Been a long week. We survived Halloween, and NaNoWriMo has started!

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Mood Score Key:

Sliding Hypomania = 1  ~ Hypomania = 2 ~  Mania = 3  ~  Baseline (My Normal) = 0

Sliding Depression = -1  ~  Depression = -2  ~  Severe Depression = -3 ~ M = Mixed State

Energy Score Key:

Low = -1  ~  Normal = 0  ~  High = 1

Irritation Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3

Anxiety Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3

Migraine Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A ~ Normal Headache Pain or Pressure = h

Joint Pain Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Tingling = T

Sleep Quality Score Key:

Bad = -1  ~  Normal = 0  ~  Great = 1

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Special Notes for the Week

Menses Start Date: ~

Weigh-In at Med Clinic: ~

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Sunday ~ October 27, 2019

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 1 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep: thought I had documented this, but it’s not here and now I can’t remember

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

• 75mg Topamax @ 7am
• 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
• 1 multivitamin @ 7am
• 1 vitamin B complex supplement @ 7am
• 75mg Topamax @ 8pm
• 10mg Propranolol @ 8pm

Meals

• 3 cups of coffee
• popcorn

Today’s Feelings

• unfocused

Notes

• had planned to get outlining done, but worked on a video for one of my music pieces instead for some reason
• Dad seemed particularly touchy today
  • doesn’t help my irritability was flaring today too
• Mom pressed me to go to sister-in-law’s party tomorrow at 4pm
  • getting really tired with last minute plans
• my dad fucked up Tuxedo Cat’s visit by demanding the boys wash dishes at 6:30pm, so he went home at that time
  • seriously, my dad doesn’t seem to care about anyone other than himself
• Little Bear can’t seem to find his 3DS now
  • I hope he hasn’t permanently lost it or gotten it stolen
    • I can’t afford to buy a new one
      • I wish he would keep track of it properly

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Monday ~ October 28, 2019

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 1 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 1

Hours of Sleep: bed at 9pm night before, up at 6am – 9 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

• 75mg Topamax @ 7am
• 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
• 1 multivitamin @ 7am
• 1 vitamin B complex supplement @ 7am
• 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
• 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm

Meals

• 4 cups of coffee

Today’s Feelings

• unfocused and barely motivated

Notes

• my fucking ribs on my right side hurt
• seriously got next to nothing done today
• did find Little Bear’s 3D hiding in the clean laundry basket at least
• went to my brother’s baby’s birthday party and pumpkin carving party
  • felt like I wasn’t allowed to talk to him – as usual
    • either someone would jump in and take over the conversation, like I wasn’t even there, or pull him away entirely
  • he did at least suggest that instead of trying to write an entirely new novel for NaNoWriMo, that I should go back to one of my old projects and finish it, like the Fleuryn world building one that I have mostly outlined already

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Tuesday ~ October 29, 2019

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 1 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 1

Hours of Sleep: bed at 3am, up at 6am – 3 hours total
bed at 7am, up at 10am – 3 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

• 75mg Topamax @ 7am
• 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
• 1 multivitamin @ 7am
• 1 vitamin B complex supplement @ 7am
• 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
• 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm

Meals

• ? cups of coffee

Today’s Feelings

• more productive

Notes

• Therapy Tuesday
• progress made with the outline
• ribs still hurt

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Wednesday ~ October 30, 2019

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 1 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 1

Hours of Sleep: bed at 3am, up at 6am – 3 hours total
bed at 6:30am, up at 9am – 2.5 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

• 75mg Topamax @ 9am
• 10mg Propranolol @ 9am
• 1 multivitamin @ 9am
• 1 vitamin B complex supplement @ 9am
• 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
• 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm

Meals

• ? cups of coffee
• steak and cheesy rice

Today’s Feelings

• stressed, but otherwise okay

Notes

• Little Bear’s OT
• overall outline complete, but I would like to have each chapter outlined
• ribs still hurt

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Thursday ~ October 31, 2019

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 1 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 0A ~ Joint Pain: 1

Hours of Sleep: bed at 11pm, up at 6am – 7 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

• 75mg Topamax @ 7am
• 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
• 1 multivitamin @ 7am
• 1 vitamin B complex supplement @ 7am
• 75mg Topamax @ 9pm
• 10mg Propranolol @ 9pm

Meals

• 2 cups of coffee
• 1 chicken taco
• small handful of Trolli crawlers
• small section of roast beef sub

Today’s Feelings

• stressed, but otherwise content

Notes

• ribs still hurt
• some progress made on outlining chapters
• took the boys to a haunted train ride in a town roughly an hour away
  • the train ride was about 30 mins long and took us into a town with a haunted house and several “trunk or treats” available
    • the boys didn’t get as much candy as they do in the town closer to us, but they seemed to have had more fun this year
      • next year I will keep an eye out for other novel events for them to go to
    • we also went to the store my mother works at for trick or treating as well
      • and I bought some candy for me as well

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Friday ~ November 01, 2019

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 2A ~ Joint Pain: 1

Hours of Sleep: bed at 9pm, up at 3am – 6 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

• 75mg Topamax @ 7am
• 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
• 1 multivitamin @ 7am
• 1 vitamin B complex supplement @ 7am
• 600mg Ibuprofen @ 8am
• 600mg Ibuprofen @ 5:30pm
• 1000mg Tylenol @ 5:30pm
• 75mg Topamax @ 8pm
• 10mg Propranolol @ 8pm

Meals

• 3 cups of coffee
• rest of my roast beef sub
• rest of that 4oz. pkg. of Trolli crawlers

Today’s Feelings

• by 8am, I felt hungover

Notes

• ribs still hurt
• continued to work on chapter outlines
  • I know… I should be just writing the damn thing
• half day at school due to power outages in the area caused by the windstorm
• large chunk of the day lost thanks to the migraine
• got two loads of laundry done at least
• word count: 0

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Saturday ~ November 02, 2019

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 4am, up at 10am – 6 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

• AM meds missed
• 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
• 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm

Meals

• 3 cups of coffee
• candy while working on novel chapter outlines
• leftover steak and cheesy rice

Today’s Feelings

• productive

Notes

• the migraine has finally lifted
• working on finishing my chapter outlines
• word count: 2098

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