Tode’s Weekly Assessment 2021-32

Some ranting this week, but otherwise survived.


Mood Score Key:

Sliding Hypomania = 1  ~ Hypomania = 2 ~  Mania = 3  ~  Baseline (My Normal) = 0

Sliding Depression = -1  ~  Depression = -2  ~  Severe Depression = -3 ~ M = Mixed State

Energy Score Key:

Low = -1  ~  Normal = 0  ~  High = 1

Irritation Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3

Anxiety Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3

Migraine Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A ~ Normal Headache Pain or Pressure = h

Joint Pain Score Key:

None = 0  ~  Mild = 1  ~  Moderate = 2  ~  Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Tingling = T

Sleep Quality Score Key:

Bad = -1  ~  Normal = 0  ~  Great = 1


Special Notes for the Week

Menses Start Date: ~

Weigh-In at Med Clinic: ~


Sunday ~ August 08, 2021

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep:

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity & Time

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 8:30am
  • 20mg Propranolol @ 8:30am
  • 1 multivitamin @ 8:30am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7:00pm
  • 20mg Propranolol @ 7:00pm

Meals

Today’s Feelings

Notes

  • today I decided to just chill out and play PSO2

Monday ~ August 09, 2021

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 2 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep:

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity & Time

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 10:30am
  • 20mg Propranolol @ 10:30am
  • 1 multivitamin @ 10:30am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7:00pm
  • 20mg Propranolol @ 7:00pm

Meals

Today’s Feelings

Notes

  • hung out with my brother with afternoon into the evening
    • after getting a phone call from my mother that they are on their way home

Tuesday ~ August 10, 2021

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 2 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep:

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity & Time

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 9:00am
  • 20mg Propranolol @ 9:00am
  • 1 multivitamin @ 9:00am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7:00pm
  • 20mg Propranolol @ 7:00pm

Meals

Today’s Feelings

Notes

  • binged watched the the sixth season of Hunter with Little Bear
  • worked on laundry too – just washing and drying the towels

Wednesday ~ August 11, 2021

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 2 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep: bed at 6am, up at 10am – 4 hours total

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity & Time

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 10:00am
  • 20mg Propranolol @ 10:00am
  • 1 multivitamin @ 10:00am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7:00pm
  • 20mg Propranolol @ 7:00pm

Meals

Today’s Feelings

Notes

  • towels got folded and put away
    • I know this seems like a minor thing to document, but this is two household’s worth of hand towels, bath towels, wash cloths, dish cloths and dish towels that got emptied out that needed to be caught up and taken care of
      • laundry and dishes are the two chores that for whatever reason seem to build up like that before I touch them – if my parents are around or involved in some way
        • I don’t know if there’s an underlying need to piss them off or some kind of inertia going on
          • I just know that the moment they’re gone I feel a sudden urge to get all this shit done as fast as possible before they can stick their nose in it
            • like I’m not going to wash my socks separately from everything else, fuck it
            • no, I don’t wash my underwear separate from everything else either, again, fuck it
              • AND! I’ve said this once before and I’ll say it again: IF someone is looking at my child’s underpants then I have bigger issues and concerns beyond whether those underpants are shiny white or not
                • no. one. needs. to. be. looking. at. my. children’s. underpants.
              • well, actually I need to rethink this argument since two of them are adults now so… if they care about someone seeing their underpants, then they need to be doing their own laundry
                • either way, it’s still not my problem
                  • over bleaching ruins fabric and I buy enough kids clothes as it is
                    • it will soften and degrade the fibers, to the point of disintegration
                  • I refuse to bleach kids’ underwear just in case someone sees it when NOBODY should EVER see it
                  • therefore, why the fuck should I separate it if I don’t intend to bleach it
            • do your own damn laundry however way you like, I don’t care, but let me do mine my way in peace
          • yeah, I think it’s that I get tired of arguing over stupid shit and being told that I don’t listen
            • listening is NOT the same thing as doing whatever you’re told – it’s not
              • I will not blindly follow directions just because that’s the way it’s always been done
              • I will not wreck the fabric of the clothes purchased for my boys
              • I do not want to keep more that 14 days worth of clothing “just in case”
                • that’s 2 changes of clothes per day for one week
                • my boys and I have never needed more than that
                • I honestly cannot fathom why we would ever need more than that
          • dishes are the same way but instead of dealing with my mother, it’s dealing with my father
            • either way, it’s exhausting
            • and yes, I could just do it their way since in the grand scheme of things it doesn’t matter but it’s never good enough, ever – something will always be wrong, every time
  • they arrived back home late at night tonight
    • at least the boys and I had one last quiet day together

Thursday ~ August 12, 2021

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep:

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity & Time

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 10:00am
  • 20mg Propranolol @ 10:00am
  • 1 multivitamin @ 10:00am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 11:30pm
  • 20mg Propranolol @ 11:30pm

Meals

Today’s Feelings

Notes

  • and yep, sure enough, I went to the trouble to make sure the main part of the house was clean before my parents got home and my mother today just felt the need to go after my fridge of all things just before Golden Knight took me grocery shopping
    • interrupted our conversation 3 times to tell me that I need to clean the damn thing
  • enjoyed a quiet evening with Golden Knight tonight
    • wished we had these more often actually

Friday ~ August 13, 2021

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep:

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity & Time

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 7:30am
  • 20mg Propranolol @ 7:30am
  • 1 multivitamin @ 7:30am
  • 75mg Topamax @ 7:30pm
  • 20mg Propranolol @ 7:30pm

Meals

Today’s Feelings

Notes


Saturday ~ August 14, 2021

Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0 ~ Joint Pain: 0

Hours of Sleep:

Sleep Quality: 0

Exercise Activity & Time

Meds Taken

  • 75mg Topamax @ 8:00am
  • 20mg Propranolol @ 8:00am
  • 1 multivitamin @ 8:00am

Meals

Today’s Feelings

Notes


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