It’s been a good week, despite it being school vacation for the boys and the ex-husband showing up at the end of the week. Lots of progress made on scheduling posts for the blog next year.
Mood Score Key:
Sliding Hypomania = 1 ~ Hypomania = 2 ~ Mania = 3 ~ Baseline (My Normal) = 0
Sliding Depression = -1 ~ Depression = -2 ~ Severe Depression = -3 ~ M = Mixed State
Energy Score Key:
Low = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ High = 1
Irritation Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Anxiety Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Migraine Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A ~ Normal Headache Pain or Pressure = h
Sleep Quality Score Key:
Bad = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ Great = 1
Special Notes for the Week
Menses Start Date: ~
Weigh-In at Med Clinic: ~
Sunday ~ December 22, 2019
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at midnight, up at 9am – 9 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- still need to pick up meds
Meals
- 3 cups of coffee
- burritos and tacos
Today’s Feelings
- Uplifted
Notes
- okay, I’m not tracking the progress of my first draft until I am ready to get back to work on it – not going to create additional anxiety for myself
- I feel like a weight has been lifted off me thanks to how things went last night with Tuxedo Cat’s father
- scheduled Chaos Pen Challenge 2020-25 to 2020-29 (5 posts)
- Tuxedo Cat’s father decorated our Christmas tree with us tonight
- he also said yes to trying again with me, this time we will be in an open relationship with a focus on healthy dynamics between us
- I’m the one that suggested it and I have a long list of reasons as to why I did – mostly centered upon the fact that I have a fearful-avoidant attachment style seeking to shift into a secure attachment style
- I’m grateful that the only “rule” that came up from all this is total transparency
- everything else is just boundary setting and the agreement to be more open about needs
- like stating when space is needed for example and trusting that the other will understand
- neither one of us was doing this very well last time
- like stating when space is needed for example and trusting that the other will understand
- everything else is just boundary setting and the agreement to be more open about needs
- I don’t expect anyone to understand
- I’m grateful that the only “rule” that came up from all this is total transparency
- I’m the one that suggested it and I have a long list of reasons as to why I did – mostly centered upon the fact that I have a fearful-avoidant attachment style seeking to shift into a secure attachment style
- he also said yes to trying again with me, this time we will be in an open relationship with a focus on healthy dynamics between us
Monday ~ December 23, 2019
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 2
Hours of Sleep: bed at 9pm, up at 5am – 8 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- still need to pick up meds
- 600mg Ibuprofen @ 9am
- 1000mg Tylenol @ 9am
- 600mg Ibuprofen @ 5pm
- 1000mg Tylenol @ 5pm
Meals
- 3 cups of coffee
Today’s Feelings
- content in a happy way
Notes
- scheduled Chaos Pen Challenge 2020-30 to 2020-53 (24 posts)
- got all of the card plot point templates done for this
- should make creating these posts faster
- it did, and I finished scheduling all of them for 2020 today
- should make creating these posts faster
- got all of the card plot point templates done for this
- OMT appointment
Tuesday ~ December 24, 2019
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep:
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- still need to pick up meds
Meals
- 4 cups of coffee
- 6in. Roast Beef sub with a handful of chips
- 3 donuts
Today’s Feelings
- content
Notes
- got my tire fixed
- took the boys shopping for a gift for me and for Tuxedo Cat’s father
- wrapped all the presents
Wednesday ~ December 25, 2019
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: didn’t last night
napped 12:30pm to 4pm – 3.5 hours
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- still need to pick up meds
Meals
- 3 cups of coffee
- ham dinner
Today’s Feelings
- elated
Notes
- scheduled Lunar Intentions post for December 2019
- scheduled Daily Draw for 2020 Week 6 (7 posts)
- scheduled Daily Draw for 2020 Week 7 (7 posts)
- enjoyed Christmas with my sons and Iron Knight (Tuxedo Cat’s father)
- he took plenty of photos of everything and really liked the gifts we got for him
- he also spent some personal time with me
- was lovely and comforting to be with him like that
- I am grateful and happy
- was lovely and comforting to be with him like that
Thursday ~ December 26, 2019
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at midnight, up at 6am – 6 hours total
slept off and on the rest of the day
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- still need to pick up meds
Meals
- ? cups of coffee
- handful of chips and a couple of holiday cookies
Today’s Feelings
- nervous
Notes
- Little Bear’s father is due to show up tonight
- he didn’t
- scheduled Daily Draw for 2020 Week 8 (7 posts)
- scheduled Daily Draw for 2020 Week 9 (7 posts)
- this completes February
Friday ~ December 27, 2019
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 1 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: no sleep last night – Little Bear didn’t fall asleep until 6am
slept off and on the rest of the day
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- still need to pick up meds
Meals
- 2 cups of coffee
- homemade pancakes
- 6in roast beef sub
- LARGE bowl of Rice Chex
Today’s Feelings
- exhausted, but okay
Notes
- started scheduling the Exploring Character with Tarot series
- scheduled intro
- scheduled c01 to c14 (14 posts)
- scheduled w01 to w07 (7 posts)
- Little Bear’s father and his family showed up
- this morning him and I agreed that the boys wouldn’t be going over to spend the night due to the black ice road conditions
- ex-father-in-law slid off the road on the way here
- this evening before heading out, he tells the boys they are going and I didn’t find out until after the boys had already packed to go
- this morning him and I agreed that the boys wouldn’t be going over to spend the night due to the black ice road conditions
Saturday ~ December 28, 2019
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 1am, up at 5am – 4 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- still need to pick up meds
Meals
- 2 cups of coffee
- Twizzlers
- leftover ham and mashed potatoes
Today’s Feelings
- light-hearted this morning
Notes
- scheduled Character Tarot w08 to w14 (7 posts)
- scheduled Character Tarot p01 to p07 (7 posts)