Been another long week of pretty much the same boring thing, every day. Wish I had something more interesting to tell right now.
Mood Score Key:
Sliding Hypomania = 1 ~ Hypomania = 2 ~ Mania = 3 ~ Baseline (My Normal) = 0
Sliding Depression = -1 ~ Depression = -2 ~ Severe Depression = -3 ~ M = Mixed State
Energy Score Key:
Low = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ High = 1
Irritation Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Anxiety Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Migraine Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A ~ Normal Headache Pain or Pressure = h
Joint Pain Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Tingling = T
Sleep Quality Score Key:
Bad = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ Great = 1
Special Notes for the Week
Menses Start Date: ~
Weigh-In at Med Clinic: ~
Sunday ~ February 07, 2021
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: failed to document
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity & Time
Meds Taken
- AM meds missed
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
- 20mg Propranolol @ 7pm
Meals
- leftover pork lo mein
Today’s Feelings
- content
Notes
- spent the day playing PSO2
- Dad seems to insist that I’m depressed and get upset for no reason
- tired of trying to explain that I don’t like the constant commentary being made on my life every day
- I feel like I can’t raise my own kids in peace
- I feel like I can’t even dress how I want
- seriously, if you are giving the same advice every day then it’s no longer advice, it’s control
- tired of trying to explain that I don’t like the constant commentary being made on my life every day
Monday ~ February 08, 2021
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 7am, up at 3pm – 8 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity & Time
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 20mg Propranolol @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
- 20mg Propranolol @ 7pm
Meals
- ? cups of coffee
Today’s Feelings
Notes
- I forgot to document and I honestly don’t remember what I did other than play video games
Tuesday ~ February 09, 2021
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: fucked if I know
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity & Time
Meds Taken
- 1 multivitamin @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 20mg Propranolol @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
- 20mg Propranolol @ 7pm
Meals
- ? cups of coffee
- chicken burgers on a bun with lettuce, onion, and tomato
Today’s Feelings
- I do know I’m tired of telling my dad why I get upset only for him to tell me later that I seem to get upset for no reason
- it’s like they don’t even listen at all
- I’m tired of my boundaries being ignored
Notes
- watched more episodes of Dark with Golden Knight until he went home
- we’re into the third season now
- dinked around on PSO2 the rest of the night
Wednesday ~ February 10, 2021
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 8am, up at 4pm – 8 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity & Time
Meds Taken
- missed my meds completely somehow, according to med box
Meals
- ? cups of coffee
- pretzels
Today’s Feelings
Notes
- another day spent entirely on PSO2
- perhaps this is why I shouldn’t touch games at all, I bury myself in them
Thursday ~ February 11, 2021
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 8am, up at 3pm – 7 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity & Time
Meds Taken
- 1 multivitamin @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 20mg Propranolol @ 7am
- PM meds missed
Meals
- ? cups of coffee
Today’s Feelings
- chicken burgers on bun with cheese and tomato
Notes
- I’m tired of my daily life just blurring together
Friday ~ February 12, 2021
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 8am, up at 6pm – 10 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity & Time
Meds Taken
- AM meds missed
Meals
- ? cups of coffee
- 2 cans of Pepsi
- leftover fried rice
Today’s Feelings
Notes
Saturday ~ February 13, 2021
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0
Hours of Sleep:
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity & Time
Meds Taken
Meals
Today’s Feelings
Notes
