Not that I’ve been blogging much to begin with lately but this week I’ve had to keep my tracker on a piece of paper and copy it over here Sunday morning since my bedroom is also my living room and the boys have been hanging out with him during the day to play on the Xbox. It’s stressful. I feel crowded out and hovered over. It’s exhausting.

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Mood Score Key:

Sliding Hypomania = 1  ~ Hypomania = 2 ~  Mania = 3  ~  Baseline (My Normal) = 0

Sliding Depression = -1  ~  Depression = -2  ~  Severe Depression = -3 ~ M = Mixed State

Energy Score Key:

Low = -1  ~  Normal = 0  ~  High = 1

Irritation Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3

Anxiety Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3

Migraine Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A

Sleep Quality Score Key:

Bad = -1  ~  Normal = 0  ~  Great = 1

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Special Notes for the Week

Menses Start Date: 6/25/2017

Weigh-In at Med Clinic: ~

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Sunday ~ June 25, 2017

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 11:30pm, up at 6am

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

• 25mg Topamax @ 7am
• 25mg Topamax @ 7pm

Meals

• 4 cups of Coffee
• 1 bag of microwave popcorn
• 1 peanut butter and jelly sandwich on wheat

Notes

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Monday ~ June 26, 2017

Mood: -1 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: see below

Hours of Sleep: bed at 11pm, up at 6am

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

• 25mg Topamax @ 7am
• 600mg Ibuprophen @ ?am (migraine: 0A)
• 600mg Ibuprophen @ 12pm
• 1000mg Tylenol @ 2pm (migraine: 1A)
• 600mg Ibuprophen @ 6pm (migraine: 2A)
• 1000mg Tylenol @ 6pm
• 25mg Topamax @ 7pm

Meals

• 3 cups of coffee
• 2 plates of spaghetti with meat sauce

Notes

• blacked out off and on – Dad said someone would cook dinner so I didn’t need to worry about it even though it was my turn, but 5pm rolled around and no one even started cooking so I cooked it even with the killing pain and messed up vision
• found out why my husband has been so friendly this visit: he had an appointment today with the lawyer to start the divorce process even though he says he will be sent to Korea some time next month so I expect to served the paperwork within the month
• husband claims he wants Little Bear to live with me so he has a stable home, school, and medical care but I’m waiting to see the actual paperwork

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Tuesday ~ June 27, 2017

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: didn’t sleep well until the dose of midnight pain meds, up at 5am

Sleep Quality: -1

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

• 600mg Ibuprophen @ 12am (migraine: 2A)
• 1000mg Tylenol @ 12am
• half cup of extra strong coffee (5 tbsps of grounds instead of 4) @ 12am
• 50mg Topamax @ 7am
• 600mg Advil @ 7am
• 1000mg Tylenol @ 7am
• 50mg Topamax @ 7pm

Meals

• finishing the coffee pot I brewed at midnight – cups: 2
• 2 cups of coffee
• 2 chicken patties and potato puffs

Notes

• Therapy Tuesday for me
• woke up at 0A for migraine
• migraine shifted to 1A by mid-morning

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Wednesday ~ June 28, 2017

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 12:30am, up at 6am

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

• 50mg Topamax @ 7am
• 50mg Topamax @ 7pm

Meals

• 3 cups of coffee
• 2 cheeseburgers on wheat

Notes

• my grandmother’s birthday

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Thursday ~ June 29, 2017

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 11:30pm night before, up at 6am, napped most of afternoon

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

• 50mg Topamax @ 7am
• 600mg Advil (Ibuprophen) @ ?
• 1000mg Tylenol @ ?
• 50mg Topamax @ 7pm

Meals

• 4 cups of coffee

Notes

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Friday ~ June 30, 2017

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -2 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 11pm night before, up at 4:30am, slept most of the day

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

• 50mg Topamax @ 7am
• 50mg Topamax @ 7pm

Meals

• 4 cups of coffee
• 8 pcs. Red Vines
• half a sub
• 2 bratwurst on buns

Notes

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Saturday ~ July 1, 2017

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 11:30pm night before, up at 6am

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

• 50mg Topamax @ 7am
• 50mg Topamax @ 7pm

Meals

• 4 cups of coffee
• pork chop, mashed potatoes, corn

Notes

• starting to wonder how much of this fatigue is due to the Topamax, but I would have to print out all the mood trackers and look at them – at the moment though, I’m thinking it’s just the stress
• appalled with how much my husband antagonized Little Bear and then by how much Scholar Owl went on a roll with roasting him (my husband) while playing video games – basically my husband showed Little Bear no mercy in competitive play and Scholar Owl found a million ways to say “you need to learn how to play” during co-op. It got bad enough I had to speak up. I couldn’t tell if he was being serious or just joking around.

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