Tode’s Weekly Assessment 2020-33

Yes, I suck with the documentation again this week. I do need to get back on that.


Mood Score Key:

Sliding Hypomania = 1  ~ Hypomania = 2 ~  Mania = 3  ~  Baseline (My Normal) = 0

Sliding Depression = -1  ~  Depression = -2  ~  Severe Depression = -3 ~ M = Mixed State

Energy Score Key:

Low = -1  ~  Normal = 0  ~  High = 1

Irritation Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3

Anxiety Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3

Migraine Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A ~ Normal Headache Pain or Pressure = h

Joint Pain Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Tingling = T

Sleep Quality Score Key:

Bad = -1  ~  Normal = 0  ~  Great = 1


Special Notes for the Week

Menses Start Date: 08/11/2020 (27 days)

Weigh-In at Med Clinic: ~


Sunday ~ August 09, 2020

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep: forgot to document

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • AM meds missed
  • 75mg Topamax @ 9pm
  • 20mg Propranolol @ 9pm

Meals

  • 2 cups of coffee
  • 1 cups of black tea
  • pretzels

Today’s Feelings

  • calm

Notes

  • enjoying the progress I’ve been making with the datapack in Minecraft
    • being able to make my own template jigsaw pools allows for a great deal of custom randomization in generation
      • even gone so far as to make a a slightly randomized dungeon maze
        • the maze itself isn’t randomized, but the contents of it is
  • I do need to get back in the habit of keeping better records in my mood tracker
    • I don’t feel like there is anything special or important going on in my life right now, but I think this is precisely when I’m at the greatest risk of allowing self-care to slip and letting myself go to shit if I stop paying attention
      • as it is, my sleep is still completely out of whack
      • and lately, the only thing I want to do is this one project

Monday ~ August 10, 2020

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 11pm night before, up at 5:30am – 6.5 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 1 multivitamin @ 7:30am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7:30am
  • 20mg Propranolol @ 7:30am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 8pm
  • 20mg Propranolol @ 8pm

Meals

  • ? cups of coffee
  • spaghetti with meat sauce

Today’s Feelings

  • calm

Notes

  • spent entire day working on the datapack
  • watched more episodes of Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood with Golden Knight and Little Bear

Tuesday ~ August 11, 2020

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 2am, up at 11:30pm – 9.5 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • AM meds missed
  • 75mg Topamax @ 8pm
  • 20mg Propranolol @ 8pm

Meals

  • 3 cup of coffee
  • ? cups of black tea
  • chicken nuggets and diced mangoes

Today’s Feelings

  • disgruntled

Notes

  • the coding for the datapack is completely borked again, meaning I need to start over on it – at least I don’t need to start over on the structures, just the code files
  • I woke up after my therapy appointment – for the second time in a row this month
    • this sleep thing has become a crisis issue
  • had a nice, quiet evening at Golden Knight’s place after dinner

Wednesday ~ August 12, 2020

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep: I don’t remember and I forgot to document it

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • meds forgotten

Meals

  • just coffee and pretzels

Today’s Feelings

Notes


Thursday ~ August 13, 2020

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 2am, up at 10:30am – 8.5 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

Meals

Today’s Feelings

Notes


Friday ~ August 14, 2020

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep:

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

Meals

Today’s Feelings

Notes


Saturday ~ August 15, 2020

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep:

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

Meals

Today’s Feelings

Notes

  • at one point I had to lay down because my chest felt like someone was sitting on it
    • I haven’t felt like that in years, and I don’t recall it being that bad before
      • no, I didn’t bother going to ER because I didn’t feel like being told it’s just a panic attack again and I didn’t want to see my parents get all worked up over it either
        • as it is, my father still brings this up once in awhile to bitch about because to this day he is still convinced the two times he took me to the ER for this I was in fact having a heart attack at the time
          • they refused to run any tests back then because I was so young
          • and now that my nephew has died just this year and it looks like it’s due to his heart, my dad is extra angry about it
      • Golden Knight did say later that night when I told him about it that I should go somewhere else to have it tested to find out what it is
        • pretty certain I have the heart defeat that runs in my family, just like two of my siblings, my late nephew, and now my niece
          • far as I know, none of them are taking meds for it
          • surgery hasn’t been done on any of them for it either
          • I do know they’ll tell me to quit smoking
      • I really wish there was some way for me to quietly get this checked out without flagging the attention of my parents
        • I want to know what’s going on before having to deal with them and their anxiety and need for control

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