2019 Chaos Rally #37

In this coming week’s wellness tarot challenge, we explore how dissolving your ego brings greater peace and improved connection into your life. Read on for details!


This Coming Week’s Reading


CR-01-09-13-19The purpose of this Chaos Rally tarot reading is to take a look at the coming week and see in what way we can challenge ourselves to do better in regards to our overall wellness. I ask you to approach this as a fun brainstorming session of possibilities rather than me prescribing a course of action to you.

And again, in terms of wellness I want to point out that this applies to the physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual aspects of the self. All four of these comprise the total sense of being and need to be taken care of in order to be well. As always, and I cannot stress this enough, be sure to speak to the appropriate professional before making changes to your care plan. This is especially true if my reading for some reason inspires a change in diet, exercise, supplements, or medications, or even raises a concern regarding to your health.

I’m not a specialist in any of these fields. My goal is to look at how to manage wellness in the presence and with the cooperation of your professional care team. Please keep this in mind when going over this reading.

Here is the image of this coming week’s reading.

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The Challenge: Five of Wands

The challenge for this coming week is to practice keeping your boundaries without breaking your connections with others.

CR-03-09-13-19Monday Button’s position represents the challenge you need to be working on at this time. Thus, what you need to be working on right now is found within the Five of Wands.

The Five of Wands represents disagreements, challenges, and competition. However, in the real world today we’re usually aren’t fighting dragons in our confrontations. If you are… my hats off to you.

As for the rest of us… when faced with challenges and disagreements, the first thing our ego often wants to do is turn it into a competition of some kind. It wants to say things like, “I’m smarter,” or “I’m better,” or “I’m right.” You know the drill.

Relationships of any kind are the keystones in the foundations of our lives. We are shaped by the energy of the people who we surround ourselves with and nothing occurs in live without relationships – good or bad or indifferent.

There is nothing more damaging to our well-being that unhealthy relationships and there is nothing more devastating than watching the destruction or decay of an otherwise loving relationship before our eyes.

This is why it is important to step back from ourselves and recognize that the ego is not who we are. It is a psychological mask. It is part of the program run by the subconscious designed to separate and protect the inner you from everyone else.

Ego is good in the sense of setting and holding boundaries. It gives us the idea of where others begin and where we end. It allows us to be individuals. Ego is bad in the sense that it breaks connection with others and thus the feeling of belonging. It creates isolation and loneliness. A delicate balance between these two must be found.

The challenge for this coming week is to practice keeping your boundaries without breaking your connections with others.

The Lesson: Nine of Wands

The lesson here is whenever you feel like you’re failing or being blocked, it’s actually part of the process to get you to where you need to be.

CR-04-09-13-19Grim Lee’s position represents what you need to be learning while working on your challenge. Therefore, your lesson at this time is found within the Nine of Wands.

This card represents perseverance. No matter how difficult or bleak things may look, never give up. You are able to see the end of your goal. You can feel yourself so close to it. It would be a shame to throw away all the effort now. Now is the time to put all of your experience and skills into creative use to get you through whatever is blocking you or holding you down.

The lesson here is whenever you feel like you’re failing or being blocked, it’s actually part of the process to get you to where you need to be.

How do you keep your heart space open without losing your sense of self or getting walked all over? By continuously dissolving the ego.

CR-05-09-13-19How do you keep your heart space open without losing your sense of self or getting walked all over? By continuously dissolving the ego.

You listen to the other without waiting for an opening to reply. Just dissolve the ego. No, you don’t need to agree with them and listening to them doesn’t automatically mean that you do. What it does mean, however, is that you are holding space for them and you are inviting them to be their authentic selves.

If you can do this, it does two things. The first is that it gives the other person the sense of being understood when you actively listen to them. And this is an incredible gift of love and connection. The second is when you give this gift to a person, they are more likely to be willing to return the gift.

And when they do, it is imperative that you keep the ego dissolved as you take your turn to speak. The ego denies, defends, justifies, deflects, distorts, blames, and compares. So speak your truth, but without the ego.

The Inner Lie: Death

You do not need to wait for others to initiate change in order for your life to improve.

CR-06-09-13-19Murphy Law’s position represents the false belief you need to overcome while working on your challenge. The inner lie at this time is revealed within Death.

Death represents transformation. Just as the seasons change in nature, so too can you change within yourself.

You do not need to wait for others to initiate change in order for your life to improve. Change starts with you.

You cannot continue to fight and wait for the other party to make the changes for you.

CR-07-09-13-19If you find your life filled with too much conflict daily, you have one of two choices: either walk away from it or make peace.

It doesn’t matter which choice you make. You cannot continue to fight and wait for the other party to make the changes for you.

In order to succeed in making habit or lifestyle changes, you need to be persistent.

CR-08-09-13-19Making permanent changes within ourselves is no easy feat. It is said that it takes roughly 30 days to make or break a habit and about 90 days to create a lifestyle. In order to succeed in making habit or lifestyle changes, you need to be persistent.

You can’t wait for peace to find you since it starts with the choices you make through your daily habits.

CR-09-09-13-19The ego is a habituated response that comes from the programming of our subconscious. It doesn’t operate with our best interest in mind when we wish to connect with others, create a sense of belonging, and nurture these relationships.

Therefore, we need to be persistent and re-script the programming by dissolving the ego to create change in our relationships. We need to be the bringers of peace into our lives. We can’t wait for it to find us since it starts with the choices we make through our daily habits.

The Wisdom: Three of Swords

Learn to recognize who is growing with you versus who is hindering your growth.

CR-10-09-13-19Wise Toad’s position represents the wisdom to keep in mind as you work on your challenge. The wisdom you need at this time is found within the Three of Swords.

This card represents the feeling of heartbreak and betrayal. The image of this card can’t get more direct or brutal with the message either.

Pay very close attention to the people in your life. Do you consistently feel uplifted or do you consistently feel torn down? Are you noticing a pattern of your plans falling apart with a certain someone? Or is there someone that always has your back no matter what?

It’s probably easy to see who is growing with you at the same pace as you. Clearly keep these people in your life.

Challenging people will grow with you, but at a different pace. These are still good people, just different from you.

Toxic people not only never grow with you, but also hinder your growth. These people don’t deserve a seat at your table and should never be in your boat.

Learn to recognize the difference.

It’s up to you when enough is enough and it’s time to walk away, but that time with a toxic person like this needs to come.

CR-11-09-13-19When you are willing to dissolve your ego, you are better able to see who truly stands with you and who stands against you.

When problems arise, it really should be “Us vs. The Problem” not “Me vs. You” otherwise, the relationship is damaged. The ego wants it to be “Me vs. You” rather than to allow vulnerability and the off chance that you might be wrong.

You know when someone stands against you and is toxic when the ego never comes down. Worst case scenario is their ego flares hard when you catch them red-handed trying to sink your boat.

So you’ll get hit with denial, defending, justification, deflecting, distortion, blaming, or comparing – or any combination of these. It’s up to you when enough is enough and it’s time to walk away, but that time with a toxic person like this needs to come.

Take all the time you need to heal from the pain you feel, but don’t give up.

CR-12-09-13-19Healing from heartbreak and betrayal like this doesn’t happen overnight. I read recently that love is giving someone the power to destroy you and trusting them not to. Here, they did – or at least a part of you. And it hurts. A lot.

Take all the time you need to heal from the pain you feel, but don’t give up.

Learn from the pain you have experienced to create the change you need.

CR-13-09-13-19As I said before, change starts with you and I want to make this very clear: I’m not trying to shame anyone here. I got screwed over in life before because I honestly had no idea people like this existed. I do now. And armed with that knowledge, I made changes in the way I lived my life and how I interacted with people in the world.

Let me put it another way.

If you were planning to go out into tick infested woods and I said, “Here, use this insect spray first before you go because it’s really good at repelling ticks,” would you use it before heading out into those woods? If I said, “These are the steps you need to check for ticks when you get back,” would you follow those steps when you got back?

So, look at yourself and ask, “What am I doing that attracts and allows these toxic people in? What changes can I make to reduce their frequency and remove the ones that do in?”

I mean, think of toxic people like human ticks. Doesn’t matter what bug spray you use, some might still get through, but less of them will. Then you have fewer, and more energy, to address the ones that do get through. You’re not swimming in a sea of human ticks anymore. Bonus, right?

I guess this is a very long winded way of saying learn from the pain you have experienced to create the change you need.

Conclusion

Dissolving your ego brings greater peace and improved connection into your life.

CR-14-09-13-19The key point of this coming week’s challenge is dissolving the ego and being persistent with it. Reason being is that committing to this one change reduces the confrontation you experience in your daily life. It also allows you to better see which people are really there for versus those trying to sink your ship.

Overall, dissolving your ego brings greater peace and improved connection into your life.


This Coming Week’s Playlist


Here is the music playlist inspired by the overall theme presented in this reading.


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Thank you for taking the time to read this week’s Chaos Rally tarot reading. If you found it helpful to you, please let me know in the comments below.

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~ Mythic Tarot by Liz Greene (Author), Juliet Sharman-Burke (Author), Tricia Newell (Illustrator) © 1986

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