Tode’s Weekly Assessment 2019-05

It feels like it’s been a very busy week.


Mood Score Key:

Sliding Hypomania = 1  ~ Hypomania = 2 ~  Mania = 3  ~  Baseline (My Normal) = 0

Sliding Depression = -1  ~  Depression = -2  ~  Severe Depression = -3 ~ M = Mixed State

Energy Score Key:

Low = -1  ~  Normal = 0  ~  High = 1

Irritation Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3

Anxiety Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3

Migraine Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A

Sleep Quality Score Key:

Bad = -1  ~  Normal = 0  ~  Great = 1


Special Notes for the Week

Menses Start Date: 1/30/2019 (27 days)

Weigh-In at Med Clinic: ~


Sunday ~ January 27, 2019

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 1 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 2am, up at 11am – 9 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • AM meds missed
  • inserted vape cartridge @ 7pm
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7:30pm
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7:30pm

Meals

  • 4 cups of coffee
  • 1 glass of milk
  • 2 grilled cheese sandwiches on wheat
  • snow peas
  • popcorn

Today’s Feelings

  • productive

Notes

  • began scheduling Chaos Pen posts
    • completed 2019 #9 – #11
  • found out at the gas station that the “regular” flavor vape cartridges are cheaper than the specialty flavored ones
    • normally a dollar less, but right now they are on sale
    • so like, the mint and melon, etc. flavored ones cost $8 and the so called “tobacco” flavored one costs $7
      • but they’re not targeting and taking advantage of children who have a larger disposable income (eye roll)
        • you can’t convince me these cartridges cost more to make
        • the Juul brand kit alone costs $35
          • and advertises itself as the adult smoking alternative experience
            • okay… smoking age here is 21… like I need to be told that I need an adult experience of any kind?
              • but kids aren’t being targeted here… I call bullshit
  • played RE2 Remake with Tuxedo Cat’s father

Monday ~ January 28, 2019

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 4:30am, up at 6am – 1.5 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 9:30am
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 9:30am
  • 1 multivitamin @ 9:30am
  • inserted vape cartridge @ 7pm
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7:30pm
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7:30pm

Meals

  • 5 cups of coffee
  • pizza hut feast

Today’s Feelings

  • content
  • productive

Notes

  • refilled med boxes
  • began scheduling Chaos Pen posts
    • completed 2019 #12 – #16
  • went to watch Tuxedo Cat’s basketball game with the boys and Tuxedo Cat’s father
    • ate at Pizza Hut after
    • talked in the car with Scholar Owl on the drive there about how nice it was for all of this to feel normal and stable
      • Tuxedo Cat’s father’s increased involvement I mean
      • Scholar Owl agreed that it felt natural and more like what families should be like, even though we are a blended family
      • I’m grateful that Tuxedo Cat’s father and I are friends first and foremost who value the well-being of not just these boys, but his daughter too
        • it’s a shame we don’t get to see and hang out with her much but maybe we can work something out on a weekend he has her
  • tried to watch the last three episodes of Punisher with Tuxedo Cat’s father, but I passed out on him
    • I vaguely remember him telling me goodnight and promising to lock the door
    • also remember feeling bad and him telling me to not worry about it
      • god I love this man

Tuesday ~ January 29, 2019

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: fell asleep at 10pm – up at 5:30am – 7.5 hours total
napped 2pm – 6pm – 4 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 7am
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
  • 1 multivitamin @ 7am
  • inserted vape cartridge @ 7am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm
  • inserted vape cartridge @ 11pm

Meals

  • 3 cups of coffee
  • 2 leftover slices of pizza

Today’s Feelings

  • content

Notes

  • Therapy Tuesday
  • after that I let Little Bear pick the show on Netflix and hung out with him
    • for some reason this resulted in me taking an all day nap
  • spent the evening with Tuxedo Cat’s father
    • actually watched the last three episodes of Punisher without falling asleep
      • really glad he was willing to watch them again with me so soon
      • got laundry done while watching the episodes

Wednesday ~ January 30, 2019

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 2 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 3am, up at 5:30am – 2.5 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • inserted vape cartridge @ 8am (appeared to be leaking when I opened it)
  • 75mg Topamax @ 9am
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 9am
  • 1 multivitamin @ 9am
  • inserted vape cartridge @ 2pm (it malfunctioned for some reason?!!)
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm
  • 600mg Ibuprofen @ 7pm
  • inserted vape cartridge @ 7:30pm

Meals

  • 4 cups of coffee
  • ham, potato puffs, canned pineapple

Today’s Feelings

  • productive
  • not sure why, but at around dinner I got cranky as hell
    • I felt like I had been hit by a truck, so that was part of it

Notes

  • no school due to snow
  • scheduled more Chaos Pen posts
    • completed 2019 #17 – #23
    • streamlined the image template for these posts to make scheduling faster
      • only seemed to cut the time it takes in half – better than nothing
  • observation: the vape cartridges from the gas station seem to taste stronger for some reason
    • probably this product has a higher turn over rate here?
  • spent the evening with Tuxedo Cat’s father
    • watched an episode of Gotham on Hulu
    • watched Solo on Netflix
    • he spent the night!
      • it was lovely being able to sleep night to him even though I am untouchable right now
      • also grateful that he was forgiving of my grumpy mood in the beginning of the evening

Thursday ~ January 31, 2019

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 1am, up at 6am – 5 hours total
napped 2pm-4pm – 2 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 9am
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 9am
  • 1 multivitamin @ 9am
  • inserted vape cartridge @ 12pm
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm

Meals

  • 4 cups of coffee
  • 1 glass Dr. Pepper
  • fried chicken, pasta salad, green salad, cinnamon rolls

Today’s Feelings

  • content

Notes

  • I wish I had the option of lingering in bed with Tuxedo Cat’s father this morning instead of needing to get up right away to get boys ready for school today
    • I wish he had slept as well as I had, but I know it’s because this isn’t his home so I understand
  • scheduled more Chaos Pen posts
    • completed 2019 #24 – #29
  • boys’ music lessons
  • evening with Tuxedo Cat’s father
    • watched “In Defense of Food” on Netflix after dinner

Friday ~ February 1, 2019

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 1 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at midnight, up at 6am – 6 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 7am
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
  • 1 multivitamin @ 7am
  • inserted vape cartridge @ ? (I think it was around 2pm)
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm

Meals

  • 4 cups of coffee
  • Mac & Cheese, Fruit Cocktail, Salad

Today’s Feelings

  • content
  • productive
  • mildly peeved

Notes

  • started putting together a family weekly menu together
  • cleaned my coffee machine
  • scheduled Daily Draw for week 6
  • realized after a few phone calls when Tuxedo Cat didn’t get off the bus that there was a make up game today
    • my dad was pissed that I was still on the computer, not realizing that I was using it to look up the number for the bus garage since the school’s office wasn’t answering the phone
      • the guy at the garage was awesome in helping me find out where the hell my kid was – well above and beyond what he needed to do
  • got grocery shopping done
  • fridge and pantry cleaned
  • by the end of the day I realized I didn’t get the Chaos Rally post for today done

Saturday ~ February 2, 2019

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 9pm, up at 4:30am – 7.5 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 7am
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
  • 1 multivitamin @ 7am
  • inserted vape cartridge @ 7am
  • inserted vape cartridge @ 11am
  • inserted vape cartridge @ 5pm
  • inserted vape cartridge @ 11pm

Meals

  • 7 cups of coffee
  • 2 12oz. bottles of hard apple cider
  • leftover mac & cheese with ham

Today’s Feelings

  • productive

Notes

  • scheduled Chaos Rally #5
  • scheduled more Chaos Pen posts
    • completed 2019 #30 – #43
  • went to a birthday party for a mutual friend with Tuxedo Cat’s father

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