The week wasn’t a disaster. Here’s hoping next week won’t be as well.
Mood Score Key:
Sliding Hypomania = 1 ~ Hypomania = 2 ~ Mania = 3 ~ Baseline (My Normal) = 0
Sliding Depression = -1 ~ Depression = -2 ~ Severe Depression = -3 ~ M = Mixed State
Energy Score Key:
Low = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ High = 1
Irritation Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Anxiety Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Migraine Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A
Sleep Quality Score Key:
Bad = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ Great = 1
Special Notes for the Week
Menses Start Date: ~
Weigh-In at Med Clinic: ~
Sunday ~ June 18, 2017
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 11:30pm night before, up at 5:30am – 6 hours total
~ napped off and on all day
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
Meals
- 4 cups of coffee
- 12oz. cold brew iced tea, plain (no sugar or cream unlike my coffee)
- ham dinner with mashed potatoes, sweet potatoes, green beans, and corn bread
Notes
- I’m surprised with Little Bear today. He spilled some orange juice near my coffee pot but cleaned it up without complaint. He was more upset over wasting his drink than the cleaning.
Monday ~ June 19, 2017
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 3am, up at 7:30am – 4.5 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 25mg Topamax @ 8:30pm
Meals
- 5 cups of coffee (either I haven’t been writing down every cup of coffee accurately in the past few days or today is just unusually high for me)
- 2 glasses of cold brew tea
- 4 slices of deluxe meat pizza from Walmart (so exciting)
Notes
Tuesday ~ June 20, 2017
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 10:30pm night before, up at 6am, bed at 2pm, up at 4pm
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 25mg Topamax @ 7am
- 25mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- 4 cups of coffee
- large cold brew mocha latte from gas station
- glass of cold brew iced tea
- potato puffs and breakfast sausage (for dinner)
Notes
- therapy Tuesday for Scholar Owl and I
- med clinic for Scholar Owl
- gave Scholar Owl a written copy of my mood tracker in a notebook for him to use – hope it helps him
Wednesday ~ June 21, 2017
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 11pm, up at 5:30am
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
Meals
- 5 cups of coffee
- 1 glass of milk, 3 eggs, 1 breakfast sausage patty, and 2 slices of wheat toast with raspberry jelly
- 1 bowl of mac & cheese
Notes
- hubby is supposed to be arriving on leave sometime today
- music teacher would like to see Tuxedo Cat once a week for piano practice – hoping that we’ll have a babysitter for Little Bear every week
- Dad said no problem so piano practice starts next week
- heaven forbid I get along with both my parents at the same time for any length of time – never fails one will end up stirring up shit with me about the other: today Dad made a big deal about finding a box of juice boxes that had been stashed back in the back of the pantry that I had bought for Little Bear’s snacks asking me if I had hid them for some reason and I said no, I needed them with his chip snacks for school so of course he started in about how Mom shuffles things around and how she needs to be in control of everything and I asked him why that is (because quite frankly I don’t see much difference between the two of them in this regard) and he gets bent about it – I guess that wasn’t supposed to have been my response? I’m assuming I was supposed to agree with him and leave it at that, but now it occurs to me it wouldn’t matter what my response is since he’ll likely tell her either way and stir up more shit *facedesk* I’m tired of the passive aggressive bullshit behavior from my mother and whatever the fuck it is from my father.
- hubby called tonight – just before curfew – to say he will be here sometime tomorrow afternoon (thanks for planning ahead)
Thursday ~ June 22, 2017
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 10:30pm but it wasn’t until sometime after midnight I feel asleep, up at 6am
Sleep Quality: -1
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 25mg Topamax @ 7am
- 400mg Ibuprophen @ 10am
- 25mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- 4 cups of coffee
- 1 apple
- 1 glass of cold brew tea
- a handful of red and black Red Vines candy
- 2 helpings of chicken nuggets and fries
Notes
- I woke up with anxiety and feeling there wasn’t enough coffee in the world to get me going for the day, but we shall see
- hubby showed up at 11:30am and even after I gave him a 10min and 5min warning, he still lingered 30min past 7pm so Little Bear’s bath got cold while waiting for him to leave – it wasn’t until I warmed it back up and had him in the tub that he finally left – these have been the rules for I don’t know how long now but he still feels the need to play these games, it’s bullshit
Friday ~ June 23, 2017
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 9:30pm, up at 6am
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 25mg Topamax @ 7am
- 25mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- 4 cups of coffee
- a handful of Red Vines candy (6 pieces – 3 are a serving)
- grilled cheese sand. on wheat and leftover chicken
- 2 glasses of cold brew iced tea
- 7 beef & cheese taquitos
Notes
- it seems that after only one day of being here, the novelty has worn off or something – Little Bear started with his shit, but with his dad today
- Little Bear wanted me to cut his hair tonight, so I did at 7pm
Saturday ~ June 24, 2017
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at midnight, up at 7am
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 25mg Topamax @ 7am
- 25mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- 4 cups of coffee
- 10 chicken taquitos
- 2 pieces of baked chicken, boiled potatoes with butter, green beans
- 2 glasses of cold brew tea
Notes
- dinner was late so hubby stayed late