Public school vacation. I survived. Just getting by, one day at a time.
Mood Score Key:
Sliding Hypomania = 1 ~ Hypomania = 2 ~ Mania = 3 ~ Baseline (My Normal) = 0
Sliding Depression = -1 ~ Depression = -2 ~ Severe Depression = -3 ~ M = Mixed State
Energy Score Key:
Low = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ High = 1
Irritation Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Anxiety Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Migraine Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A
Sleep Quality Score Key:
Bad = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ Great = 1
Special Notes for the Week
Menses Start Date: ~
Weigh-In at Med Clinic: ~
Sunday ~ February 19, 2017
Mood: -1 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: I don’t know because I almost forgot to set this week’s tracker up, but I do know Little Bear isn’t sleeping at night
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ ?am
- 1000mg Fish Oil @ ?am
- Multivitamin @ ?am
- Gummy Vit B @ ?am
- 75mg Topamax ?pm
- Probiotic @ ?pm
- (med box says I took them)
Meals
- ? cups of coffee
- corned beef dinner
Notes
Monday ~ February 20, 2017
Mood: -1 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: I don’t know because I almost forgot to set this week’s tracker up, but I do know Little Bear isn’t sleeping at night
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ ?am
- 1000mg Fish Oil @ ?am
- Multivitamin @ ?am
- Gummy Vit B @ ?am
- 75mg Topamax ?pm
- Probiotic @ ?pm
- (med box says I took them)
Meals
- ? cups of coffee
- Corn Chowder
Notes
Tuesday ~ February 21, 2017
Mood: -1 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 2am, up at 6am – 4 hours sleep
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 1000mg Fish Oil @ 7am
- Multivitamin @ 7am
- Gummy Vit B @ 7am
- forgot night meds
Meals
- 4 cups of coffee
Notes
- therapy Tuesday
Wednesday ~ February 22, 2017
Mood: -1 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at midnight, up at 10am
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 1000mg Fish Oil @ 7am
- Multivitamin @ 7am
- Gummy Vit B @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax ?pm
- Probiotic @ ?pm
- (med box says I took them)
Meals
- ? cups of coffee
Notes
Thursday ~ February 23, 2017
Mood: -1 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 3 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at ?, up at 8am
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- meds forgotten entirely, fucking awesome
Meals
- ? cups of coffee
- breaded fish, boiled potatoes
Notes
- took Little Bear to the dentist to have his spacers put in, saw signs of a bad mood in him, spent almost two hours there getting his teeth cleaned, x-rayed and the damn things put in – by some miracle this all goes down smoothly – drive almost an hour to get home HE PULLS THE SPACER OUT ON ONE SIDE, so I call the office and they tell me the soonest they can get us in to fix it is Tuesday – I have to deal with this 7 yr old running around with a fucking wire hanging out of his mouth for FOUR DAYS because this damn thing didn’t set like it was supposed to? fuck this shit – I can’t believe this took three appointments to make this happen AND they billed our insurance a total of $2k for this shit – to say I’m fucking pissed doesn’t even begin to state my feelings here – I’m pissed my son fucked with it, I’m pissed that they clearly didn’t set it right on that side because I couldn’t take the other side off just to get the fucking thing out of his mouth so he can eat, and I’m pissed that the office lady didn’t seem to understand what the fuck I was telling her and thought that this can wait four days
Friday ~ February 24, 2017
Mood: -2 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 2 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 5am, up 7am, bed at 8, up at 10am, bed at 7pm, up at 9pm – 6 hours total (fuck this noise)
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 1000mg Fish Oil @ 7am
- Multivitamin @ 7am
- Gummy Vit B @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax 7pm
- Probiotic @ 7pm
Meals
- ? cups of coffee
- 2 slices of cheese pizza
Notes
- took Little Bear back to the dentist so they could remove the messed up spacer from his mouth and measure his mouth for a new one – a mother in the lobby told me this shit happens all the time, her daughter went through this SEVEN TIMES before her adult teeth came in with her spacer – and the dentist acted like it was a normal thing to happen and THEN I find out that insurance only pays for it ONCE IN A LIFETIME so unless the lab is willing to pay for the replacement where the soldering broke after it popped off the tooth, I will have to fork out of pocket $600 for this damn flimsy piece of wire that supposedly will prevent the need for braces
- Little Bear’s meds still hasn’t come in the mail, so I called in the insurance company to find that they had gotten the order on the 15th but hadn’t shipped it yet but they’ll put a rush on it for me now – ugh… so I had to go over to the store and pick up another 5 day emergency fill and pay for that out of pocket
- and now the engine light on my car just came on and I don’t. fucking. know. why.
- all three boys nearly broke out into World War III over discovering a box of chocolates that belonged to Tuxedo Cat (he got for Xmas) that had been mysteriously eaten and left in Little Bear’s room after dinner
- problem #1: Little Bear wasn’t home most of the day
- problem #2: there was a span of time that Tuxedo Cat and I had gone to the store and Little Bear and Scholar Owl stayed home just before dinner
- problem #3: I took a nap after dinner just before all this shit broke out
- problem #4: I honestly don’t know who is telling me the truth on this one
Saturday ~ February 25, 2017
Mood: -1 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: damned if I know – after midnight, up at 10am
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 10am
- 1000mg Fish Oil @ 10am
- Multivitamin @ 10am
- Gummy Vit B @ 10am
- (starting to wonder if these vitamins are helping the way the med clinic said they would)
- 75mg Topamax 7pm
- Probiotic @ 7pm
Meals
- 3 cups of coffee
- spaghetti with tomato sauce
Notes
- struggled to write a solid first episode for the Nusquamton series that will lay the foundation of the premise and set the tone – here is it 7pm and all I have is 700 words and this is the THIRD rewrite from scratch for the fucking thing – seriously beginning to wonder what the fuck I’m doing