I don’t know what’s going on with me right now. Is it just me struggling with the break up? Struggling with the transition of my parents moving out of the house and me taking over it all on my own? The fact that my ex-husband is supposed to be showing up for his visit any moment now? Seasonal Bipolar episode? The on-going bullshit that is Covid? All of it? None of it?Continue reading
I’m running behind on this month’s short story for my Patreon. Again. I’m sorry. It is coming, I promise.Continue reading
Hey, I haven’t written a personal post here in forever. Or at least, it feels like forever to me. I’m sure this year has been as crazy and hectic for you all as it has been for me.Continue reading
I haven’t posted a personal update in quite awhile. I realized yesterday that I really ought to check in with all of you and let you know how I’m doing and what I’ve been up to. Continue reading
It’s been a month now since Little Bear was admitted to in-patient for possible psychosis and during that entire time I’ve only mentioned it in my mood trackers. I didn’t know how to talk about it. He’s been home since Thursday night and I’m still not sure how to talk about, but I’m going to try. Continue reading
Although summer isn’t officially here yet, it feels like it has arrived. The humidity where we live in Maine has hit around 80% and I’m just about dying. If it weren’t for the beauty of the untouched trees here I would find some excuse to find some place else to live. Seriously.
A lot has happened but whenever I sit down to write about it, it feels like nothing. So how do you talk about it? Easier to slip under the blanket and pretend the world doesn’t exist than to sort it all out.
Growing up, every major holiday involved food – and LOTS of it – for my family. That hasn’t changed over the years. As I write this Mom is cooking ham and Dad is trying to convince her to make a ridiculous amount of pies.
I’m reaching a point where I can feel myself physically getting tired, but unable to slow myself down enough to get more sleep. I laid down for a nap today and didn’t get a wink. My brain won’t stop and it’s nothing truly coherent per se. It’s more along the lines of internal dialogue similar to the din of a restaurant.
It’s been a quiet day today for the most part. Little Bear had a few hiccups here and there but other than that, he did well. He just needs to learn to slow down a bit and pay more attention to what’s being said rather than jumping to conclusions and blowing up. Not sure if he’ll ever grow out of assuming the worst.