I’m sliding. I can feel it. I’m certain of it. I see the decline of interest in even with my mood tracker. An over all sense of “Fuck It” in everything I do. There is a stinging threat of tears beneath my skin at every turn. The ever present ache and discomfort in each joint making me feel older than my body is. I’m tired so damn tired… but sleep is no friend of mine. My thoughts feel tangled and sticky, caught in the wind – tethered by a single thread. One gust my thoughts would be lost and with it my heart ripped out. A teacup lost in the ocean storm with no sight of the shore. I’m lost.
Today the songs at the top of the list are my beacon of light, reminding me I’m not alone and this too shall pass. Not sure just yet what needs to be done to rebalance my brain, but I’ll get there. No storm lasts forever.
Songs at the Top this Week:
- “Not Alone” – Red
- “Alone” – Alan Walker
- “Shooting Star” – Owl City
- “Firework” – Katy Perry
- “You Decide” – Fireflight
- “Sanctuary” – Paradise Fears
Here’s the link to the YouTube page for the playlist:
The play list is getting longer and you are welcome to add more songs to the list. I know I’ll keep adding songs as I find them. The songs you add need to fit at least one of the following themes:
You can add them by clicking HERE. Remember the songs can be from any genre and be by any artist. If you don’t have a YouTube account that’s okay. Don’t be afraid to make suggestions in the comments. I will add them to the playlist. At this rate by the end of the year we will have an awesome playlist for a seriously cool party to ring in 2018. That’s pretty sweet to think about.
How did your week go? I hope your weekend is great!
3 thoughts on “TGIF Chaos Rally #8”
I hope you are feeling better. Remember that you are loved and if you start to forget, get out your little frog. He’ll remind you 🙂 Huggles <3
Thank you. It’s more than likely because of the week without meds and then these stressors after catching up to me. Even now it feels like it’s fluctuating. But depression has always be one to do this and then suddenly I’ll find myself neck deep. I’m hoping the med holds. <3 Hugs.
I hope it does too!