Little Bear is still over at in-patient with small improvements. My car broke down near the end of the week and the part I need hopefully will be in no later than next Thursday. Still making preparations to launch my online tarot shop. I fully intend to see the light at the end of this tunnel even if it means one baby step at a time. Although, I have to admit right now I feel like I’m crawling.
Mood Score Key:
Sliding Hypomania = 1 ~ Hypomania = 2 ~ Mania = 3 ~ Baseline (My Normal) = 0
Sliding Depression = -1 ~ Depression = -2 ~ Severe Depression = -3 ~ M = Mixed State
Energy Score Key:
Low = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ High = 1
Migraine Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A
Sleep Quality Score Key:
Bad = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ Great = 1
Special Notes for the Week
Menses Start Date: 10/19/2018
Weigh-In at PCP Clinic: 165lbs. (weighed last week but forgot to document)
Sunday ~ October 14, 2018
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 1:30am, up at 6am – 4.5 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7:30am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- 3 cups of coffee
- 14oz. bottle iced coffee
- cheese, turkey, ham & crackers
- popcorn
- leftover pork chops
Today’s Feelings
- neutral
Notes
- worked on graphic art for the birthday reading offering
- visited Little Bear in the afternoon and watched Despicable Me
- got some laundry done
- watched more Gotham with Tuxedo Cat’s father
Monday ~ October 15, 2018
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Migraine: 0A
Hours of Sleep: bed at 2am, up at 6:30am – 4.5 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 8:30pm
Meals
- 6 cups of coffee
- 1.5 cups cream soda
- 1 cup rasp. ginger ale
- cheese, ham, & crackers
- chicken salad sandwich
- leftover pork chops w/ mac & cheese
Today’s Feelings
- bleh…
- beginning to think I need to bring back the Anxiety and Irritability Scales
Notes
- worked on graphic art for the birthday reading offering
- raining all day
- watched more Gotham w/ Tuxedo Cat’s father (should give him his own nickname)
- fell asleep on him – again
- he woke me up to leave around 1am I believe
Tuesday ~ October 16, 2018
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 1:30am, up at 6am – 4.5 hours total
napped 4:30pm to 7:30pm – 3 hours of heavily interrupted sleep
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7:30pm
Meals
- 2 cups of coffee
- 1 bottle of Gatorade
- 1 turkey and cheese sandwich on white bread
- couple of handfuls of plain chips
Today’s Feelings
- brain fog from hell
Notes
- why is it whenever I decide to take a nap in the evening that’s when everyone and their dog decides to call me? Like, why did I even bother to try?
- got a phone call from the doctor about changing Little Bear’s meds from everything he’s currently on to Seroquel – slowly
- got a phone call from nursing staff about how Little Bear punched another child on the unit
- got a phone call from Little Bear explaining to me why he punched the other child and to request that I read him a bedtime story and request all kinds of other things
- naturally he felt justified, I disagreed
- I read him the story
- I said no to all the other requests
- not hauling the rest of his toys or whatever else he can think of over there – keep telling him he has reached his limit
- also found out he lost the book he had brought with him
- hopefully they will locate it
- it’s the only one he can/will read for himself right now
- worked on nothing today other than trying to get some sleep during spare time
Wednesday ~ October 17, 2018
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 9pm night before, up at 6am – 9 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- 5 cups of coffee
- bottle of cranberry juice
- turkey and cheese sandwich on wheat that looks like white
- oven fried chicken, mac & cheese, mango spears
Today’s Feelings
- I don’t know
Notes
- finished scanning my copy of the Necronomicon Tarot into my computer
- finished graphics and added the birthday reading to my online tarot shop
- watched more Gotham with Tuxedo Cat’s father tonight
Thursday ~ October 18, 2018
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Migraine: 1h
Hours of Sleep: bed at 3am, up at 7:30am – 4.5 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7:30am
- 600mg Ibuprofen @ 6pm
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- 3 cups of coffee
- 2 bottle cranberry juice
- yogurt cup
- cheese, turkey, ham, & crackers
Today’s Feelings
- stressed to the max from the moment the car broke this morning
- brain fog by end of day
Notes
- worked on the graphics to update the other current reading packages to include the Necronomicon Tarot and Panda Tarot decks
- went to the family meeting for Little Bear
- car lost the belt on the way to family meeting
- Tuxedo Cat’s father tried to put a new belt in, but didn’t have the tools he needed, said he will try again tomorrow
- meeting went okay
Friday ~ October 19, 2018
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Migraine: 1A
Hours of Sleep: bed at 7:30pm, up at 5:30am – 10 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 600mg Ibuprofen @ 5:30am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
Meals
- 4 cups of coffee
- 1 large espresso/coffee blend from gas station
- 13oz. bottle espresso
- 6in. chicken salad sub on white
Today’s Feelings
- frustrated
Notes
- updated the remaining reading packages in my tarot shop to include the Necronomicon Tarot and the Panda Tarot decks
- visited Little Bear while Tuxedo Cat’s father worked on my car
- tension pulley was shot
- replaced it
- AC compressor was shot
- my dad had to order it for me
- expected to arrive this coming Thursday
- hopefully my car can sit at the hospital parking lot until then
- I now owe both my dad and Tuxedo Cat’s father
- I at least filled up his gas tank
- I still owe him for his time
- I still owe him a birthday reading – need to get on it
- no idea how or when I can pay my dad back
- tension pulley was shot
Saturday ~ October 20, 2018
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at midnight, up at 6am – 6 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- 3 cups of coffee
- 1 glass of ginger ale
- 4 sections of homemade waffles
Today’s Feelings
- don’t know
Notes
- had an odd dream about being tasked with killing baby lizards in a huge lab
- just the ones that hatched, not the eggs
- someone was in there helping me, but I don’t know who
- don’t know what kind of lizards they were
- don’t know why they needed to be killed either
- I believe this is the second dream I’ve been able to remember upon waking since my son has gone to in-patient
- I find it odd that before having children that the trend in my dreams was supernatural/paranormal and now they have a biological/medical science leaning
- for those that don’t know, I did go to college when my oldest two were very young so I’m sure this has a great deal to do with it
- still trying to figure out how I can make a 3D card asset in Blender that I can use in an animation for a riffle and bridge shuffle
- I really think that would be cool and fun to see and do
- then I would need sound effects for it of course
- part for the car has been shipped and new ETA is now Tuesday!
- visited Little Bear this afternoon and he was a bit wired
- worked on birthday reading for Tuxedo Cat’s father using 3D renders for images in the template as a test to see how long it will take me and to see how it will look when they’re done
Overall mood for the week: