Surviving this week. Somehow.
Mood Score Key:
Sliding Hypomania = 1 ~ Hypomania = 2 ~ Mania = 3 ~ Baseline (My Normal) = 0
Sliding Depression = -1 ~ Depression = -2 ~ Severe Depression = -3 ~ M = Mixed State
Energy Score Key:
Low = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ High = 1
Irritation Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Anxiety Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Migraine Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A
Sleep Quality Score Key:
Bad = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ Great = 1
Special Notes for the Week
Menses Start Date: ~
Weigh-In at Med Clinic: ~
Sunday ~ December 18, 2016
Mood: 1 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 2 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 3:30am, up at 10am – 6.5 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 10:30am
- ? I’m assuming I missed it
Meals
- 5 cups of coffee
- 1 bowl of custom ramen
- 2 cotto salami & cheese sandwich on wheat
Notes
- No idea what the deal was but Little Bear was ultra nasty today and just really set my nerves off and it wasn’t just me, he pissed off my mom and his brothers and far as he was concerned it was everyone else’s fault – sorry dude but no one made you throw things across the room you were in by yourself, or make you screech that high pitch screech of yours that your invisible friends like that no one else does (think nails on the chalk board kind of screeching) – the list goes on @_@ Mom tells me this is normal for the 8 year old phase and he just hit it early is all – on what planet is ANY of this shit normal? In our family? MAYBE. Maybe… And that’s a BIG FAT MAYBE. That’s just how weird we are. I am so not looking forward to the teen years with this kid and I said as much to her. She gave me the deer in the head lights look. Yeah that’s what I thought. There is nothing normal in this shit at all. But thanks for trying to make me feel better, Mom. I do appreciate the thought. <3
Monday ~ December 19, 2016
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 1 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 9pm the night before (passed out next to Little Bear right after reading his bedtime story), up at 12am, napped between 12pm and 3pm – 6 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- pm skipped because meds are low and need a refill
Meals
- 5 cups of coffee
- 2 tuna sandwiches
Notes
- I don’t think following my newly minted routines are going so well at the moment
- fuck, wasn’t paying attention to my own med supply in the bottle – only have enough until Wednesday and I have no med clinic appointment set up at all, I pray that they’ll get me set up okay when I go in for therapy and get the med clinic appointment scheduled, UGH
Tuesday ~ December 20, 2016
Mood: 1 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 1 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep:
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm (the med better be in tomorrow)
Meals
- 5 cups of coffee
- 2 bologna & cheese sandwich on wheat
- 2 breaded fish w/ tartar sauce & potato puffs
Notes
Wednesday ~ December 21, 2016
Mood: 1 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 1A
Hours of Sleep: bed at 10:30am, up at 2pm – 3.5 hours sleep
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 600 Ibuprophen @ 10am
- 1 Zyrtec OTC @ 10am
- 600mg Ibuprophen @ 5pm
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- 4 cups of coffee
- 1 sub sandwich w/ snack sized bag of chips
Notes
- husband’s arrival date – he didn’t show but did call the boys, didn’t talk to me
- didn’t get the school’s giving tree package because slept during the day, awesome
- med clinic never called me back today and I’ll be gone all day tomorrow
Thursday ~ December 22, 2016
Mood: 1 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 3
Hours of Sleep: bed at 12am, up at 3am – 3 hours total
Sleep Quality: -1
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 600mg Ibuprophen @ 12am
- 600mg Ibuprophen @ 3am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
Meals
- 2 cups coffee (extra strong before 6am)
- 1 sub sandwich (before 6am to calm stomach)
- 1 large coffee from gas station
- half a 20oz bottle of Dr. Pepper – gave the rest to the boys
- turkey sandwich from the gas station
- 4 cup of coffee
- sub sandwich
Notes
- neuropsych eval for Little Bear (round 1)
- struggled hard to stay awake in the lobby waiting for them to finish their first round of screenings with Little Bear – really sucked
Friday ~ December 23, 2016
Mood: 1 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 1
Hours of Sleep: bed at 4am, up at 9am (actually up off and on starting at 6am) – broken 5 hours total
Sleep Quality: -1
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 600mg Ibuprophen @ ?
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- 4 cups of coffee
- 3 pc. fried chicken
Notes
Saturday ~ December 24, 2016
Mood: 1 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 1 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: tried to sleep at midnight, didn’t work – bed at 6:30am, up at 9am – (fuck this shit, hubby isn’t here due to his family I guess? so I’m going back to bed)
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 9am
- 75mg Topamax @ 8pm
Meals
- 5 cup of coffee
- 1 bowl of macaroni w/ parm. cheese
Notes
- boys still need to wrap their gifts – done
- he showed up around 6:30pm