Tode’s Weekly Assessment 2020-51

It’s been a busy and productive week this week. Honestly, I wish things felt less hectic and that I didn’t have to choose between which balls to juggle and which to let drop. I suppose then my life wouldn’t be the “art of chaos” if I had the luxury to juggle everything everyday.


Mood Score Key:

Sliding Hypomania = 1  ~ Hypomania = 2 ~  Mania = 3  ~  Baseline (My Normal) = 0

Sliding Depression = -1  ~  Depression = -2  ~  Severe Depression = -3 ~ M = Mixed State

Energy Score Key:

Low = -1  ~  Normal = 0  ~  High = 1

Irritation Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3

Anxiety Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3

Migraine Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A ~ Normal Headache Pain or Pressure = h

Joint Pain Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Tingling = T

Sleep Quality Score Key:

Bad = -1  ~  Normal = 0  ~  Great = 1


Special Notes for the Week

Menses Start Date: 12/15/2020

Weigh-In at Med Clinic: ~


Sunday ~ December 13, 2020

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 1h ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep: didn’t sleep last night
slept between 2pm and 8pm – 6 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 1 multivitamin @ 8:00am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 8:00am
  • 20mg Propranolol @ 8:00am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 8:00pm
  • 20mg Propranolol @ 8:00pm
  • 600mg Ibuprofen @ 8:00pm

Meals

  • ? cups of black tea
  • 1 cup of coffee
  • chicken bacon ranch Velveeta helper (made with ground turkey)

Today’s Feelings

  • motivated

Notes

  • spent the entire night and into the morning putting together and scheduling the revamped Welter Quill series for next year on the blog
    • worked on it until about noon
  • finally got around to digging out the spare monitor to hook up to Little Bear’s PC
    • explained to him this was the only spare I’ve got so if he breaks it, he’s out of a PC
    • I’m finding I can’t effectively run a blog the way I want if I’m sharing a PC with him so I needed him back at his own desk space again
  • had an ongoing conversation with Golden Knight about how things were going with our relationship today
    • not sure how to describe it, or how to feel about it
    • pretty much the same thing as always, minus the fighting
    • and as always, I was told things will get better
      • yes, things have been getting better but the one thing that I have been struggling so hard for, just getting my needs met, hasn’t
        • I’m losing hope in this regard and feel the need to release expectations
        • the only thing I’m responsible for in life, really, is the effort I put in and right now… I’m operating in the red
          • I can’t change him, but I can change me
            • I don’t know how to rebalance without a toxic backlash yet, but I’m going to figure out a healthy way to do it
              • I’m tired of feeling stuck and overwhelmed
              • I’m tired of feeling bitter and resentful
              • I’m tired of feeling unimportant and underappreciated
                • all signs of overextending and over giving
                  • all up to me to change

Monday ~ December 14, 2020

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 1h ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep: no sleep last night
bed at 11am, up at 6pm – 7 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 600mg Ibuprofen @ 4:00am
  • 1 multivitamin @ 7:00am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7:00am
  • 20mg Propranolol @ 7:00am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7:00pm
  • 20mg Propranolol @ 7:00pm

Meals

  • 4 cups of coffee
  • roast beef sub with chips and fruit

Today’s Feelings

  • determined

Notes

  • still working on setting up and scheduling the Welter Quill series posts
    • not sure why, but it seems like I get a few posts done only to realize that I forgot something major and then need to go back and revise everything I’ve done so far
      • it’s a grueling process and I wish I would just get it right the first time
  • Golden Knight and I had a lovely evening together
    • hope we have more like these more often

Tuesday ~ December 15, 2020

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 4:30am, up at 10:30am – 6 hours total
napped 6:30pm to 8:30pm – 2 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • meds missed

Meals

  • 3 cups of coffee
  • leftover roast beef sub

Today’s Feelings

  • productive

Notes

  • finally got all of the new Welter Quill series posts put together and scheduled for next year

Wednesday ~ December 16, 2020

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 4am, up at 10am – 6 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • meds forgotten

Meals

  • ? cups of coffee

Today’s Feelings

  • semi-productive

Notes

  • got the blurb for my first short story written, edited the first short story, came up with a title for it, and got it scheduled on Patreon for the first Friday of Jan
    • both Scholar Owl and Golden Knight were a lot of help with this
  • edited second short story

Thursday ~ December 17, 2020

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 11pm, up at 5am – 6 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 1 multivitamin @ 7:00am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7:00am
  • 20mg Propranolol @ 7:00am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7:00pm
  • 20mg Propranolol @ 7:00pm

Meals

  • 3 cups of coffee

Today’s Feelings

  • motivated

Notes

  • wrote blurb, came up with title, and scheduled the second short story on Patreon
  • got January’s Chaos Cast weekly posts put together and scheduled
  • got January’s daily Chaos Beats put together and scheduled
  • started working on January’s Daily Draw posts

Friday ~ December 18, 2020

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 11pm, up at 5am – 6 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • meds forgotten

Meals

  • ? cups of coffee
  • homemade meatball sub

Today’s Feelings

  • bleh

Notes

  • spent the entire day running errands and ended up exhausted as fuck
  • did finally get to show Little Bear the WorldPainter program and it was fun to see him light up as he worked with it
  • was hoping to make Xmas tree ornaments with the boys today, but that didn’t happen

Saturday ~ December 19, 2020

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 9pm, up at 3am – 6 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:

Meds Taken

  • 1 multivitamin @ 7:00am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7:00am
  • 20mg Propranolol @ 7:00am

Meals

  • 2 cups of coffee

Today’s Feelings

  • worked on WorldPainter with Little Bear in the early hours

Notes

  • definitely thinking that designing project based unit studies for Little Bear to work on is the way to go for him in order to keep him engaged and learning
  • we made Xmas tree ornaments with homemade playdough
    • the baking step didn’t go as expected
      • my mom looked on the internet to see if someone else had a better recipe than the one we’ve had in the family for years, the one she found is identical minus the oil, but baking temps and times are different
        • the online recipe also recommended you leave the playdough white and paint it after baking
          • needless to say, experimentation is required to get it the way we want it to come out

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