Toad’s Weekly Assessment 2019-23

It’s been a long and busy week, but otherwise very good. Scholar Owl graduated this week followed by Tuxedo Cat’s team going to the Special Olympics. Everyone did very well and I couldn’t be more proud.


Mood Score Key:

Sliding Hypomania = 1  ~ Hypomania = 2 ~  Mania = 3  ~  Baseline (My Normal) = 0

Sliding Depression = -1  ~  Depression = -2  ~  Severe Depression = -3 ~ M = Mixed State

Energy Score Key:

Low = -1  ~  Normal = 0  ~  High = 1

Irritation Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3

Anxiety Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3

Migraine Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A

Sleep Quality Score Key:

Bad = -1  ~  Normal = 0  ~  Great = 1


Special Notes for the Week

Menses Start Date: 06/06/2019 (24 days)

Weigh-In at Med Clinic: ~

Chaos Rally


Sunday ~ June 02, 2019

Daily Draw

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at midnight, up at 5:30am – 5.5 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 8am
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 8am
  • 1 multivitamin @ 8am
  • refilled vape well (mango) @ 11am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7:30pm
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7:30pm
  • refilled vape well (mango) @ 10pm

Meals

  • 3 cups of coffee
  • ham steak and Spanish rice

Today’s Feelings

  • content

Notes

  • woke up to be pleasantly surprised with some romantic time with Iron Knight this morning
    • and it’s heartening to hear him encourage me with my blog and the work I do before he headed out this morning
      • seriously, it means the world to me
  • worked on blog 9am to 4:15pm
    • scheduled Chaos Rally #25
    • scheduled Chaos Rally #26
    • scheduled Chaos Pen NaNo Bite for week 27
      • 6 posts individually
  • Iron Knight showed up earlier than I expected, and sure enough my brother started harassing us about me ignoring him while he played videos as I finished up what I was doing on the blog
    • Iron Knight knew I was working and was fine with it
    • pretty sure my brother was messing around, but still… at least he stopped it when I spoke up
  • my dad also interrupted me several times today for various reasons
    • so much for being supportive of me working on the blog
    • including one time after Iron Knight showed up so I could talk to Mom about plans for dinner
      • who didn’t seem thrilled about the idea with cooking for us so I told her we’re all set
        • I knew Dad only wanted to share dinner together last night so he wouldn’t have to cook himself
        • then Mom went on a tear about Little Bear’s behavior and once again I had to explain his disorders
          • and she honestly doesn’t see anything wrong with Dad’s behavior and how he treats him
            • what she doesn’t understand is Little Bear doesn’t like how Dad treats anybody, not just him
              • so he doesn’t trust him, his ridiculously rigid ways, tendency to rapidly escalate, and his generally aggressive tone
                • Dad’s mood is NOT consistent within a single day, never mind from one day to the next
          • but I agree, Little Bear is particularly dark and nasty towards my dad and it’s troubling

Monday ~ June 03, 2019

Daily Draw

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 1:30am, up at 7am – 5.5 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 7:30am
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7:30am
  • 1 multivitamin @ 7:30am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7:30pm
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7:30pm
  • refilled vape well (mango) @ ?

Meals

  • 3 cups of coffee
  • 2 chicken burgers and popcorn

Today’s Feelings

  • content

Notes

  • wasted the day playing Red Dead Redemption II all day
  • watched Christopher Robin with Iron Knight and Little Bear after dinner
    • it was very heartwarming and made me teary eyed
    • Iron Knight didn’t spend the night, but that’s okay
      • it’s seemed like Little Bear really wanted my time and was acting like he wasn’t going to sleep but didn’t last long once I cuddled up with him
        • earlier he had complained that he doesn’t get much time with me when Iron Knight is here – yes, I think he’s jealous
      • but Iron Knight did say he would be back over after grad practice tomorrow night

Tuesday ~ June 04, 2019

Daily Draw

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at midnight, up at 8:30am – 8.5 hours

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 8:30am
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 8:30am
  • 1 multivitamin @ 8:30am
  • broke my vape well when I tried to refill it
  • 600mg Ibuprofen @ 10am
  • 220mg Aleve @ 11:45am
  • filled vape well (latte!!!) @ 2pm
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7:30pm
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7:30pm

Meals

  • 1 cups of coffee

Today’s Feelings

  • content

Notes

  • Little Bear’s child support came in – wasn’t expecting it until next Friday to be honest so this is super helpful timing
  • toady is my appointment for the hypermobility eval – hope it goes well and moves me forward in getting preventive care
    • regardless of how it goes, I plan to take Scholar Owl shopping for dress clothes after the appointment before grad practice
    • got the diagnosis
      • also got a referral for an OMT and PT
  • took Scholar Owl and Little Bear clothes shopping
    • bought Scholar Owl dress clothes: dress pants, dress shirt, dress shoes
    • bought Little Bear a pair of shoes for the summer
    • ended up buying sandwich stuff for dinner
    • also bought new vape wells and a bottle of vape fluid with a smaller nozzle
    • bought a copy of Lego Movie 2
    • picked up the rest of Scholar Owl’s med refill
  • Iron Knight came over and was deeply upset about how his stepdad gave him a deadline to move out on his own by this fall
    • there were a few things he said in rant about this that concerned me just overall, but I’m going to sit tight on them to wait and see since whenever I tried to get clarification on anything there was a lot of evasion and minimizing
      • so how much of this was him just being upset and anxious about it and spouting off as a result?
      • how much of this was a result of his stepdad being frustrated and also just blowing off steam?
      • how much of this, on both sides of the issue, is real?
  • took Scholar Owl and Iron Knight to Scholar Owl’s graduation practice
    • Scholar Owl was in a foul mood at this point
    • the cap and gown I had ordered was NOT the right color, it was too red
      • I ended up having to buy one of their sets from them using the money I had set aside so Scholar Owl could go see the Godzilla movie
        • hopefully I can send the one I ordered back
  • spent the evening with Little Bear watching Troll Hunter while Iron Knight played Red Dead Redemption II
    • I passed out, but at least so did Little Bear
    • it was amusing to see Little Bear fuss over me until then at least

Wednesday ~ June 05, 2019

Daily Draw

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 1 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 9pm the night before with Little Bear,
switched over to bed with Iron Knight at midnight, up at 6am – 9 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 7am
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
  • 1 multivitamin @ 7am
  • set vape stick 1 to recharge @ 8am
  • filled both vape wells (latte – 30mg) @ 9am
  • set vape stick 2 to recharge @ 6:45pm
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7:30pm
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7:30pm

Meals

  • 2 cups of coffee
  • 3 cups Gatorade
  • roast beef sub sandwich with a handful of pasta chips

Today’s Feelings

  • content

Notes

  • keep forgetting to document how often I have to recharge my vape sticks too
    • it feels like I have to recharge them more often now than I did when I first got them
  • work on blog from 9:30am to 12pm
    • selected and saved image prompts for all July’s NaNo Bite posts
    • created all the tarot card thumbnail images I need for July’s NaNo Bite posts
    • started creating the post thumbnails I need for July’s NaNo Bite posts
  • Little Bear’s Dental and OT appointments
    • the dentist appointment was supposed to be only 30 mins but ended up going over 30 mins into the OT appointment
    • fortunately, the people scheduled to come in after us were a no show so she was willing to take us for Little Bear’s full time for that slot instead
      • I think she was willing to do this because we are always early or call her ahead of time about changes
  • I’m grateful that Dad said I didn’t need to worry about rent until I got food stamps back because I’ve already spent most of the child support I got this week on graduation and what little bit of groceries I got and sadly I needed it to last me two weeks – that isn’t going to happen
    • I still need to pay for the storage unit rent next week and we have the Special Olympics state meet this weekend

Thursday ~ June 06, 2019

Daily Draw

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 9pm night before, up at 6am – 9 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 7am
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
  • 1 multivitamin @ 7am
  • refilled vape well 1 (latte – 30mg) @ 10:20am
  • set vape stick 1 to recharge @ 11am
  • refilled vape well 2 (latte – 30mg) @ 11am

Meals

  • 2 cups of coffee
  • 2 chicken salad sandwiches, half a deviled ham sandwich, fruit salad, and a chocolate cupcake

Today’s Feelings

  • mildly worried when I woke up
  • content by mid morning
  • happy by evening

Notes

  • worked on blog 6:30am to 10am
    • created the remaining post thumbnails for I need for the July NaNo Bite posts
    • scheduled NaNo Bite posts for week 28
    • scheduled NaNo Bite posts for week 29
    • scheduled NaNo Bite posts for week 30
    • scheduled NaNo Bite posts for week 31
      • 25 posts total
  • worked on blog 10am to 3:45pm
    • scheduled Chaos Rally for week 27
    • scheduled Chaos Rally for week 28
    • scheduled Daily Draw posts for week 28
    • scheduled Daily Draw posts for week 29
      • 16 posts total
  • Scholar Owl’s graduation with Adult Ed
    • they copied his homeschool transcript, added the classes he took with them, and signed it!!! how cool is that?!

Friday ~ June 07, 2019

Daily Draw

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 10am night before, up at 4:30am – 6.5 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • refilled both vape wells (latte – 30mg) @ 5am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 5:30am
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 5:30am
  • 1 multivitamin @ 5:30am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm
  • recharged vape stick 1 @ 10pm

Meals

  • 2 cups of coffee
  • roast beef sub and 1 1oz. bag of chips

Today’s Feelings

  • content

Notes

  • Special Olympics today
    • Tuxedo Cat’s Bocce team won silver
      • sadly because of work, Iron Knight got to watch only one game

Saturday ~ June 08, 2019

Daily Draw

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 10pm night before, up at 5am – 7 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • refilled both vape wells (latte – 30mg) @ 5am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 5:30am
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 5:30am
  • 1 multivitamin @ 5:30am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm
  • recharged vape stick 2 @ 9pm

Meals

  • 2.5 of coffee
  • 3 cups of Gatorade
  • 2 donuts, 2 roast beef sandwiches, and a bag of popcorn

Today’s Feelings

  • content

Notes

  • Special Olympics
    • Tuxedo Cat got:
      • 5th in the Softball Throw
      • Silver in the 50m Dash
      • Silver in the 100m Dash
    • Iron Knight and his daughter got to see the entire thing
    • afterwards, Tuxedo Cat for the first time decided to join his team for dinner instead of going straight home

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