Tode’s Weekly Assessment 2019-50

 

Been a busy week. Buried myself with working on the blog whenever I didn’t need to leave the house. Just feel a driving need to get things done and in order. I know a breakthrough of some kind is coming. This mess I have been feeling lately isn’t going to last forever and I will start moving forward again. I refuse to stay stuck.


Mood Score Key:

Sliding Hypomania = 1  ~ Hypomania = 2 ~  Mania = 3  ~  Baseline (My Normal) = 0

Sliding Depression = -1  ~  Depression = -2  ~  Severe Depression = -3 ~ M = Mixed State

Energy Score Key:

Low = -1  ~  Normal = 0  ~  High = 1

Irritation Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3

Anxiety Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3

Migraine Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A ~ Normal Headache Pain or Pressure = h

Joint Pain Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Tingling = T

Sleep Quality Score Key:

Bad = -1  ~  Normal = 0  ~  Great = 1


Special Notes for the Week

Menses Start Date: ~

Weigh-In at Med Clinic: ~


Sunday ~ December 08, 2019

Mood: -1 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 9pm, up at 2:30pm – 5.5 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 7am
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
  • multivitamin @ 7am
  • Vitamin B complex @ 7am
  • 0.5mg Ativan @ 4pm
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm

Meals

  • 3 cups of coffee
  • baked chicken, mashed potatoes, green beans, strawberry cheesecake, ice cream

Today’s Feelings

  • calm

Notes

  • today’s word count: 0
  • today’s novel total word count: 50439
  • yeah… novel writing has gone down the toilet right now
  • scheduled Chaos Wave: s7-sKg (8 posts)
  • scheduled Chaos Wave: 00-12 (13 posts)
  • had a belated birthday party with the boys and Tuxedo Cat’s father
    • he took the boys shopping and had them pick out a present for me
      • the boys picked out a weighted blanket for me
        • it’s lovely and wonderful
  • Personal Notes

Monday ~ December 09, 2019

Mood: -1 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 9pm, up at 6am – 9 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 7am
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
  • multivitamin @ 7am
  • Vitamin B complex @ 7am
  • 0.5mg Ativan @ 3pm
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm

Meals

  • 3 cups of coffee

Today’s Feelings

  • melancholy first thing this morning

Notes

  • today’s word count: 0
  • today’s novel total word count: 50439
  • scheduled Chaos Wave: 13-21 (9 posts)
    • got to Major Arcana #21 only to realize that I needed to fix the year on nearly ever single thumbnail….
    • started fixing the thumbnails
  • Personal Notes

Tuesday ~ December 10, 2019

Mood: -1 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0.5 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 11pm, up at 6am – 7 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 7am
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
  • multivitamin @ 7am
  • Vitamin B complex @ 7am
  • 0.5mg Ativan @ 9am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm

Meals

  • 2 cups of coffee

Today’s Feelings

  • stressed and mentally escaping

Notes

  • today’s word count: 0
  • today’s novel total word count: 50439
  • Little Bear woke up in a foul mood
    • screaming at the PC
    • woke up my parents
  • got all of the Major Arcana thumbnails fixed for the Chaos Wave posts
    • 22 thumbnails
  • fixed all the Swords Suit thumbnails for the Chaos Wave posts
    • 14 thumbnails
  • fixed all the Pentacles Suit thumbnails for the Chaos Wave posts
    • 14 thumbnails
  • fixed all the Wands Suit thumbnails for the Chaos Wave posts
    • 14 thumbnails
  • fixed the thumbnails for the King and Queen of Cups in the Chaos Wave posts
    • 2 thumbnails
  • really wish I had been paying attention has I was going along, would have saved me some time in the long run, oh well
  • scheduled the Chaos Wave lesson series thank you post
  • scheduled Emotional Tarot for the Hermit
  • Therapy Tuesday

Wednesday ~ December 11, 2019

Mood: -1 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 3 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 9:30pm, up at 6am – 9.5 hours total
greatly disrupted by Little Bear throughout the night

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 7am
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
  • multivitamin @ 7am
  • Vitamin B complex @ 7am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm
  • 05.mg Ativan @ 8pm
  • 0.5mg Ativan @ 10pm

Meals

  • 3 cups of coffee
  • 1 slice of cheesecake
  • 6in Roast Beef Sub

Today’s Feelings

  • I don’t know

Notes

  • today’s word count: 0
  • today’s novel total word count: 50439
  • scheduled Emotional Tarot for Justice
  • scheduled Emotional Tarot for The Hanged Man
  • scheduled Emotional Tarot for Temperance
  • scheduled Emotional Tarot for The Devil
  • scheduled Emotional Tarot for The Star
  • scheduled Emotional Tarot for The Moon
  • had to bring Little Bear home early from OT because he fell asleep and would not stay awake for it
    • may need to start scheduling OT in the mornings – not sure
  • Personal Notes

Thursday ~ December 12, 2019

Mood: -1 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 2 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 1am, up at 6am – 5 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 7am
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
  • multivitamin @ 7am
  • Vitamin B complex @ 7am
  • PM meds missed

Meals

  • 3 cups of coffee
  • 1 cup of green tea

Today’s Feelings

  • I don’t know – restless and unfocused

Notes

This morning’s meditation

  • today’s word count: 0
  • today’s novel total word count: 50439
  • no writing done at all today
  • Personal Notes
  • settled on playing RE2 this evening

Friday ~ December 13, 2019

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 11pm, up at 6am – 7 hours total
wanted to stay up for the full moon at 12:12am, but didn’t make it – or was that last night?

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 7am
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
  • PM meds missed

Meals

  • 3 cups of coffee

Today’s Feelings

  • content

Notes

  • today’s word count: 0
  • today’s novel total word count: 50439
    • not sure why I am still tracking this right now
  • scheduled Emotional Tarot for The Sun
  • scheduled Emotional Tarot for Judgement
  • scheduled Emotional Tarot for The World
  • scheduled Chaos Pen Challenge 2020-01 to 2020-10
    • 10 posts

Saturday ~ December 14, 2019

Mood: -0.5 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 3 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at midnight, up at 8am – 8 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 7am
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
  • 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm
  • 0.5mg Ativan @ 11:30pm

Meals

  • 3 cups of coffee

Today’s Feelings

  • content first half of the day
  • anxiety spiked second half of the day

Notes

Conventional Meditation Choice This Morning:

  • today’s word count: 0
  • today’s novel total word count: 50439
  • scheduled Chaos Pen Challenge 2020-11 to 2020-16
    • 6 posts
  • gave up trying to focus on the blog and tried to play RE2, only to seriously suck at that too
  • Personal Notes

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