This week brought some highs and lows, but I pulled through. Just need to keep my chin up and my head clear for the days to come. Pretty sure Little Bear doesn’t need to go to the day program at this point now that I’ve had the chance to review this week’s events. This is why I’m glad I keep a tracker like this because without it, I would never remember everything.

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Mood Score Key:

Sliding Hypomania = 1  ~ Hypomania = 2 ~  Mania = 3  ~  Baseline (My Normal) = 0

Sliding Depression = -1  ~  Depression = -2  ~  Severe Depression = -3 ~ M = Mixed State

Energy Score Key:

Low = -1  ~  Normal = 0  ~  High = 1

Irritation Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3

Anxiety Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3

Migraine Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A

Sleep Quality Score Key:

Bad = -1  ~  Normal = 0  ~  Great = 1

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Special Notes for the Week

Menses Start Date: ~

Weigh-In at Med Clinic: ~

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Sunday ~ November 26, 2017

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 1:30pm, up at 8am – 7.5 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

Meals

• 3 cups of coffee
• a handful of Halloween candy (yup, still have too much of what I bought hanging around)
• fish sticks and French fries

Notes

• Total Word Count for the Month: 47,440
• Today’s Word Count Goal: 6,743
• Today’s Total Word Count: 2,183
  • finished Chapter 22
  • finished Chapter 23

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Monday ~ November 27, 2017

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 1 (sinus)

Hours of Sleep: bed at 1:30am (okay I went to bed earlier than this, but this is what time it was when I last checked before actually falling asleep), up at 6am

Sleep Quality: -1

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

• 600mg Ibuprophen @ 1pm
• 1 Zyrtec @ 1pm

Meals

• 4 cups of coffee
• 1 “double shot” coffee (ran 4oz twice, fresh grounds both times, instead of an 8oz or 10oz once)
• 2 packets of instant oatmeal
• 3 leftover turkey on homemade roll
• a small handful of mini chocolate bars

Notes

• really not feeling it today, didn’t even know that “word fatigue” (mental fatigue brought about by extended writing) was a thing until this year – yes, even though my word count has been low this year, I’ve spent everyday sitting at my computer either writing or working out I’m going to write
• and to top it off, Little Bear got sick all over the place in my room (also serves as our very tiny living room here upstairs)
  • debating on whether to send him to school tomorrow or to keep him home and cancel my therapy appointment
• funny how switching out the music for something else can refresh the mind

The hour long track of choice that made the difference:

I mean, it’s pretty sad when catching up on the dishes that have been piling up since Thanksgiving becomes an excuse to procrastinate on writing – but wasn’t it Agatha Christie that had said something about dishes being the best time for planning a book?

• Total Word Count for the Month: 49,428
• Today’s Word Count Goal: 6,743
• Today’s Total Word Count: 1,988
  • Finished Chapter 24

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Tuesday ~ November 28, 2017

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 11:30pm night before, up at 6am – 7.5 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

Meals

• 4 cups of coffee
• 5oz packet Sunkist trail mix
• 2 packets of instant oatmeal with 2 slices of white toast
• 2 bowls of homemade turkey noodles

Notes

• Total Word Count for the Month: 50,970
• Today’s Word Count Goal: 6,572
• Today’s Total Word Count: 1,415
  • Finished Chapter 25
• Kept Little Bear home due to stomach flu

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Wednesday ~ November 29, 2017

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 3am, up at 6am – 3 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

Meals

• 3 cups of coffee
• 2 packets of instant oatmeal
• BBQ pork jerky
• steak, potatoes, green beans, pickled beets

Notes

• Total Word Count for the Month: 50,970
• Today’s Word Count Goal: 7,157
• Today’s Total Word Count: 127
  • Validated win as 50,940 words!
• Took Little Bear and Tuxedo Cat Christmas shopping

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Thursday ~ November 30, 2017

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 11pm night before, up at 6am – 7 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

Meals

• 1 cups of coffee
• 1 pkg. Sugar Cookie flavored Pop Tarts (nothing to write home about)
• 1 large coffee from gas station
• 2 16oz glasses of Pepsi
• Sushi and Sashimi plate with Scholar Owl
• leftover steak and potatoes with pickled beets

Notes

• Total Word Count for the Month: 50,970
• Today’s Word Count Goal: 2,000
• Today’s Total Word Count: 0
• Took Scholar Owl Christmas shopping and to his therapy appointment
• Tuxedo Cat’s piano lesson

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Friday ~ December 1, 2017

Mood: -1 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 1 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 9pm night before, up at 6am – 8 hours total
nap: 10am to 1:30pm

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

• 1 Zyrtec @ 10pm

Meals

• 2 cups of coffee
• 8oz glass of Coke
• 2 packets of instant oatmeal
• 3 chicken burgers on buns with lettuce, tomato, and onion

Notes

• Total Word Count for the Month: 50,970
• Today’s Word Count Goal: 2,000
• Today’s Total Word Count: 0 (nope, brain not capable of focusing on this today)
• 8am meeting at school about Little Bear
• 1:45pm called in to give Little Bear Clonidine – 15min later the teacher(? don’t know who she is) there tells me time is up and that he needs to go home… my issue is I didn’t see anything that required him to go home and if all they’re going to do is send him home anyway, then giving him the med so he can stay in school is a TOTAL waste – I expressed my concern with his actual teacher about this and how doing that will very likely encourage the behavior since he doesn’t want to be in school, honestly what I saw this afternoon was him being an asshole with extinction burst behavior and moreover, the moment I walked into the room he stopped his bullshit – I’m now reluctant to give the go ahead on a med change if the behaviors are not happening in my presence: what the school is reporting is not seen at home and when I show up at school those behaviors stop immediately – so I am growing tired of this dance, before it was them not acknowledging a problem existed and now it’s them wanting to medicate it away rather than deal with it behaviorally when psych doesn’t work like that: PSYCH MEDS ARE NOT A MAGIC BULLET and they don’t work like an anti-biotic
• Also wonder if Little Bear being sick earlier this week played a role in his behavior at school – they said he’s got worse after Thanksgiving break – wish I had thought of this at the meeting and brought it up then
• Tuxedo Cat was sent home early while I was taking care of stuff with Little Bear – his stomach hurt and he went to bed as soon as he got home and slept through dinner

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Saturday ~ December 2, 2017

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 3:30am, up at 7am – 4.5 hours total
napped: ? to 2pm – ? hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

Meals

• 5 cups of coffee
• 4 packets of instant oatmeal, 1 banana, 2 slices of buttered toast
• 3 hot dogs, 4 helpings of homemade curly fries

Notes

• Total Word Count for the Month: 52,067
• Today’s Word Count Goal: 4,000
• Today’s Total Word Count: 1,097
  • started Chapter 26
• Much further behind now that I’ve taken a couple days off from writing and I still need to get the rest of the prompts scheduled

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