The Chaos Rally playlist for this weekend is filled with energetic music. Next week’s tarot forecast focuses on working on interpersonal boundaries which can be a little draining at times.
Next Week’s Forecast
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Monday Button will ride in with the Knight of Swords to challenge you next week. This could mean one of two things. Either you are too overbearing with those around you and you need to learn to back off, or you need to put your foot down and stop being a doormat for others. In either case, you need to develop a better sense of boundaries in your interpersonal relationships. |
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Grim Lee will set the Seven of Cups in your way until you clear the disorder in your life right now. Whatever it is you’ve been putting off in favor of other, more interesting things to do needs to be done now. Stop putting it off and get it done. In light of Monday Button’s challenge, it’s likely to be an honest conversation with someone about boundaries. |
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Murphy Law will try to pluck The Star from you as a means to convince you there is no hope or peace in your life. This isn’t true. You’ll find that by respecting boundaries, you will have greater peace of mind. Everyone is uplifted when true harmony exists. It may take practice, but find your center and stand your ground. Don’t wander beyond someone else’s fence, and gently remind those who encroach upon yours. |
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The Wise Toad hands you the Eight of Wands and informs you that clear communication is the key to good boundaries. Don’t wait to tell people what is or isn’t okay either. Silence tends to convey consent at worse and confusion at best. Save yourself the heartache by having these honest conversations as soon as you are able. |
This Week’s Playlist
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Communication has always been a low point for me if I’m not writing the person. So the last point is important.
I didn’t even know what boundaries were until I was diagnosed with Bipolar and started going to therapy for that. So that was back in 2014 when I was diagnosed and it wouldn’t be until around 2016 I think that I began to grasp the concept of boundaries.
It wouldn’t be until this year when I got my full neuropsych and they added Schizoid my list that I finally understood why this was so challenging for me. I think the concept of setting and holding clear boundaries for myself comes up often in my readings now.
I’m finding that good, timely communication is just one piece of that puzzle.
When I got my diagnosis in 2002, I thought the Dr. Was lying to me. I was in a psych hospital for a suicide attempt. I had been drinking and was psychotic. It happened a second time not long after. I never took treatment seriously and never took meds until 2012 when a neurologist referred me to a psychiatrist because I was hearing voices after a seizure.
I learned that I was communicating wrong the whole time through therapy. That took many years. I hold back much of my psychotic stuff because I know it’s not true. They diagnosed me schizoaffective bipolar in 2015. I’m on 2 antipsychotic meds, 2 antidepressants a mood leveller and am on xanax whenever I have a panic attack (which is getting better).
I’m having a better time online than in person. However, I know that I have to be a person and communicate like a person. So I go to therapy and learn how to act properly. It’s hard. I have no filter. I’m used to blurting insults out. Starting fights. Accusing people. Usually, I’m wrong. My mind lies to me. It sucks.
It’s a steep learning curve! Our brains are wired different and unfortunately we aren’t being identified in childhood due to the way things manifest and the way they are defined so we aren’t getting the skills we need to cope with all that sooner.
My Bipolar diagnosis wasn’t until my late 30’s and now I’m 41. I’m on one mood stabilizer and one PRN for anxiety, but the rest comes from extensive therapy due to PTSD and the Schizoid personality disorder. I’ve been through some behavioral therapy, music and art therapy, CBT, sensory therapy – and I have even pulled stuff on my own from the things they were doing with my son for his Autism to see if it would work for me.
If it works, I run with it and if it doesn’t I move on to try something else. This is how I found out sensory therapy works for me – like weighted blankets, aromatherapy, and heat – especially for my anxiety that comes with the PTSD. Fewer migraines and panic attacks. So this is something you could try in addition to everything else you’re doing. Even a cup of aromatic herbal tea for some people can be very relaxing when they take the time to smell and taste it as they drink it mindfully.
Maybe I will. I hate the Xanax honestly. I don’t like being on habit-forming pills. I lost a cousin to it years ago and I’m afraid for myself.
I spend my days forcing my mouth shut because of all I want to do is argue. But I know that’s not right. I’m on disability because I can’t keep a job. I keep getting fired for going after managers and coworkers. Not physically, verbally. Bipolar Disorder is the pits.
Like I said, if something isn’t working for you then try something different. Even if it used to work and then stops working for whatever reason, then it’s time to try something new. Life is about adapting and evolving. <3
I agree