Overall, this week has been pretty good.

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Mood Score Key:

Sliding Hypomania = 1  ~ Hypomania = 2 ~  Mania = 3  ~  Baseline (My Normal) = 0

Sliding Depression = -1  ~  Depression = -2  ~  Severe Depression = -3 ~ M = Mixed State

Energy Score Key:

Low = -1  ~  Normal = 0  ~  High = 1

Irritation Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3

Anxiety Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3

Migraine Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A ~ Normal Headache Pain or Pressure = h

Joint Pain Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Tingling = T

Sleep Quality Score Key:

Bad = -1  ~  Normal = 0  ~  Great = 1

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Special Notes for the Week

Menses Start Date: ~

Weigh-In at Any Appointment: 156lbs. at OMT appointment on 8/12/19

Chaos Rally

• When you are willing to face the truth in your life, take responsibility for it, and start aligning your intentions towards what it is you truly desire to nurture, you will find that your world becomes more fulfilling and satisfying in the present.

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Sunday ~ August 11, 2019

Daily Draw

• Before expressing a need or goal, get really clear with yourself on what it is. Then state it as simply and directly as possible. Write it down. Now you can move toward getting it done.

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 10pm night before, up at 5pm – 7 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

• 250mg Depakote @ 7am
• 75mg Topamax @ 7am
• 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
• 1 multivitamin @ 7am
• refilled vape box (vanilla tobacco 35mg) @ 10:30am
• 250mg Depakote @ 8pm
• 75mg Topamax @ 8pm
• 10mg Propranolol @ 8pm

Meals

• 3 cups of coffee
• 2 chicken burgers with tortilla chips

Today’s Feelings

• calm

Notes

• dreamed about dealing with a ton of laundry that just couldn’t get done and the person that was supposed to be helping me really sucked at it
  • the dream sort of looped on itself so… yeah, every mom’s generic nightmare
  • laundry forever, everywhere you go
• filled med boxes
• 6:30am to 9am: scheduled Daily Draw posts for week 38
• 9am to 11am: scheduled Daily Draw posts for week 39
• 11am to 1:30pm: scheduled Daily Draw posts for week 40
  • this completes September
• 1:30pm to 3pm: scheduled Daily Draw posts for week 41
• 3pm to 4pm: scheduled Daily Draw posts for week 42
  • that’s 35 posts in total today
• evening with Iron Knight was nice
  • started the second season of Jessica Jones with me
  • he seemed to glow with an inner light tonight even though he was falling asleep in front of the TV

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Monday ~ August 12, 2019

Daily Draw

• Go where the joy is and gives you a reason to celebrate your life.

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0.5 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0T

Hours of Sleep: bed at 11pm, up at 6am – 7 hours total
kept waking up from dreams I couldn’t remember

Sleep Quality: -1

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

• 250mg Depakote @ 7am
• 75mg Topamax @ 7am
• 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
• 1 multivitamin @ 7am
• refilled vape box (vanilla tobacco 35mg) @ 1pm
• 250mg Depakote @ 8:25pm
• 75mg Topamax @ 8:25pm
• 10mg Propranolol @ 8:25pm
• recharge vape box @ 8:30pm

Meals

• 3 cups of coffee

Today’s Feelings

• content
• depleated

Notes

• OMT appointment today
  • he worked on my left shoulder today
    • he says I have tendonitis in there and I need to take it easy on it until the inflammation clears
      • probably true with my finger in my hand on the same side
• Little Bear did not let me take a nap today
  • Scholar Owl failed to give Little Bear his morning and afternoon meds while I was out and didn’t bother to tell me so this kid has been cranked to the max
  • I’ve been feeling low energy from yesterday and just couldn’t seem to get myself to work on the blog or even watch Netflix or anything today
    • hell, the OMT guy expressed concern for me before I left
      • I’m still not sure what he saw, but I did tell him that I felt like I could take a nap right there if I were to linger as he suggested
• started making arrangements to attend a tarot event this coming Saturday
  • invited Iron Knight, but he’s working during that time

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Tuesday ~ August 13, 2019

Daily Draw

• Nothing is forever after all, so enjoy it while it lasts.

Mood: 0.5 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0.5 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 2am, up at 8am – 6 hours total
had the hardest time falling asleep
napped 6pm to 7:30pm – 1.5 hours total

Sleep Quality: -1

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

• 250mg Depakote @ 8:25am
• 75mg Topamax @ 8:25am
• 10mg Propranolol @ 8:25am
• 1 multivitamin @ 8:25am
• 250mg Depakote @ 9pm
• 75mg Topamax @ 9pm
• 10mg Propranolol @ 9pm
• refilled vape box (vanilla tobacco 35mg) @ 11pm

Meals

• 2 cups of coffee
• green salad, fresh papaya, roast beef sub

Today’s Feelings

• disoriented emotionally this AM
• mildly stressed by afternoon
• content by evening

Notes

• woke up avoiding a woman with long, wet, black hair dressed in a white nightgown standing in the road only for her to be hit by the semi behind me
  • hazy dream, ugly energy
  • honestly felt like the woman was coming for me
  • wish I could say I had been watching horror films lately
• Therapy Tuesday
  • private notes
    • sorry, personal thoughts for me on this
• Scholar Owl’s med clinic appointment
  • since his appointment was a few hours after mine, it meant bringing Little Bear with us which made for a mildly stressful adventure
  • between appointments we went window shopping
    • this meant me actually buying stuff
      • I did buy myself a $2.50 clockwork/steampunk style frog pendant
        • I just need to get a chain for it now
• Iron Knight asked to come over this evening, saying he could stay until about 10pm – but he left at 9pm instead
  • I shouldn’t be worried about this, but I am
    • private notes
      • not sharing my thoughts on this, sorry, but I still need to put them down somewhere
• light rain yesterday afternoon

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Wednesday ~ August 14, 2019

Daily Draw

• Up to this point you have survived all of your worst days. You can survive one more.

Mood: 0.5 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 0.5h ~ Joint Pain: 0.5

Hours of Sleep: bed at 12:30am, up at 6am – 5.5 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

• 250mg Depakote @ 7am
• 75mg Topamax @ 7am
• 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
• 1 multivitamin @ 7am
• 1 vitamin B complex supplement @ 7am
• 250mg Depakote @ 7pm
• 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
• 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm

Meals

• 2 cups of coffee
• mini rainbow bell peppers with Greek yogurt dip
• cheese, sausage, and crackers

Today’s Feelings

• mildly stressed most of the day
  • near end of the day I experienced a near panic attack, but worked through it without meds
    • talking with Iron Knight tonight, I think it might have been sensory overload that triggered it
• calmer by evening

Notes

• sat down to balance my budget this morning to realize that I over spent myself when I should have left my money alone
  • really need to remember to never take the boys window shopping with me
    • like ever, for any reason
• 8am to 9:30am: scheduled Daily Draw posts for week 43
• 9:30am to 11:45am: scheduled Daily Draw posts for week 44
  • this completes October
• 11:45am to 1pm: scheduled Daily Draw posts for week 45
  • this makes a total of 21 posts
  • I need to be productive like this every day again
• forgot all about my 8:30am appointment with my PCP this morning
  • fucking awesome – not
  • now I need to reschedule it, again
• Iron Knight came over for about an hour after work
  • he ate with me and cuddled with me
    • why this makes my day better, I don’t know, but it does
• late this evening Raven Squire regretfully informed me that he can’t make it to the tarot event, but requested that I continue to invite him to similar events I go to in the future
  • I completely understand and I will be more than happy to
• additional, private, notes for the day
  • sorry, thoughts just for me

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Thursday ~ August 15, 2019

Daily Draw

• Like it or not, the 5 people you give the most of your time to are those that help program your subconscious mind. Choose wisely.

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 1

Hours of Sleep: bed at 10:30pm night before, up at 6am – 7.5 hours total
napped 7am to 9am – 2 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

• 250mg Depakote @ 7am
• 75mg Topamax @ 7am
• 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
• 1 multivitamin @ 7am
• 1 vitamin B complex supplement @ 7am (dawned on me today that this is what I can smell in all cold cereals)
• recharged vape box @ 7am
• refilled vape box (vanilla tobacco 35mg) @ before noon
• 250mg Depakote @ 7:30pm
• 75mg Topamax @ 7:30pm
• 10mg Propranolol @ 7:30pm
• refilled vape box (vanilla tobacco 35mg) @ 8pm

Meals

• 3 cups of coffee
• 1 cup of Gatorade
• section of roast beef sub x2
• veggies and Greek yogurt dip
• cheese, sausage, and crackers

Today’s Feelings

• cheerful
• productive

Notes

• not sure why, but I woke up feeling tired even though I know I slept well
• 9am to 11am: scheduled Daily Draw posts for week 46
• 11am to 1:30pm: scheduled Daily Draw posts for week 47
• 1:30pm to 3:15pmpm: scheduled Daily Draw posts for week 48
  • this finishes November
  • this included new facial poses
• 3:15pm to 4pm: scheduled some of the Daily Draw posts for week 49
• PT appointment at 4:30pm
• 6:30pm to 7:45pm: finished scheduling Daily Draw posts for week 49
• 7:45pm to 11pm: scheduled Daily Draw posts for week 50
• 11pm to 1am: scheduled Daily Draw posts for week 51
  • that’s 42 posts completed today

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Friday ~ August 16, 2019

Daily Draw

• Remain mindful of what you are doing and the influence you create. Make amends equal to the harm felt by others.

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 1

Hours of Sleep: bed at 4:30am, up at 6:30am – 2 hours total
bed at 7:30am, up at 11am – 3.5 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

• 250mg Depakote @ 7am
• 75mg Topamax @ 7am
• 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
• 1 multivitamin @ 7am
• 1 vitamin B complex supplement @ 7am
• refilled vape box (vanilla tobacco 35mg) @ 6pm
• recharged vape box @ 7pm
• 250mg Depakote @ 11:25pm
• 75mg Topamax @ 11:25pm
• 10mg Propranolol @ 11:25pm
  • almost completely forgot evening meds

Meals

• 3 cups of coffee
• 1 can of Dr. Pepper
• 2 cups Gatorade
• 1 bottle of sparkling flavored water (20oz.)
• chips and Greek yogurt dip
• steak, papaya, cucumbers, potatoes

Today’s Feelings

• stressed most of the day
• relaxed by dinner time

Notes

• 1am to 2:30am: scheduled Daily Draw posts for week 52
• 2:30am to 4:30am: scheduled Daily Draw posts for 2020 week 1
  • this completes December
  • not sure yet which blog series I will work on next
    • probably the NaNo Bite posts for November
      • should be quick and easy to get out of the way
• spent the day grocery shopping and getting lab work done and I feel wiped out for some reason
• looking forward to spending tomorrow afternoon with Stinky at the tarot event
• Iron Knight came over for dinner tonight and we enjoyed some cuddle time together afterwards
• private notes for today

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Saturday ~ August 17, 2019

Daily Draw

• Do you know where you’re going? Do you know how to get there? What are your next three steps? Get started.

Mood: 0.5 ~ Energy: 0.5 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0h ~ Joint Pain: 1.5

Hours of Sleep: bed at 11:30pm, up at 6:30am – 7 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

• 250mg Depakote @ 7am
• 75mg Topamax @ 7am
• 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
• 1 multivitamin @ 7am
• 1 vitamin B complex supplement @ 7am
• missed evening meds
• refilled vape box @ 11:30pm

Meals

• I don’t know… somewhere around 6 cups of coffee
• white grapes, snap peas, string cheese
• venison and mixed veggies

Today’s Feelings

• incredibly uplifted

Notes

• woke up with a weird pressure feeling in head around my eyes
• began scheduling the NaNo Bite posts for November
• the tarot talk event today was awesome
  • everyone there was super great
  • spending the entire day with Stinky was ultra wonderful
    • she recommended that I start a manifestation journal
      • I think I will do that actually

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