It’s been a month now since Little Bear was admitted to in-patient for possible psychosis and during that entire time I’ve only mentioned it in my mood trackers. I didn’t know how to talk about it. He’s been home since Thursday night and I’m still not sure how to talk about, but I’m going to try. Continue reading
2018 Chaos Rally #14 – Grappling with Self-Doubt
I stayed up until 6am chatting with my sister, Piggie, this morning and then didn’t go to bed until after I saw my boys off on the bus at 8am this morning. It wasn’t until almost 3pm that I finally woke up.
Tentative Plan to Address Sleep Disruption
Today is “Therapy Tuesday” where I visit with my therapist every week. Today’s topic was on the sleep issue and disordered thinking I posted about late last night.
What the Hell am I doing?
I don’t even know where to begin with this. Not really. But I do need to get it out of my head. Up until yesterday, I felt like trying to figure out what freelancing meant to me and what it would look like for me was a worthy goal. It gave me a sense of purpose and direction. Now I feel like I seriously don’t have a clue as to what I’m doing. I feel like I’m just treading water in the middle of nowhere.
Current Plan for My Hypomania
Apparently I don’t have enough projects in my life. Maybe this is just my way of responding to the lack of constant crisis going on with my family? The sky isn’t falling and I don’t need to scramble around with damage control. The boys are doing well and even though I’m fairly certain I’ve slid into hypomania, I’m not in an acute need of care.
Thoughts of the Day with a Side of Brooding
Today the school called to have me come in for Little Bear. It’s been awhile since I’ve gotten a call from them, but this time was different. I could hear him crying in the background over the phone. Continue reading
2018 Chaos Rally #3 – Feeling Restricted
Last Friday is was raining over here. This Friday? Snowing. Could be worse.
I’ve been Brooding about Three Things
I think the last personal post I’ve put up here on this blog, that didn’t involve a template, was back in early December. Since then I’ve been brooding (which looks like me playing FFXI while set to invisible mode) about many things while bookmarking stuff I’ve read online to sort out, mull over, and discuss later.
This Year’s Resolution for 2018
Last year I had resolved to focus on developing and holding better boundaries. I think I did alright. I still have a lot of progress to make, but I don’t feel pushed around and walked on as much as I used to. That’s got to count for something, right?
Tuesday Thoughts and Ramblings
Yesterday I bought Halloween costumes for the boys. For the oldest two, I took them over to the character themed union suits in the men’s section since they can be used as pajamas. It’s the same place I got my Grumpy Bear pajamas.