Toad’s Weekly Assessment #27-2018

Survived Labor Day weekend, but the aftermath following felt long and drawn out.


Mood Score Key:

Sliding Hypomania = 1  ~ Hypomania = 2 ~  Mania = 3  ~  Baseline (My Normal) = 0

Sliding Depression = -1  ~  Depression = -2  ~  Severe Depression = -3 ~ M = Mixed State

Energy Score Key:

Low = -1  ~  Normal = 0  ~  High = 1

Migraine Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A

Sleep Quality Score Key:

Bad = -1  ~  Normal = 0  ~  Great = 1


Special Notes for the Week

Menses Start Date: ~

Weigh-In at Med Clinic: ~


Sunday ~ September 2, 2018

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 3:30am, up at 7am – 3.5 hours total
napped 2:30pm to 5:30pm – 3 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 7am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7pm

Meals

  • 4 cups of coffee
  • 1 20oz. bottle of Dr. Pepper
  • homemade meatloaf, baked potato with butter, carrots

Today’s Feelings

  • tired and slightly agitated

Notes

  • set up med box
  • ex showed up at 9am today
  • dinner was later than planned – wasn’t ready until 7pm – so ex stayed until 7:30pm or so since I did invite him for dinner
  • this was his last day of his visit
  • the boys fluctuated in wanting to spent time with him until they knew this was his last day, then they spent legit time with him
    • I found this irritating and rude of my boys, they should have been spending legit time with him from the start
      • to be fair I realize that right now Little Bear has no say in the matter, I have to make him spend time with him
      • the other two have a choice in the matter however – I guess it goes to show how hard it is? ambivalence is real
  • ex brought up Scholar Owl’s graduation at the end of this school year and how he wants to be here for that and I told him it’s up to my son, not me, to invite who he wants there
  • couldn’t even talk to Tuxedo Cat’s father without ex husband inserting himself into the conversation and pushing me out
    • we were talking about my draft for Surge of the Soul Eater that he’s offered to beta read and my ex just had to start talking about his book
    • heaven forbid I talk to anyone – including the children – and get any kind of attention while he’s around

Monday ~ September 3, 2018

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at midnight, up at 7am – 7 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 7am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7pm

Meals

  • 4 cups of coffee
  • 2pcs. leftover meatloaf

Today’s Feelings

  • content

Notes

  • finished scheduling the Exploring Tarot Thursday posts

Tuesday ~ September 4, 2018

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at midnight, up at 6am – 6 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 6am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7pm

Meals

  • ? cups of coffee
  • forgot to document food

Today’s Feelings

  • stressed

Notes

  • Therapy Tuesday

Wednesday ~ September 5, 2018

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at midnight, up at 6am – 6 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 7am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7pm

Meals

  • ? cups of coffee
  • 1 large coffee from gas station
  • forgot to document food

Today’s Feelings

  • stressed

Notes

  • med clinic appointment – prescribed Propranolol as a PRN for GAD

Thursday ~ September 6, 2018

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at midnight, up at 6am – 6 hours total
bed at 11:30am, up at 5pm – 5.5 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • missed AM meds
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 11am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7pm

Meals

  • 4 cups of coffee
  • 20oz. bottle black tea
  • 6in. roast beef sub
  • 3 hot dogs

Today’s Feelings

  • stressed

Notes

  • finally got around to watching the Assassin’s Creed movie
    • I liked it for the most part, but I didn’t think the main female character’s story arc should have ended the way it did
      • the way it was set up pointed in a different direction for her in my mind: I truly expected her to join the Assassins instead

Friday ~ September 7, 2018

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 3am, up at 6am – 3 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 7am
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm

Meals

  • 4 cups of coffee
  • 20oz. bottle black tea
  • I don’t remember eating anything

Today’s Feelings

  • near panic

Notes

  • ex husband messaged me first thing in the morning to inform me of his plans for this Christmas vacation:
    • bring his new fiance and her daughter up to Maine for the ENTIRE WEEK of the school holiday so we can all have Christmas together
      • we haven’t even been divorced for a full year
      • this is the woman he had an affair with and divorced me for
      • I’m confident he hasn’t even run this plan by her yet since she still has me blocked on Facebook
  • despite my extreme stress, I’ve spent the day trying to design a business logo for my online tarot shop – couldn’t even come up with a proper name for it
  • Scholar Owl’s music lesson today at 3pm

Saturday ~ September 8, 2018

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Migraine: 1h

Hours of Sleep: bed at 8pm, up at 5:30am – 9.5 hours total
Napped 2:30pm to 4:30pm – 2 total hours

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

Meals

  • 4 cups of coffee
  • Chef Salad

Today’s Feelings

  • stressed and exhausted

Notes

  • woke up with a name for my online tarot business
    • started working on a logo design and banner
  • still wound up about yesterday
  • got started on making thumbnails for the emotion themed tarot series

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