Toad’s Weekly Assessment #23-2018

Not sure why but this week felt terribly long even though it felt busy on top of that.


Mood Score Key:

Sliding Hypomania = 1  ~ Hypomania = 2 ~  Mania = 3  ~  Baseline (My Normal) = 0

Sliding Depression = -1  ~  Depression = -2  ~  Severe Depression = -3 ~ M = Mixed State

Energy Score Key:

Low = -1  ~  Normal = 0  ~  High = 1

Migraine Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A

Sleep Quality Score Key:

Bad = -1  ~  Normal = 0  ~  Great = 1


Special Notes for the Week

Menses Start Date: 8/5/2018

Weigh-In at Med Clinic: ~


Sunday ~ August 5, 2018

Mood: 2H ~ Energy: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 1am, up at 6am – 5 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

Meals

Today’s Feelings

Notes

  • forgot to record everything for this day

Monday ~ August 6, 2018

Mood: 2H ~ Energy: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 2am, up at 8am – 6 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 8am
  • 1 multivitamin @ 8am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
  • 5mg Melatonin @ 7pm

Meals

  • 2 cups of coffee
  • 1 large coffee at gas station
  • 3oz leftover steak
  • leftover slice of pizza

Today’s Feelings

  • satisfied

Notes

  • homeschool group portfolio review
    • Scholar Owl passed
    • the certified teacher there actually said that him getting his GED isn’t a bad idea since it would give a clear idea of where his skills and abilities are at in a way no one can argue with
      • aka: I was right (and that felt really fucking good to hear)

Tuesday ~ August 7, 2018

Mood: 2H ~ Energy: 0 ~ Migraine: 1

Hours of Sleep: bed at 2am, up at 8am – 6 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 8am
  • 1 multivitamin @ 8am
  • 600mg Ibuprofen @ 12pm
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
  • 5mg Melatonin @ 7pm

Meals

  • 5 cups of coffee
  • large green salad with sun dried tomato dressing and cheese with pecans and cranberries

Today’s Feelings

  • grumpy
  • enlightened (just a teeny bit, but still exciting)

Notes

  • no therapy today
  • studied the Kabbalah’s version of the Tree of Life and Tree of Knowledge (HUGE subject by the way) and compared it to what I was taught growing up – concepts that I didn’t understand as a kid are starting to make more sense now
    • what I find interesting in all this is that the Tarot is a pictorial representation (very um… altered by many ages over the years) of the Hebrew alphabet and these Trees (these two trees are mirrors of each other, representing the higher (godlier) self and the natural, baser (demonic) self)
      • this is what makes Tarot useful in terms of meditation, brainstorming, interpreting dreams, etc.
      • and this is also why people are tempted to use it for other not so good things, which if they pay attention to these teachings it will only wreck them in the end
      • it also states that while these cards are a useful tool, there comes a point in understanding that you won’t need them anymore – that you’ll be able to meditate upon the Tree of Life’s concepts without them
        • so like with any tool, I think it’s very important to know what it’s for and why you’re using it
        • these cards allows you to communicate (to yourself or others) with pictures using archetypes – so I think it’s wrong for people to use these cards to swindle others or to cause harm in some way

Wednesday ~ August 8, 2018

Mood: 2H ~ Energy: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 2am, up at 11am – 9 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • AM meds missed
  • forgot PM meds

Meals

  • 3 cups of coffee
  • 1 12oz. can Dr. Pepper
  • cheese and crackers

Today’s Feelings

  • ?

Notes

  • music lessons today for Scholar Owl and Tuxedo Cat

Thursday ~ August 9, 2018

Mood: 2H ~ Energy: -1 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 4am, up at 8am – 4 hours total
Little Bear was pretty cranked all night, fought with him the entire time to stay in bed, not sure if he even slept

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 8am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 9pm

Meals

  • 4 cups of coffee
  • cheese and crackers
  • 1 beef and cheese taco

Today’s Feelings

  • grumpy and tired

Notes

  • finished scheduling the pentacles
  • started scheduling the swords

Friday ~ August 10, 2018

Mood: 2H ~ Energy: 0 ~ Migraine: 1A

Hours of Sleep: bed at 4am, up at 11am – 7 hour total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • AM meds missed
  • 75mg Topamax @ 8:30pm
  • 5mg Melatonin @ 8:30pm (beginning to think these are a waste of money for me)
  • 600mg Ibuprofen @ 9:30pm

Meals

  • 3 cups of coffee
  • 18oz. bottle of unsweetened black tea

Today’s Feelings

  • contemplative

Notes

  • set up my med box tonight – seriously need to pick a time/day to do this every week so I won’t forget
  • sister and her family went back home to Canada

Saturday ~ August 11, 2018

Mood: 2H ~ Energy: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 11pm, up at 10am – 11 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • forgot AM (seriously? what was the point of setting up the med box?)
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7pm

Meals

  • 5 cups of coffee
  • 2 plates homemade fried rice

Today’s Feelings

  • disappointed
  • mellow

Notes

  • found out my brother in California had to cancel his plans to come up to visit
  • the right arm of my desk chair broke

 

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