Overview
Mood Score Key:
Sliding into Hypomania = 1 ~ Hypomania = 2 ~ Mania = 3 ~ Baseline (My Normal) = 0
Sliding into Depression = -1 ~ Depression = -2 ~ Severe Depression = -3
Energy Score Key:
Low = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ High = 1
Irritation Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Anxiety Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Migraine Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A
Sleep Quality Score Key:
Bad = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ Great = 1
Special Notes for the Week
Menses Start Date: ~
Weigh-In at Med Clinic: ~
Saturday ~ October 29, 2016
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed @ 1am, up @ 6am – 5 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- forgot to record & don’t remember
Sunday ~ October 30, 2016
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: awesome, forgot to record this
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ ?am
- 75mg Topamax @ ?pm
- med box shows I took them but I forgot to record times
Meals
- forgot to record & don’t remember
Monday ~ October 31, 2016 ~ HALLOWEEN
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: forgot to record
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time: walked for 2.5 hours while Trick-or-Treating with Little Bear
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 5:30pm (before Trick-or-Treating)
Meals
- forgot to record and don’t recall exactly, but yes some candy was eaten
Notes
- Meeting with school for Little Bear (pre-evaluation discussion for IEP determination)
- Right after meeting checked on apartment and found evidence of trespassing – biggest thing found was circuit breaker left open and messed and with everything in freezer had gone bad
- Trick-or-Treating
- Watched Halloween themed movies with Scholar Owl
Tuesday ~ November 1, 2016 ~ NaNoWriMo Begins!
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 2 ~ Migraine: 2
Hours of Sleep: bed @ 2am, up @ 6:30am – 4.5 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time: some walking in town 15min, packing, cleaning, & lugging
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 600mg Ibuprophen @ 8am
- 600mg Ibuprophen @ 2pm
- 600mg Ibuprophen @ 6pm
- 75mg Topamax @ 7:30pm
Meals
- 5 Cups of Coffee
- 1 Bottle (16oz.) Moxie – still don’t have a way to explain this soda
- snack size bag of pretzels
Notes
- Tinnitus was horrible all day, both ears hurt with lots of pressure – right ear popped with a loud sound at one point around 6-7pm, hearing reduced in that ear now
- Spent the day cleaning the apartment
- fridge, freezer, and packed clean laundry – disconnected Wi-Fi router and took that with us too
Wednesday ~ November 2, 2016
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 (at about 2pm I got hit with it hard) ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 1 Hours of Sleep: bed at 2am, up at 6am – 4 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 600mg Ibuprophen @ 11am
- 600mg Ibuprophen @ 2pm
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- 6 Cups of Coffee (I think, lost count – probably had more?)
- Large Cup of Coffee from the Gas Station with 2 of the Stok brand Caffeine Creamers added to it
- Chicken Nuggets, Boiled Potatoes with the Skins on, Carrots
Notes
- More packing and cleaning in the apartment
- My therapy
- Tinnitus super bad ALL day, mild pressure in both ears
Thursday ~ November 3, 2016
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: (see notes) ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 5am, up @ 6:30am – 1.5 hours total, for reals
Sleep Quality: what sleep? it ended as soon as it started 😛
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 800mg Ibuprophen @ ? (back pain)
- 800mg Ibuprophen @ ? (back pain)
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- 6 Cups of Coffee
- don’t remember
Notes
- AM Energy: -0.5 not exactly tired, but exactly with it either – feeling the brain fog
- Went shopping for 2 small computer desks, just Scholar Owl and I went, was a mistake with me lifting – hurt my back and did something to my hip that left my right foot numb and my right shoulder/arm feeling weird, now not sure how we’re going to get them upstairs without help and probably won’t be getting any packing/cleaning done today – this is on top of tripping and falling at the gas station yesterday, bruising both knees badly
- Tinnitus is still pretty bad in both ears
- Scholar Owl’s History of Medicine Class with Piggie
Friday ~ November 4, 2016
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 2am, up at 6:30am – 4.5 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 800mg Ibuprophen @ ? (back pain)
- 800mg Ibuprophen @ ? (back pain)
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- 5 Cups of Coffee
- ate half a medium cheese pizza
- 20oz Dr. Pepper
- ate about 5 of those smoke mozz. cheese wrapped in ham
Have you ever talked to your doctor about sleep meds?
Most of the time I don’t feel tired honestly. Even as a small child I averaged about 6 hours of sleep much to my parents’ frustration an ire. And they tried everything. They discovered the hard way that Benedryl had paradoxical side effects on me in their attempts to force me to sleep longer/sooner. And it just so happens my children are the same. My father has given me the speeches about how my children should be going to bed at 7pm, not 9pm. Most mornings they get up at 6:30am with little trouble so I’m not fighting that fight for an earlier bed time. I have been offered sleep meds at the old clinic before being put on Topamax because I complained I couldn’t stay asleep but they weren’t listening to me why that was a problem. The problem was Little Bear wasn’t staying asleep plus my own nightmares. The Topamax addressed the nightmares and Little Bear’s meds has now gotten him to sleep most of the night. So no, I’m not interested in sleep meds.
I’m assuming you’re asking due to the sleep pattern I’ve got going on right now. I will admit that right now it’s happening on purpose. It’s how I got through college back in the day and now I’m trying to juggle moving, family, and writing. If I had a job still I would be juggling that in too.
The biggest thing I have against sleep meds is I don’t have any control over how much sleep I get once that med is in my system. I’m out until that med has been processed through my body. I have children with special needs. So yea, I was a little miffed that my parents and my oldest son let me sleep through the morning today, but I get why they made the judgement call they did. If I could sleep in the living room through all that noise then I must have been really tired and if shit went down, they could wake me up in a hurry. In fact, what woke me up was Little Bear pitching a fit over a game.
I guess what I’m trying to say is, I know my sleep right now is not good. I know I’m paying for it. I know it’s the biggest reason my joints aren’t recovering from that lift when we bought the desks. I am pushing myself here and it is with intent. I have a fear though that if I back off that I won’t get stuff done.
I can only move and clean stuff in the apartment during the day and pretty much only during school days. So that limits me greatly there and leaves me with nights only to write.
I’m wondering how much of my difficulty/slowness with the writing that I’m not used to is from having not done it in awhile, brain fog from the meds that was never there before, and just plain being tired from all the moving stuff. I have no doubt it’s a combination.
It’s just a matter of finding a groove and a balance.
I get it. It makes total sense. You’ve got a pile of crap going on right now and you’re powering through. It’s completely understandable.
I just need to be careful not to burn myself out. You asking about sleep meds did make me step back and look at it – again – and ask myself what I’m doing. Today I decided not to go to the apartment at all. I just hurt too much and my parents are already babysitting my brother’s kids. Maybe instead I’ll move the computer that Little Bear uses upstairs and get it set up. Dad offered to let me set up the one I’m using now up there too. I suppose I could but I have my own back at the apartment. Tuxedo Cat’s computer though is doing something weird. The cooling fan is making an awful whining sound like it’s trying to die. No one likes to listen to it from what I understand. My hearing is going to shit so I don’t notice it much unless everyone has gone to bed and it’s been left on. I’ll talk to Dad on that. This computer isn’t bad and mine is still good. It would be the end of Tuxedo Cat’s world if he lost the ability to play Minecraft.
You have a lot going on even without the apartment. I do get what you are saying though about wanting to be careful. I don’t have kids, so if I oversleep I’m not missing much. Getting more sleep could be very helpful, but only you know what you will be comfortable doing.
I miss the freedom of napping whenever. lol