 2016
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed @ 2am, up @ 5:30 am – 3.5 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 6am
- 75mg Topamax @ 8:30pm
Meals
- 3 cups Coffee
- 2 cups Pepsi
- took the boys to Pizza Hut for the lunch buffet, I ate 5 slices of pizza
- 1 bean & cheese burrito with lettuce & tomato for dinner
Thursday ~ August 18, 2016
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed @ 2am, up at 5:30 am – 3.5 total
Sleep Quality: 0
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- 8 cups coffee
- 1 handful green beans
- 1 cup peach yougurt w/ the fruit on the bottom
Friday ~ August 19, 2016
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: see below ~ Irritation: see below ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: NONE thus far
Sleep Quality: 0
Energy AM: 1
Energy Noon: 1
Energy PM: 0 (I don’t know how to explain this, but it’s actually fluctuating tonight like waves – one hour I’m tired, the next I’m ready to go again, then I’m fine, back up, then tired, etc – no fixed pattern either)
Irritation AM: 0
Irritation Noon: 3
Irritation PM: 2
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- 4 cups Coffee
- 16oz Pepsi
- 2pc boneless chicken
Notes
- All irritation has been centered around getting Little Bear to cooperate with getting errands done and his foul mood
- Started the day strong, but I feel seriously run over now
- By 9pm my brain found it’s second wind, by 11pm I made myself go to bed because I knew if I didn’t I would spend another day without sleep – it was a scary thought to me
You’re food intake greatly resembles mine.
It doesn’t surprise me. I’ve noticed something distressing about these meds. Either they completely kill your appetite or they make you horrifyingly hungry – like I was on the Abilify. There is no in-between with these meds at all.
And of course mood cycles and anxiety thrown into the mix play a role in eating habits as well. Sometimes I wish I could finish college just so I could be the specialized dietician I have been looking for: the one that understands these meds, understands psych, and how diet is affected by both.
This med has been helping a lot but I think I would feel even better if I ate a better balanced diet. Knowing this isn’t enough though when you have ZERO appetite. I need a better plan than “just eat more”.