It’s been a long and busy week, but otherwise very good. Scholar Owl graduated this week followed by Tuxedo Cat’s team going to the Special Olympics. Everyone did very well and I couldn’t be more proud.
Mood Score Key:
Sliding Hypomania = 1 ~ Hypomania = 2 ~ Mania = 3 ~ Baseline (My Normal) = 0
Sliding Depression = -1 ~ Depression = -2 ~ Severe Depression = -3 ~ M = Mixed State
Energy Score Key:
Low = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ High = 1
Irritation Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Anxiety Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Migraine Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A
Sleep Quality Score Key:
Bad = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ Great = 1
Special Notes for the Week
Menses Start Date: 06/06/2019 (24 days)
Weigh-In at Med Clinic: ~
Sunday ~ June 02, 2019
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at midnight, up at 5:30am – 5.5 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 8am
- 10mg Propranolol @ 8am
- 1 multivitamin @ 8am
- refilled vape well (mango) @ 11am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7:30pm
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7:30pm
- refilled vape well (mango) @ 10pm
Meals
- 3 cups of coffee
- ham steak and Spanish rice
Today’s Feelings
- content
Notes
- woke up to be pleasantly surprised with some romantic time with Iron Knight this morning
- and it’s heartening to hear him encourage me with my blog and the work I do before he headed out this morning
- seriously, it means the world to me
- and it’s heartening to hear him encourage me with my blog and the work I do before he headed out this morning
- worked on blog 9am to 4:15pm
- scheduled Chaos Rally #25
- scheduled Chaos Rally #26
- scheduled Chaos Pen NaNo Bite for week 27
- 6 posts individually
- Iron Knight showed up earlier than I expected, and sure enough my brother started harassing us about me ignoring him while he played videos as I finished up what I was doing on the blog
- Iron Knight knew I was working and was fine with it
- pretty sure my brother was messing around, but still… at least he stopped it when I spoke up
- my dad also interrupted me several times today for various reasons
- so much for being supportive of me working on the blog
- including one time after Iron Knight showed up so I could talk to Mom about plans for dinner
- who didn’t seem thrilled about the idea with cooking for us so I told her we’re all set
- I knew Dad only wanted to share dinner together last night so he wouldn’t have to cook himself
- then Mom went on a tear about Little Bear’s behavior and once again I had to explain his disorders
- and she honestly doesn’t see anything wrong with Dad’s behavior and how he treats him
- what she doesn’t understand is Little Bear doesn’t like how Dad treats anybody, not just him
- so he doesn’t trust him, his ridiculously rigid ways, tendency to rapidly escalate, and his generally aggressive tone
- Dad’s mood is NOT consistent within a single day, never mind from one day to the next
- so he doesn’t trust him, his ridiculously rigid ways, tendency to rapidly escalate, and his generally aggressive tone
- what she doesn’t understand is Little Bear doesn’t like how Dad treats anybody, not just him
- but I agree, Little Bear is particularly dark and nasty towards my dad and it’s troubling
- and she honestly doesn’t see anything wrong with Dad’s behavior and how he treats him
- who didn’t seem thrilled about the idea with cooking for us so I told her we’re all set
Monday ~ June 03, 2019
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 1:30am, up at 7am – 5.5 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7:30am
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7:30am
- 1 multivitamin @ 7:30am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7:30pm
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7:30pm
- refilled vape well (mango) @ ?
Meals
- 3 cups of coffee
- 2 chicken burgers and popcorn
Today’s Feelings
- content
Notes
- wasted the day playing Red Dead Redemption II all day
- watched Christopher Robin with Iron Knight and Little Bear after dinner
- it was very heartwarming and made me teary eyed
- Iron Knight didn’t spend the night, but that’s okay
- it’s seemed like Little Bear really wanted my time and was acting like he wasn’t going to sleep but didn’t last long once I cuddled up with him
- earlier he had complained that he doesn’t get much time with me when Iron Knight is here – yes, I think he’s jealous
- but Iron Knight did say he would be back over after grad practice tomorrow night
- it’s seemed like Little Bear really wanted my time and was acting like he wasn’t going to sleep but didn’t last long once I cuddled up with him
Tuesday ~ June 04, 2019
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at midnight, up at 8:30am – 8.5 hours
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 8:30am
- 10mg Propranolol @ 8:30am
- 1 multivitamin @ 8:30am
- broke my vape well when I tried to refill it
- 600mg Ibuprofen @ 10am
- 220mg Aleve @ 11:45am
- filled vape well (latte!!!) @ 2pm
- 75mg Topamax @ 7:30pm
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7:30pm
Meals
- 1 cups of coffee
Today’s Feelings
- content
Notes
- Little Bear’s child support came in – wasn’t expecting it until next Friday to be honest so this is super helpful timing
- toady is my appointment for the hypermobility eval – hope it goes well and moves me forward in getting preventive care
- regardless of how it goes, I plan to take Scholar Owl shopping for dress clothes after the appointment before grad practice
- got the diagnosis
- also got a referral for an OMT and PT
- took Scholar Owl and Little Bear clothes shopping
- bought Scholar Owl dress clothes: dress pants, dress shirt, dress shoes
- bought Little Bear a pair of shoes for the summer
- ended up buying sandwich stuff for dinner
- also bought new vape wells and a bottle of vape fluid with a smaller nozzle
- bought a copy of Lego Movie 2
- picked up the rest of Scholar Owl’s med refill
- Iron Knight came over and was deeply upset about how his stepdad gave him a deadline to move out on his own by this fall
- there were a few things he said in rant about this that concerned me just overall, but I’m going to sit tight on them to wait and see since whenever I tried to get clarification on anything there was a lot of evasion and minimizing
- so how much of this was him just being upset and anxious about it and spouting off as a result?
- how much of this was a result of his stepdad being frustrated and also just blowing off steam?
- how much of this, on both sides of the issue, is real?
- there were a few things he said in rant about this that concerned me just overall, but I’m going to sit tight on them to wait and see since whenever I tried to get clarification on anything there was a lot of evasion and minimizing
- took Scholar Owl and Iron Knight to Scholar Owl’s graduation practice
- Scholar Owl was in a foul mood at this point
- the cap and gown I had ordered was NOT the right color, it was too red
- I ended up having to buy one of their sets from them using the money I had set aside so Scholar Owl could go see the Godzilla movie
- hopefully I can send the one I ordered back
- I ended up having to buy one of their sets from them using the money I had set aside so Scholar Owl could go see the Godzilla movie
- spent the evening with Little Bear watching Troll Hunter while Iron Knight played Red Dead Redemption II
- I passed out, but at least so did Little Bear
- it was amusing to see Little Bear fuss over me until then at least
Wednesday ~ June 05, 2019
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 1 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 9pm the night before with Little Bear,
switched over to bed with Iron Knight at midnight, up at 6am – 9 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
- 1 multivitamin @ 7am
- set vape stick 1 to recharge @ 8am
- filled both vape wells (latte – 30mg) @ 9am
- set vape stick 2 to recharge @ 6:45pm
- 75mg Topamax @ 7:30pm
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7:30pm
Meals
- 2 cups of coffee
- 3 cups Gatorade
- roast beef sub sandwich with a handful of pasta chips
Today’s Feelings
- content
Notes
- keep forgetting to document how often I have to recharge my vape sticks too
- it feels like I have to recharge them more often now than I did when I first got them
- work on blog from 9:30am to 12pm
- selected and saved image prompts for all July’s NaNo Bite posts
- created all the tarot card thumbnail images I need for July’s NaNo Bite posts
- started creating the post thumbnails I need for July’s NaNo Bite posts
- Little Bear’s Dental and OT appointments
- the dentist appointment was supposed to be only 30 mins but ended up going over 30 mins into the OT appointment
- fortunately, the people scheduled to come in after us were a no show so she was willing to take us for Little Bear’s full time for that slot instead
- I think she was willing to do this because we are always early or call her ahead of time about changes
- I’m grateful that Dad said I didn’t need to worry about rent until I got food stamps back because I’ve already spent most of the child support I got this week on graduation and what little bit of groceries I got and sadly I needed it to last me two weeks – that isn’t going to happen
- I still need to pay for the storage unit rent next week and we have the Special Olympics state meet this weekend
Thursday ~ June 06, 2019
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 9pm night before, up at 6am – 9 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
- 1 multivitamin @ 7am
- refilled vape well 1 (latte – 30mg) @ 10:20am
- set vape stick 1 to recharge @ 11am
- refilled vape well 2 (latte – 30mg) @ 11am
Meals
- 2 cups of coffee
- 2 chicken salad sandwiches, half a deviled ham sandwich, fruit salad, and a chocolate cupcake
Today’s Feelings
- mildly worried when I woke up
- content by mid morning
- happy by evening
Notes
- worked on blog 6:30am to 10am
- created the remaining post thumbnails for I need for the July NaNo Bite posts
- scheduled NaNo Bite posts for week 28
- scheduled NaNo Bite posts for week 29
- scheduled NaNo Bite posts for week 30
- scheduled NaNo Bite posts for week 31
- 25 posts total
- worked on blog 10am to 3:45pm
- scheduled Chaos Rally for week 27
- scheduled Chaos Rally for week 28
- scheduled Daily Draw posts for week 28
- scheduled Daily Draw posts for week 29
- 16 posts total
- Scholar Owl’s graduation with Adult Ed
- they copied his homeschool transcript, added the classes he took with them, and signed it!!! how cool is that?!
Friday ~ June 07, 2019
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 10am night before, up at 4:30am – 6.5 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- refilled both vape wells (latte – 30mg) @ 5am
- 75mg Topamax @ 5:30am
- 10mg Propranolol @ 5:30am
- 1 multivitamin @ 5:30am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm
- recharged vape stick 1 @ 10pm
Meals
- 2 cups of coffee
- roast beef sub and 1 1oz. bag of chips
Today’s Feelings
- content
Notes
- Special Olympics today
- Tuxedo Cat’s Bocce team won silver
- sadly because of work, Iron Knight got to watch only one game
- Tuxedo Cat’s Bocce team won silver
Saturday ~ June 08, 2019
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 10pm night before, up at 5am – 7 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- refilled both vape wells (latte – 30mg) @ 5am
- 75mg Topamax @ 5:30am
- 10mg Propranolol @ 5:30am
- 1 multivitamin @ 5:30am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm
- recharged vape stick 2 @ 9pm
Meals
- 2.5 of coffee
- 3 cups of Gatorade
- 2 donuts, 2 roast beef sandwiches, and a bag of popcorn
Today’s Feelings
- content
Notes
- Special Olympics
- Tuxedo Cat got:
- 5th in the Softball Throw
- Silver in the 50m Dash
- Silver in the 100m Dash
- Iron Knight and his daughter got to see the entire thing
- afterwards, Tuxedo Cat for the first time decided to join his team for dinner instead of going straight home
- Tuxedo Cat got: