Since launching my Tarot Thursday project where I’ve been exploring the basic meanings of the tarot cards to hopefully give context to my writing challenges and prompts, I haven’t done much posting in the way of personal events. Continue reading “Catching Up”
Two nights in a row now and the Benadryl has worked. Roughly 9 hours of sleep both nights. Also made the mistake of cutting back on caffeine intake yesterday and today woke up with a caffeine headache.
Today is “Therapy Tuesday” where I visit with my therapist every week. Today’s topic was on the sleep issue and disordered thinking I posted about late last night.
I’m reaching a point where I can feel myself physically getting tired, but unable to slow myself down enough to get more sleep. I laid down for a nap today and didn’t get a wink. My brain won’t stop and it’s nothing truly coherent per se. It’s more along the lines of internal dialogue similar to the din of a restaurant.
Apparently I don’t have enough projects in my life. Maybe this is just my way of responding to the lack of constant crisis going on with my family? The sky isn’t falling and I don’t need to scramble around with damage control. The boys are doing well and even though I’m fairly certain I’ve slid into hypomania, I’m not in an acute need of care.
Yesterday I bought Halloween costumes for the boys. For the oldest two, I took them over to the character themed union suits in the men’s section since they can be used as pajamas. It’s the same place I got my Grumpy Bear pajamas.
I know… I haven’t written ANYTHING in ages (okay, it’s only been a week since the last post). It’s been an odd week for my brain. Several times I’ve found myself having spent hours at my computer, but haven’t actually done anything. My browser history shows that I hadn’t looked at anything during that time and I got next to no progress done on the current music video I’ve been working on.
Sorry I haven’t posted in awhile. I didn’t even bother with the mood tracker last week and I haven’t started one for this week yet either.
Okay, I swear I’ve set up the mood tracker chart for this week because this is what, the third week in a row now that I haven’t done it?
The loneliness I’ve been feeling as of late is beginning to suffocate me. The passion I typically have for writing seems to be fading and this saddens me. It bothers me that I haven’t even been posting on my blog like I used to. Continue reading “Struggling with Loneliness”