I don’t know what it is about helping my boys with remote learning that makes me feel so burnt out and tapped out, but it does. Homeschooling my oldest son never felt like this. Was I stressed and worried I would fuck shit up? Yes. With remote learning, the teachers are in charge of all that so I have nothing to worry about. Instead, I get to be “on” all day long and by the time the day is over, I’m completely shot.
Mood Score Key:
Sliding Hypomania = 1 ~ Hypomania = 2 ~ Mania = 3 ~ Baseline (My Normal) = 0
Sliding Depression = -1 ~ Depression = -2 ~ Severe Depression = -3 ~ M = Mixed State
Energy Score Key:
Low = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ High = 1
Irritation Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Anxiety Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Migraine Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A ~ Normal Headache Pain or Pressure = h
Joint Pain Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Tingling = T
Sleep Quality Score Key:
Bad = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ Great = 1
Special Notes for the Week
Menses Start Date: ~
Weigh-In at Med Clinic: ~
Sunday ~ September 06, 2020
Mood: 1 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: did not sleep last night
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 1 multivitamin @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 20mg Propranolol @ 7am
Meals
Today’s Feelings
Notes
Monday ~ September 07, 2020
Mood: 1 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep:
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
Meals
Today’s Feelings
Notes
- Tuxedo Cat picked out John Wick in the store today while I took him to the store to pick him up an alarm clock
- we ended up watching it with my parents, my brother’s family, and Golden Knight – really glad Tuxedo Cat enjoyed watching it
Tuesday ~ September 08, 2020
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep:
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
Meals
Today’s Feelings
Notes
Wednesday ~ September 09, 2020
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep:
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
Meals
Today’s Feelings
Notes
- went birthday gift shopping with Golden Knight this afternoon
- I think he’s finally done
- we called it an early night after dinner
- I guess I’m not the only one burnt out with everything going on
Thursday ~ September 10, 2020
Mood: 1 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 12:30am, up at 6am – 5.5 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 1 multivitamin @ 6:30am
- 75mg Topamax @ 6:30am
- 20mg Propranolol @ 6:30am
Meals
- 3 cups of coffee
- 12oz. can of mango pepsi
- 3 pkgs of instant oatmeal
- chicken salad sandwich
Today’s Feelings
- grateful I got some sleep last night but still feeling tired
Notes
- I know… hard to explain how one is hypomanic and tired at the same time, but I am
- I’m also restless and unable to focus on shit, which is most unfortunate since I need to have a Chaos Rally post finished and scheduled to go live tomorrow
Friday ~ September 11, 2020
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at midnight, up at 6am – 6 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 1 multivitamin @ 6am
- 75mg Topamax @ 6am
- 20mg Propranolol @ 6am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
- 20mg Propranolol @ 7pm
Meals
- 3 cups of coffee
- 12oz. can of mango Pepsi
- pretzels
Today’s Feelings
- content
Notes
- failed to get the Chaos Rally post done yesterday, so now I must get it finished today
- got that finished finally – I really need to stay on top of that
- completed personal full moon reading
Saturday ~ September 12, 2020
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep:
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
Meals
Today’s Feelings
Notes