This week felt overwhelming – both in social obligation and in loneliness.
Mood Score Key:
Sliding Hypomania = 1 ~ Hypomania = 2 ~ Mania = 3 ~ Baseline (My Normal) = 0
Sliding Depression = -1 ~ Depression = -2 ~ Severe Depression = -3 ~ M = Mixed State
Energy Score Key:
Low = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ High = 1
Irritation Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Anxiety Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Migraine Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A
Sleep Quality Score Key:
Bad = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ Great = 1
Special Notes for the Week
Menses Start Date: ~
Weigh-In at Med Clinic: ~
Sunday ~ April 16, 2017
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: forgot to record it
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- out of Topamax
Meals
- 4 cups of coffee
- Easter Dinner: turkey, mashed potatoes, sweet potatoes, homemade bread & chocolate pie
Notes
- Easter
Monday ~ April 17, 2017
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 2am, up at 8am – 6 hours
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- out of Topamax
Meals
- 4 cups of coffee
- spaghetti and cake
Notes
- birthday party for niece
- neuropsych assessment report finally came in the mail and the woman added ADHD hyperactive type to his diagnosis in the report even though verbally she told me she hadn’t – I’m not sure how I feel about this discrepancy, I know I blogged about this before how I felt like this woman wasn’t telling me everything at the parent meeting
Tuesday ~ April 18, 2017
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -2 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 2am, can’t remember now but I took a nap today – or tried to
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- out of Topamax
- 600mg Ibuprophen @ fucked if I can remember (what the hell is happening to my memory lately?)
Meals
- 3 cups of coffee
- slice of cheese
- piece of carrot cake
Notes
- Therapy Tuesday
- the last few days my muscles have been knotted up so bad I’ve cried – charlie horses in the arch of my foot, in my calf and my shoulders and neck are all fucked up in knots – so fucking tired, so tired of the pain, tired of feeling like I haven’t slept
Wednesday ~ April 19, 2017
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: don’t fucking know, I was tired as hell yesterday but I took no naps
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- out of Topamax
Meals
- 3 cups of coffee
- 3 turkey sandwiches with white cheddar and mayo
Notes
- someone on Scribophile just compared my work to Clive Barker today – in a nice way – and I damn near cried – I think highly of this author not so much for his style but for the scope and depth of the concepts he’s willing to explore in a story, so this means a lot to me and gives me the courage to keep writing – it couldn’t have come at a better time since the last couple of days I’ve been hit with self doubt with my work – I must be doing something right (the best part to me in all this is that the person hasn’t read the one story that I did write in tribute to Clive Barker’s work)
Thursday ~ April 20, 2017
Mood: -1M ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 12:30am, up at 8am – 3.5 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- out of Topamax
Meals
- 4 cups of coffee
- fish and French fries
Notes
- Struggling with Loneliness and my sexuality – feeling pretty broken
Friday ~ April 21, 2017
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep:
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- out of Topamax
Meals
Notes
Saturday ~ April 22, 2017
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep:
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- out of Topamax
Meals
Notes