Aside from the car window breaking down, it’s been a pretty good week. I even learned how to make homemade crab ragoons from my dad!
Mood Score Key:
Sliding Hypomania = 1 ~ Hypomania = 2 ~ Mania = 3 ~ Baseline (My Normal) = 0
Sliding Depression = -1 ~ Depression = -2 ~ Severe Depression = -3 ~ M = Mixed State
Energy Score Key:
Low = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ High = 1
Irritation Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Anxiety Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Migraine Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A ~ Normal Headache Pain or Pressure = h
Joint Pain Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Tingling = T
Sleep Quality Score Key:
Bad = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ Great = 1
Special Notes for the Week
Menses Start Date: 01/15/2020 (25 days)
Weigh-In at Med Clinic: ~
Sunday ~ January 12, 2020
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 12:30am, up at 6:30am – 6 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- still need refills
- 0.5mg Ativan @ 12:30am
- 2 Benedryll Tabs @ 12:30am
Meals
- 3 cups of coffee
- 2 hotdogs on buns
Today’s Feelings
- flat this morning
- content by this afternoon
- uplifted this evening
Notes
- worked on a personal reading for this month
- thinking about doing this reading around the full moon each month
- spent a wonderful evening with Golden Knight
- cooked him cheese scramble before he went home at 10pm
Monday ~ January 13, 2020
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 10:30am, up at 5:30am – 7 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- still need refills
- 600mg Ibuprofen @ 5:30am
- 1000mg Tylenol @ 5:30am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm
Meals
- 4 cups of coffee
- 3 cheese burgers on buns with chips
Today’s Feelings
- content
Notes
- woke up with a migraine this morning
- 7am to 8am: worked on Chaos Rally #11
- got partial refills on meds
- played RE2 Remake Leon A rest of the day
- like, seriously – got S Rank finally though
- tried to do the same with Claire A
- went into the following morning with no avail
Tuesday ~ January 14, 2020
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 1 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 7am, up at 10am – 3 hours total
interrupted a lot by phone calls
Sleep Quality: -1
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 1 multivitamin @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm
Meals
- 2 cups of coffee
- 1 burger patti with chips
Today’s Feelings
- stressed and annoyed
Notes
- Little Bear’s father sent me $255 to my fucking personal Paypal and said the rest will show up in the bank tomorrow so I told him that I can’t use the money while it’s in Paypal – like pay bills like the storage unit rent (which I told him is due today) – and that it takes two days to transfer into my bank and if it doesn’t get paid I lose everything in the storage unit
- I still can’t get a hold of his commander and chances are at this point his commander won’t do anything because he’s caught up and next child support isn’t due until this Friday
- in any case, I transferred all of it over to the bank – so stressed
-
he called to tell me all this and seemed perplexed that I can’t use the money in there to pay for shit until I reminded him that I had to reactivate the account and had to wait for them to verify my bank account, which they just did and I don’t have a cash card or mobile phone so transferring funds for me takes awhile
- he gave me some BS about bank issues again even though what he’s claiming has never happened before
- thinking about closing out my personal Paypal account out completely so he can’t do this to me ever again
- also told me he might get deployed this Friday
- he gave me some BS about bank issues again even though what he’s claiming has never happened before
- I still can’t get a hold of his commander and chances are at this point his commander won’t do anything because he’s caught up and next child support isn’t due until this Friday
- updated DHHS shit online for SNAP and Mainecare
- filled out email form for DSER requesting info on Income Withholding Order for DFAS to automatically collect child support from Little Bear’s father
- set up eye appointments for me, Tuxedo Cat, and Little Bear
- tried calling the dental specialist the boys’ dentist recommended for me but she isn’t open today, so I left a message requesting an appointment
- Therapy Tuesday
- tired of being cold and sore – spine feels all messed up today
- played more RE2 Remake
- really don’t feel like dealing with life today
- this time doing the Leon B run an aiming for the S+ Rank
- and I suck at it, but that’s okay
Wednesday ~ January 15, 2020
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 10pm, up at 6am – 8 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 1 multivitamin @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm
Meals
- ? cups of coffee
- Hickory Smoked Bacon Pork Tenderloin, Mashed Potatoes, Asst. Fresh Fruit and Veggies, Salad, French Bread
Today’s Feelings
- Content most of the day until driver’s window broke
Notes
- Little Bear’s OT
- he did REALLY WELL
- power window decided to mess up and drop down half way in the parking lot afterwards
- he did REALLY WELL
- couldn’t get an appointment set up with anyone to look at the car
- snow storm so it seems the dealership was closed
- everyone else was convinced that it was a programming issue with the motor causing the problem before they even looked at it
- seriously though, if the glass has dropped down chances are it has gone off the track due to ice
- Golden Knight came over to visit our son, Tuxedo Cat, and had dinner and played video games
Thursday ~ January 16, 2020
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep:
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 1 multivitamin @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm
Meals
- ? cups of coffee
- leftover tenderloin
Today’s Feelings
- content
Notes
- Little Bear had a dental appointment first thing this morning despite snow storm
- he did very well this morning
- Scholar Owl’s med clinic appointment got rescheduled due to snow storm
- I played around on RE2 Remake and the XBox One’s built in recording feature
- unfortunately it only records 10 minutes at a time
- then I have to upload it to OneDrive
- then I have to download it to my PC
- no idea if I’m going to do anything with it
- was hoping to get S+ Rank, but I did terrible all day
Friday ~ January 17, 2020
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 10am, up at 6am – 6 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 1 multivitamin @ 11am
- 75mg Topamax @ 11am
- 10mg Propranolol @ 11am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm
Meals
- ? cups of coffee
- homemade pork fried rice and crab ragoons
Today’s Feelings
- content
Notes
- spent the day on RE2 again, trying to get S+ Rank
- tried it on Claire A this time
- got to the start of the final boss 2 minutes over the limit
- really bummed
- wished there was a way for me to get my PC to record my TV screen directly
- I mean, I’m sure there is, I just don’t know how yet
- the biggest problem I have with the current uploading process is that
- one, it takes forever
- two, the auto naming of files is weird
- three, they don’t upload in order
- so if I do this to share, I will need to do this differently
- I still remember the day I recorded the original RE game on VHS for my sister as a Xmas gift – so yes, this matters to me
- and yeah, that tape is still kicking around still somewhere
- I still remember the day I recorded the original RE game on VHS for my sister as a Xmas gift – so yes, this matters to me
- Golden Knight came over for dinner and played around with the infinite machine gun I had unlocked earlier on RE2 Remake
- I think he had just as much fun as Little Bear did with that
Saturday ~ January 18, 2020
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at ?, up at 6am – ? hours of sleep
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 1 multivitamin @ 7am
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7am
- need to pick up the rest of the meds
- 10mg Propranolol @ 7pm
Meals
- ? cups of coffee
- leftover fried rice and crab ragoons
Today’s Feelings
- content
Notes
- unfortunately, my cousin, Light Flower, had to cancel our plans for today due to car problems with her friend
- spent the entire day playing RE2 Remake instead
- still trying to get S+ Rank
- was pleased as punch to see Little Bear enjoy watching the first two Tremors movies with my dad this evening
- I think I finally came down with that head and chest cold that’s been going around