I wish people would start listening to me and just believe me about Little Bear’s sleep patterns for once. The medication they tell me to give him to help with it is NOT working. It might the first few days, but stops after that. Nobody seems to believe that. I don’t understand that. I need to create his own mood tracker for him.
Mood Score Key:
Sliding Hypomania = 1 ~ Hypomania = 2 ~ Mania = 3 ~ Baseline (My Normal) = 0
Sliding Depression = -1 ~ Depression = -2 ~ Severe Depression = -3 ~ M = Mixed State
Energy Score Key:
Low = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ High = 1
Irritation Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Anxiety Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Migraine Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A
Sleep Quality Score Key:
Bad = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ Great = 1
Special Notes for the Week
Menses Start Date: ~
Weigh-In at Med Clinic: ~
Sunday ~ March 5, 2017
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: forgot to document
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- ? cups of coffee
- ham and potato puffs
Notes
Monday ~ March 6, 2017
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 2 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: forgot to document
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- ? cups of coffee
- left over beef stew & biscuits
Notes
- I think I alienated a critiquer today with a response unintentionally – note to self: if my irritation levels are high I should never send a message to anyone for any reason, it leaks through no matter how polite I’m trying to be – I don’t like it when that happens – I haven’t even done a critique since then for this reason just to play it safe
- Revised “The Demons That Bind Us” again – took all day
Tuesday ~ March 7, 2017
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 2A
Hours of Sleep: forgot to document – passed out from migraine
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- 2 cups of coffee
- pork fried rice (homemade – very spicy, Dad forget the egg)
- 1 lg. coffee from gas station
Notes
- Scholar Owl’s med clinic appointment
- My therapy appointment
- went to Hobby Lobby in between and bought us some art supplies – he picked up some art instruction books and I got more colored sketch pencils (mine disappeared again – I don’t technically draw I don’t think, mostly color – would like to try my hand at Zen Tangle Art if I ever get around to it though) and another journal
- Still haven’t done any critiques, mostly because of the migraine but I don’t know if the irritation levels are really gone yet or if it’s just down because I’m avoiding everyone – seriously though sitting here just typing this is a chore, my eyes feel fucked up right now – woke up in pain at 6am and it’s now almost 10pm
- Out of curiosity, and because of something Piggy had said, I didn’t give Little Bear his Benadryl last night, as a result he was still awake come 11:30pm and so I gave him a half tab of Clonidine, come 12:30am he was still awake, it wasn’t until a quarter to 1am that he finally went to sleep
Wednesday ~ March 8, 2017
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 1am, up at 5:30am – 4.5 total hours
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- ? cups of coffee
- home made pizza
Notes
- Little Bear didn’t want to get up at 7am and complained the entire time about needing/wanting his sleep this morning and threatened to sleep in school – not my problem, don’t give a fuck – stay in bed at bedtime, quit fighting me on this, sleep at night when you’re supposed to, and mornings will go better for you. period. tired of this shit and I’m tired of people not listening to me when I explain what’s exactly happening with this
- Scholar Owl was awake past midnight last night again too and the med clinic’s answer to that was put him back on melatonin – that’s all well and good if the behavior follows through with that, but we’re talking about a teenager with Bipolar here – at least this nurse is reluctant to slap extra meds on my son, so kudos to her for that, and they recommended a 2000 UI vit D supplement as well which caused my dad to squawk because no blood work was done for that (in Maine everyone is universally deficient due to the fact the UV light is only correct for 2 weeks out of the year for natural production, so yeah I was in UMO for the research done on that to figure out the standardized supplement needed in Maine for the average population 7 years ago… but no, we don’t know what the fuck we’re talking about)
- gave Little Bear a half tab of Clonidine with his meds at 7pm but it wasn’t until 11pm that I was able to go to bed
Thursday ~ March 9, 2017
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 11pm, up at 6am – 7 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- 4 cups of coffee
- breaded fish & French fries
Notes
- more aggravation with Little Bear this morning – he was arguing with Tuxedo Cat as they were getting on the bus even
- bus driver threatened to kick Little Bear off the bus for a few days if he doesn’t stay in his seat and leave the other kids alone
- didn’t give Little Bear a Clonidine last night, just the Lamictal and the Benedryl, fought with him to go to sleep like I do every. fucking. night.
Friday ~ March 10, 2017
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 12am, up at 3am – 3 hours total
Sleep Quality: -1
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- 4 cups of coffee
- 1 slice of leftover pizza in middle of night
- I fixed the boys hot dogs, my parents got dinner elsewhere, I passed all around
Notes
- gave Little Bear his Lamictal and Benedryl at 7pm, he was awake until 12am – for what it’s worth, I am seeing less behavioral problems at home during the day since the morning increase of his Lamictal, this is week two on that and next week we increase the night dose as well, if we can stabilize his sleep I think we will see a marked improvement all around
Saturday ~ March 11, 2017
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 12am, up at 6am – 6 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
Meals
- 1 cups of coffee
Notes