It’s been a month now since Little Bear was admitted to in-patient for possible psychosis and during that entire time I’ve only mentioned it in my mood trackers. I didn’t know how to talk about it. He’s been home since Thursday night and I’m still not sure how to talk about, but I’m going to try. Continue reading “My Baby is Finally Home from In-Patient”
Okay… so as if my life isn’t complicated and busy enough, my ex decides to throw yet another curve ball at me. This spikes my stress levels up once again and I’m left with trying to figure out how to pull myself out of the mess. Continue reading “Stuck in a Stress Spiral and Using the Chaos Rally Spread”
There are things that I need to let go. There are things I ought to walk away from. But… every once in awhile I see or hear things and my brain won’t let them go.
My mom made it home tonight. They took her off the two meds that were slowing down her heart rate from what Dad was saying.
My mom went to the hospital this afternoon. Trying not to worry. Her blood pressure and heart rate dropped and now they are keeping her over night for observation.
Sorry I’m ridiculously late with the playlist this time around. Since this is the time of year that public school is starting back up again, I decided to pick out a set of fairly chill (not metal) songs that celebrate the weekend to relax with.
Oddly enough this was a trick I had learned while in college, not directly mind you, but while study Anatomy and Physiology and learning about the Central Nervous System I came to understand how panic attacks happen. I used to have the often – like to the point I would skip lectures for fear that I would have them in class. As luck would have it, I made it to the lecture that covered this topic. It took about a year I think, but every time one started I would repeat the lecture notes in my head, tell myself I wasn’t dying, and this was normal. Eventually, they stopped happening. (Too bad it doesn’t work for migraines!) I still have anxiety, but not anywhere near as bad as I did back then thanks to this and getting treatment for my migraines, Bipolar, and PTSD.
I do like how this article refers to it as “inviting anxiety to tea as though it was a person” and really we could apply this to any symptom or emotion we have. Just accept that it’s present and real first. Then decide how to manage with that presence. Like having a house guest – even if it’s a really smelly house guest and there is a terrible storm outside so you can’t kick them out…
Our mind’s response to anxiety affects our self-esteem, sense of control, and how we see the world around us. When we experience anxiety symptoms, our feelings and thoughts get so wound up in the body’s stress response that we may want to run. We want to shed this thing that won’t leave us alone. In…
Okay this week I’ve got quite a few songs on the playlist and nearly all of them (two of them I think came out after I graduated) are a throwback from my high school days. They are all songs I find highly amusing in one way or another.
I’m totally late in posting the playlist this weekend. I apologize for that.
I’ve been bugging out over getting the homeschool portfolio put together and mailed in on time and hoping to get the determination letter back on time, etc. – not to mention trying to reach them about the late fee for that when they sent out a newsletter notifying parents that there are two group portfolio review dates remaining at the end of this month.