Not pregnant. Hypersexuality symptoms have dropped significantly. And again, it needs to be pointed out here that this particular thing is not about having a high libido. There is no such thing as a “normal libido” clinically truth be told. What defines hypersexuality is the obsession and preoccupation with sex and the abnormal behaviors that go along with it. Mine happens to be tied to my hypomanic, manic, and (occasionally) mixed states episodes. I’m not entirely convinced that I’m out of the water, but I do feel more stable than I have been in awhile. Continue reading “Toad’s Weekly Assessment 2019-20” →

You know that first boss in Resident Evil Revelations that lumbers around yelling, “May day! May day! This is the Queen Zenobia!” I feel like my brain has been doing that this week and I would very much like it to stop. Continue reading “Toad’s Weekly Assessment 2019-19” →

This week has mostly sucked. My mind feels like it has slipped into a very negative place and I’ve been stuck in these thought patterns I can’t seem to get out of. I need to do something seriously different here to pull myself out of it. I can’t stay like this. Continue reading “Toad’s Weekly Assessment 2019-18” →

Took me most of the week to realize that the root of my problem is that I have been in need of respite care and that I’ve been neglecting it. This is such a critical point of self-care when you are taking care of others. This becomes vital when you personally have a chronic illness, disability, or special needs as well. Continue reading “Toad’s Weekly Assessment 2019-17” →

It’s been a rough week filled with insecurity. No idea what triggered it this time around, or what I could have done better to handle it. I just know I’m tired of feeling like a wreck for no apparent reason. Continue reading “Toad’s Weekly Assessment 2019-16” →

I have spent most of this week feeling terribly worn down and exhausted, wanting to do nothing but sleep. Not sure why that is. Don’t know yet if I’m coming down with something or if I’m sliding into depression. I don’t feel down emotionally, I don’t think, but I do physically. Continue reading “Toad’s Weekly Assessment 2019-15” →

It’s been a really good week. Continue reading “Toad’s Weekly Assessment 2019-14” →

This week has been much better than last week. Really feeling the weight of the work for my blog though. I’m not behind on posts in terms of what is scheduled, but my brain keeps telling me that I am way behind and that there is so much to get done right now. In reality I just want to get ahead so that maybe I can start a new project. Continue reading “Toad’s Weekly Assessment 2019-13” →

At this point I think it’s safe to say a depressive episode is trying to hit, if it hasn’t hit already. Spring is here and the time change isn’t helping. Basic memory recall has even gone out the window. This is why routine is so important. This completely fits my usual annual pattern, sadly. No idea why my mood slides downward as the season warms up. Seriously would help for me to remember to take my meds every day, and on time. Continue reading “Toad’s Weekly Assessment 2019-12” →

I feel like there has been a lot of paranoia and insecurity this week for me. Not sure what’s driving that. Appetite pattern has been odd this week too. Been sleeping a bit more than I normally do, but I don’t feel it’s excessive. Don’t know if this is an active mood episode of some kind, or if it’s something else. Continue reading “Toad’s Weekly Assessment 2019-11” →