It’s been a long week, mostly of me tinkering away at a Minecraft Java Edition datapack for version 1.19. I’ve also been playing Monster 1 DX on Steam, which has been a blast from the past for me.
A part of me feels like I should be addressing the topic of Roe vs. Wade being overturned, but what exactly could I possibly say that hasn’t already been said? It happened in a country where one of our biggest tenets that we were taught growing up is that church is separate from state. Apparently this isn’t true. It doesn’t matter that I grew up Christian or what I believe now. I don’t have any right to impose my spiritual beliefs upon anyone else. That’s why the first colonies of our country were formed. Freedom of religion. Our country was born from this. Yet now, we’re imposing one religious belief upon everyone.
We are not the country we claim to be. This is not a debate. We cannot say we have freedom of religion if our laws are based upon one religion. We cannot say we have separation of church and state if our laws are based upon any religion.
This week for the most part felt pretty good. My therapist had suggested that I try getting back in the habit of doing small, meditative tarot readings for myself and I felt that my Daily Draw series fit the bill for it nicely and since it was for the blog I figured it would help me stay accountable for it. What I didn’t expect was for it to make any quick changes. But it did. Nothing dramatic. Just small steps type of thing but those add up, don’t they? First I started doing the readings by setting my computer desktop to show a daily slideshow of a tarot card. Then I started writing a phrase about the card that came to mind in my journal. Now I’m writing a full journal entry about that card on the blog. This week I started linking to those entries in the mood tracker. Which in turn started helping me to remember to document the stuff I want to be doing and keeping track of. Started setting goals again. This is the first week in a long time that I have felt so close to normal. I hope this is a sign of progress and not a delusion.
Every week these come up and every week I ask myself why I haven’t been filling them out. It seems like my migraines have increased in frequency but thanks to not filling these out, I have no idea why. Is there a new trigger or have I just been slacking on some type of self-care that is really good for preventing them? Does it just seem like they’re more frequent? But of course, when you hurt the way it does from a migraine, looking at anything is the last thing you want to do – much less a screen. Pretty sure I’m not imagining the increase in frequency based on just that alone. Writing of any kind hasn’t been getting done and I need to do something about it other than blaming and shaming myself.
Trying to get my sleep and meds back into a consistent routine. My body right now seems to be resistant to that, but I think in the long run I will feel better and more energetic if I stick with it and make it happen.