The first half of the week felt like it went by in a haze. A lot of worry focused on how things have been going with Little Bear’s remote learning. Ultimately, I have decided to take the plunge and just homeschool him.
Mood Score Key:
Sliding Hypomania = 1 ~ Hypomania = 2 ~ Mania = 3 ~ Baseline (My Normal) = 0
Sliding Depression = -1 ~ Depression = -2 ~ Severe Depression = -3 ~ M = Mixed State
Energy Score Key:
Low = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ High = 1
Irritation Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Anxiety Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Migraine Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A ~ Normal Headache Pain or Pressure = h
Joint Pain Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Tingling = T
Sleep Quality Score Key:
Bad = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ Great = 1
Special Notes for the Week
Menses Start Date: 11/19/2020 (33 days)
Weigh-In at Med Clinic: ~
Sunday ~ November 15, 2020
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 1am, up at 7am – 6 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 1 multivitamin @ 7am
- 20mg Propranolol @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 20mg Propranolol @ 7pm
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- ? cups of black tea
- 1 slice of plain cheese cake
- spaghetti and meat sauce
Today’s Feelings
- content
Notes
- NaNoWriMo Word Count: 1881
- watched the Death Note live action movie with Golden Knight after dinner
Monday ~ November 16, 2020
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 6am, up at 12pm – 6 hours total
slept off and on most of the remaining day until 7pm
Sleep Quality: -1
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- AM meds missed
- 20mg Propranolol @ 7pm
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- ? cups black tea
Today’s Feelings
- disappointed with myself
Notes
- NaNoWriMo Word Count: 2067
- of course I fucked up this morning and Little Bear missed school online
- I feel like I completely wasted most of the day
Tuesday ~ November 17, 2020
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: forgot to document
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- AM meds missed
- 20mg Propranolol @ 7pm
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- ? cups of black tea
- forgot to document food
Today’s Feelings
- stressed
Notes
- NaNoWriMo Word Count: 3025
- Golden Knight stayed home so I could write
- seriously researched into homeschooling Little Bear
Wednesday ~ November 18, 2020
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: failed to document
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 1 multivitamin @ 7am
- 20mg Propranolol @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 20mg Propranolol @ 7pm
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- ? cups of black tea
Today’s Feelings
- stressed
Notes
- NaNoWriMo Word Count: 1643
- my parents are 100% on board with homeschooling Little Bear and even bought some workbooks for him, which he liked
- I’m now committed to doing this
- downloaded the letter of intent form
- bought the materials for the portfolio
- bought extra workbooks
Thursday ~ November 19, 2020
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: did not sleep last night
napped for an hour, but couldn’t tell you when other than it was after 2pm
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- AM meds forgotten
- 20mg Propranolol @ 7pm
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- ? cups of black tea
- 1ft. roast beef sub
Today’s Feelings
- stressed
Notes
- NaNoWriMo Word Count: 510
- submitted letter of intent to homeschool and spoke to the special ed director over the phone about it
- she wanted to make sure I understood it meant Little Bear will lose his placement with the special school, which I was well aware
- BUT what I didn’t know and she explained to me is that his IEP stays on file until he’s 26, so he doesn’t lose that
- if I choose to bring him back to public school, his IEP and portfolios will be reviewed – so my documentation of everything will be critical
- this is why even though it’s not legally required, the homeschooling organization recommends you have an SEP (student education plan) for your portfolio
- the direction expressed confidence in my ability to write a good one for my son
- and mentioned that I have a fresh IEP to draw from too
- the direction expressed confidence in my ability to write a good one for my son
- this is why even though it’s not legally required, the homeschooling organization recommends you have an SEP (student education plan) for your portfolio
- she even mentioned the Orton-Gillingham method and the Wilson method as resources to help teach my son to read
- I’ve looked them up and got them bookmarked now
- suggested using colored magnetic letters for him to work with
- told me the consonants need to be one color and the vowels need to be another
- and have him work with them on a baking pan to practice spelling and sounding out words
- this for some reason reminded me of when I was little how my mother had us working with magnetic letters on the fridge
- mom homeschooled in tandem with public school back then, even during the summer
- this for some reason reminded me of when I was little how my mother had us working with magnetic letters on the fridge
- she wanted to make sure I understood it meant Little Bear will lose his placement with the special school, which I was well aware
- Little Bear tried to rush through the first workbook today, intending to complete it in one night, and got upset when he realized that wasn’t the plan and the material became more challenging as he got further into it
- Golden Knight came over for dinner and we sat down to watch Netflix, but I passed out on him – not sure what time it was and I only vaguely remember him leaving
- I only remember this because I heard him tell Little Bear to let me sleep and not wake me up unless it was an emergency
Friday ~ November 20, 2020
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed ?, up 2am – ? total hours
took nap 1pm to 6pm – 5 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 1 multivitamin @ 7am
- 20mg Propranolol @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- PM meds forgotten
Meals
- ? cups of black tea
Today’s Feelings
- content
Notes
- NaNoWriMo Word Count:
- posted Chaos Rally #47
- scheduled Chaos Rally #48
- scheduled the remaining Daily Draw posts for November 2020 (7 posts)
- homeschool session with Little Bear tonight was quiet and fuss free – 9pm to 12am
- got him to read a book out loud
- used art to work with letters
- asked him to draw a picture of what makes him happy
- drew a picture of him drawing
- guess I need to use more of that
- drew a picture of him drawing
Saturday ~ November 21, 2020
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep:
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 1 multivitamin @ 7am
- 20mg Propranolol @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 20mg Propranolol @ 7pm
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- 3 cups of coffee
- 2 bananas
Today’s Feelings
- defeated
Notes
- NaNoWriMo Word Count: 2319
- Little Bear broke his PC monitor today by punching it – repeatedly
- the med clinic told me that this new ADHD med might increase aggression
- I don’t think this is the right med choice for him
- the med clinic told me that this new ADHD med might increase aggression
