Overview
Mood Score Key:
Sliding Hypomania = 1 ~ Hypomania = 2 ~ Mania = 3 ~ Baseline (My Normal) = 0
Sliding Depression = -1 ~ Depression = -2 ~ Severe Depression = -3 ~ M = Mixed State
Energy Score Key:
Low = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ High = 1
Irritation Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Anxiety Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Migraine Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A ~ Normal Headache Pain or Pressure = h
Joint Pain Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Tingling = T
Sleep Quality Score Key:
Bad = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ Great = 1
Special Notes for the Week
Menses Start Date: ~
Weigh-In at Med Clinic: ~
Sunday ~ April 05, 2020
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 2 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep:
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 1 multivitamin @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 20mg Propranolol @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 9pm
- 20mg Propranolol @ 9pm
Meals
- ? cups of coffee
Today’s Feelings
- stressed
Notes
- as soon as Dad saw that I was awake, he got on the phone and started telling other family members about last night and how I wasn’t much of a parent for bringing up that DHHS had announced that visitation had to be honored during this time
- he conveniently left out how he threatened to make the boys and I homeless
- his defense and reasoning is Golden Knight’s work had 2 people call in sick, but he failed to mention how many have called in sick at Walmart where Mom works since this has started
- I understand and respect that he is afraid, but I wish he could hear and see how incredibly broken and self serving his logic is
- Golden Knight took the lay off as soon as it was offered after that
- Mom shouldn’t be working right now if Dad feels that he is such a high risk – he claims he is guaranteed to die if he gets it
- he says I’m not taking this seriously
- my response to all this is different, but no less serious
- for whatever reason, Tuxedo Cat refused to face time with Golden Knight over the webcam today even though he will do it for school
- we couldn’t get him to explain why
- I’m beginning to worry that my father’s constant antagonistic attitude towards Golden Knight is impacting Tuxedo Cat somehow
- for the last three days, Dad has felt the need to keep it over 80 degrees in the house with the wood stove and it has been making everyone else miserable
- he claims that he doesn’t want the furnace to kick in but it isn’t cold enough to make pipes freeze so why can’t he just turn it down or shut it off?
- all winter long we had to suffer with it below 75 if we were lucky and then he decides to pull this fucking shit
- I can’t help but wonder if it’s so he has an excuse for my brother to come over to help with the wood, but honestly he can come do that when this is all over
Monday ~ April 06, 2020
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 3am, up at 10am – 7 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- meds missed
Meals
- ? cups of coffee
- bologna and cheese sandwiches with Little Bear
Today’s Feelings
Notes
- the boys and I need to get back on a normal sleep cycle ASAP
- it is so messed up right now and they are missing their live online classes
- I’m sure it’s not helping anyone’s mood either
- this morning the weather was beautiful outside
Tuesday ~ April 07, 2020
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 2 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: forgot to document
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- AM meds missed
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
- 20mg Propranolol @ 7pm
Meals
- ? cups of coffee
Today’s Feelings
- I don’t know
Notes
- Therapy Tuesday
- I don’t feel like I did anything today
- did focus on brainstorming with Tuxedo Cat’s IEP team on trying to get him on board with the remote learning system
- he is not adjusting well to it at all
- he doesn’t even want to use any of it for recreational purposes
- did focus on brainstorming with Tuxedo Cat’s IEP team on trying to get him on board with the remote learning system
- tonight, the Maine State Department of Education did put out a letter advising parents and teachers to prepare for schools to be closed for the rest of the school year and to take the time to grieve and to relax expectations
- our school district has been fairly rigid with it thus far, which I’m not happy about and of course my father is completely on board with
- meanwhile, I’m watching my boys shutdown during all of this
- our school district has been fairly rigid with it thus far, which I’m not happy about and of course my father is completely on board with
Wednesday ~ April 08, 2020
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 2 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 1am, up at 6:30am – 5.5 hours total
actually went to bed around 10pm but struggled to fall asleep
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
Meals
Today’s Feelings
Notes
Thursday ~ April 09, 2020
Daily Draw:
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep:
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
Meals
Today’s Feelings
Notes
- Edited on 04/12/2020: we lost power Friday night at 10:30pm as of this moment, we still don’t have power and Dad hooked up the generator to run a few things
- Dad let me use his laptop Sunday night and I’ve been trying to update everyone with how we’re doing
Friday ~ April 10, 2020
Daily Draw:
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep:
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
Meals
Today’s Feelings
Notes
Saturday ~ April 11, 2020
Daily Draw:
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep:
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
Meals
Today’s Feelings
Notes