Been a busy week. Buried myself with working on the blog whenever I didn’t need to leave the house. Just feel a driving need to get things done and in order. I know a breakthrough of some kind is coming. This mess I have been feeling lately isn’t going to last forever and I will start moving forward again. I refuse to stay stuck.
Mood Score Key:
Sliding Hypomania = 1 ~ Hypomania = 2 ~ Mania = 3 ~ Baseline (My Normal) = 0
Sliding Depression = -1 ~ Depression = -2 ~ Severe Depression = -3 ~ M = Mixed State
Energy Score Key:
Low = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ High = 1
Irritation Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Anxiety Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Migraine Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A ~ Normal Headache Pain or Pressure = h
Joint Pain Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Tingling = T
Sleep Quality Score Key:
Bad = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ Great = 1
Special Notes for the Week
Menses Start Date: ~
Weigh-In at Med Clinic: ~
Sunday ~ December 08, 2019
Mood: -1 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 9pm, up at 2:30pm – 5.5 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
- multivitamin @ 7am
- Vitamin B complex @ 7am
- 0.5mg Ativan @ 4pm
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm
Meals
- 3 cups of coffee
- baked chicken, mashed potatoes, green beans, strawberry cheesecake, ice cream
Today’s Feelings
- calm
Notes
- today’s word count: 0
- today’s novel total word count: 50439
- yeah… novel writing has gone down the toilet right now
- scheduled Chaos Wave: s7-sKg (8 posts)
- scheduled Chaos Wave: 00-12 (13 posts)
- had a belated birthday party with the boys and Tuxedo Cat’s father
- he took the boys shopping and had them pick out a present for me
- the boys picked out a weighted blanket for me
- it’s lovely and wonderful
- the boys picked out a weighted blanket for me
- he took the boys shopping and had them pick out a present for me
- Personal Notes
Monday ~ December 09, 2019
Mood: -1 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 9pm, up at 6am – 9 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
- multivitamin @ 7am
- Vitamin B complex @ 7am
- 0.5mg Ativan @ 3pm
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm
Meals
- 3 cups of coffee
Today’s Feelings
- melancholy first thing this morning
Notes
- today’s word count: 0
- today’s novel total word count: 50439
- scheduled Chaos Wave: 13-21 (9 posts)
- got to Major Arcana #21 only to realize that I needed to fix the year on nearly ever single thumbnail….
- started fixing the thumbnails
- Personal Notes
Tuesday ~ December 10, 2019
Mood: -1 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0.5 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 11pm, up at 6am – 7 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
- multivitamin @ 7am
- Vitamin B complex @ 7am
- 0.5mg Ativan @ 9am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm
Meals
- 2 cups of coffee
Today’s Feelings
- stressed and mentally escaping
Notes
- today’s word count: 0
- today’s novel total word count: 50439
- Little Bear woke up in a foul mood
- screaming at the PC
- woke up my parents
- got all of the Major Arcana thumbnails fixed for the Chaos Wave posts
- 22 thumbnails
- fixed all the Swords Suit thumbnails for the Chaos Wave posts
- 14 thumbnails
- fixed all the Pentacles Suit thumbnails for the Chaos Wave posts
- 14 thumbnails
- fixed all the Wands Suit thumbnails for the Chaos Wave posts
- 14 thumbnails
- fixed the thumbnails for the King and Queen of Cups in the Chaos Wave posts
- 2 thumbnails
- really wish I had been paying attention has I was going along, would have saved me some time in the long run, oh well
- scheduled the Chaos Wave lesson series thank you post
- scheduled Emotional Tarot for the Hermit
- Therapy Tuesday
Wednesday ~ December 11, 2019
Mood: -1 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 3 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 9:30pm, up at 6am – 9.5 hours total
greatly disrupted by Little Bear throughout the night
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
- multivitamin @ 7am
- Vitamin B complex @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm
- 05.mg Ativan @ 8pm
- 0.5mg Ativan @ 10pm
Meals
- 3 cups of coffee
- 1 slice of cheesecake
- 6in Roast Beef Sub
Today’s Feelings
- I don’t know
Notes
- today’s word count: 0
- today’s novel total word count: 50439
- scheduled Emotional Tarot for Justice
- scheduled Emotional Tarot for The Hanged Man
- scheduled Emotional Tarot for Temperance
- scheduled Emotional Tarot for The Devil
- scheduled Emotional Tarot for The Star
- scheduled Emotional Tarot for The Moon
- had to bring Little Bear home early from OT because he fell asleep and would not stay awake for it
- may need to start scheduling OT in the mornings – not sure
- Personal Notes
Thursday ~ December 12, 2019
Mood: -1 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 2 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 1am, up at 6am – 5 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
- multivitamin @ 7am
- Vitamin B complex @ 7am
- PM meds missed
Meals
- 3 cups of coffee
- 1 cup of green tea
Today’s Feelings
- I don’t know – restless and unfocused
Notes
This morning’s meditation
- today’s word count: 0
- today’s novel total word count: 50439
- no writing done at all today
- Personal Notes
- settled on playing RE2 this evening
Friday ~ December 13, 2019
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 11pm, up at 6am – 7 hours total
wanted to stay up for the full moon at 12:12am, but didn’t make it – or was that last night?
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
- PM meds missed
Meals
- 3 cups of coffee
Today’s Feelings
- content
Notes
- today’s word count: 0
- today’s novel total word count: 50439
- not sure why I am still tracking this right now
- scheduled Emotional Tarot for The Sun
- scheduled Emotional Tarot for Judgement
- scheduled Emotional Tarot for The World
- scheduled Chaos Pen Challenge 2020-01 to 2020-10
- 10 posts
Saturday ~ December 14, 2019
Mood: -0.5 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 3 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at midnight, up at 8am – 8 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm
- 0.5mg Ativan @ 11:30pm
Meals
- 3 cups of coffee
Today’s Feelings
- content first half of the day
- anxiety spiked second half of the day
Notes
Conventional Meditation Choice This Morning:
- today’s word count: 0
- today’s novel total word count: 50439
- scheduled Chaos Pen Challenge 2020-11 to 2020-16
- 6 posts
- gave up trying to focus on the blog and tried to play RE2, only to seriously suck at that too
- Personal Notes