Toad’s Weekly Assessment #26-2018

So far all this week I feel like I’ve been swimming in the sea of “I don’t know what the hell I’m doing!” and roaming the land of “Where the hell am I right now?” By the time the end of the week rolled around, I felt like I might as well have stamped the word “IDIOT” in bold letters on my forehead and just stayed in bed – if I could only stay still long enough for that. Not depressed, just frustrated with the tangled thoughts in my head.


Mood Score Key:

Sliding Hypomania = 1  ~ Hypomania = 2 ~  Mania = 3  ~  Baseline (My Normal) = 0

Sliding Depression = -1  ~  Depression = -2  ~  Severe Depression = -3 ~ M = Mixed State

Energy Score Key:

Low = -1  ~  Normal = 0  ~  High = 1

Migraine Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A

Sleep Quality Score Key:

Bad = -1  ~  Normal = 0  ~  Great = 1


Special Notes for the Week

Menses Start Date: 8/31/18

Weigh-In at Med Clinic: ~


Sunday ~ August 26, 2018

Mood: 2 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 4am, up at 9am – 5 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 7am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7pm

Meals

  • ? cups of coffee
  • boiled dinner (with corned beef)

Today’s Feelings

  • ?

Notes

  • it appears the boys are starting to get back on track with their sleep, wish I could say the same for myself

Monday ~ August 27, 2018

Mood: 2 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep:

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 7am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7pm

Meals

  • ? cups off coffee
  • leftover corned beef
  • spaghetti with meat sauce

Today’s Feelings

  • ?

Notes


Tuesday ~ August 28, 2018

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Migraine: 1A

Hours of Sleep: bed at 3pm, up at 5pm – 2 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 7am
  • 600mg Ibuprofen @ 5pm
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7pm

Meals

  • 1 large coffee from gas station
  • ? cups of coffee
  • baked chicken, tater tots, carrots

Today’s Feelings

Notes

  • Little Bear’s first day of school
  • Therapy Tuesday

Wednesday ~ August 29, 2018

Mood: ? ~ Energy: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 3am, up at 6:30am – 3.5 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 7am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7pm

Meals

  • ? cups of coffee

Today’s Feelings

  • fucked if I know

Notes


Thursday ~ August 30, 2018

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Migraine: 1A

Hours of Sleep: bed at 2am, up at 7am – 5 hours total (how did I sleep through 2 alarms?)

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 7:30am
  • 600mg Ibuprofen @ 12pm
  • 600mg Ibuprofen @ 6pm
  • 75mg Topamax @ 8pm

Meals

  • 4 cups of coffee
  • sliced pepperoni

Today’s Feelings

  • frustrated

Notes

  • I woke up in a damn fog
  • I think I’m crashing – worst timing EVER for this given the fact my ex shows up tomorrow for his visit

Friday ~ August 31, 2018

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 10:30pm, up at 5:30am – 7 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 7am

Meals

  • 3 cups of coffee
  • fried chicken, fresh mango

Today’s Feelings

  • content first half of the day
  • dull and tired second half of the day

Notes

  • woke up with a clearer head today
  • ex is supposed to arrive today and wants to pick up Little Bear from school
    • he arrived early, took Scholar Owl to lunch, and he did bring Little Bear straight home from school
    • half a day here and he managed to set Little Bear off THREE times

Saturday ~ September 1, 2018

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Migraine: 1h

Hours of Sleep: bed at 2:30am, up at 9am – 6.5 total hours
napped 12pm to 5pm – 5 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 9am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7pm

Meals

  • 5 cups of coffee
  • 2 pcs. leftover chicken, fresh mango & cantaloupe
  • cheese and graham crackers

Today’s Feelings

  • blah

Notes

  • ex showed up at 9am and left at 7pm
    • Little Bear barely wanted to spend time with him today
    • same with the other two boys for that matter
    • getting harder to get them to hang out with him
  • fairly certain I’ve crashed from the mania/hypomania at this point

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