Tode’s Weekly Assessment 2021-26

Just dropping in a quick edit the Monday after this post went live since once again I didn’t bother filling it out and let it slip my mind that these things are scheduled ahead of time. Originally the intention was to keep myself accountable so that I’d stay on top of my mood tracker. Lately I’ve been asking myself what the point of this is.

On one hand on paper I feel like my life is monotonous and unchanging from one day to the next. So I find myself asking, why do I share these on my blog. Is it actually helping anyone or what exactly? Yeah, my mental health is doing well for now, but the likelihood of me staying that way forever it pretty slim. That’s the nature of Bipolar and why keeping a mood tracker is recommended. But, what works for me isn’t necessarily going to work for someone else.

On the other hand, I know that there are people that follow my blog that do want to know how I’m doing and I’ve been seriously slacking on this. Which kind of points me back to the long string of monotonous and unchanging days that has been dominating my life. How many ways can you say, “Hey, I’m still busy with the same stuff right now.”

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Tode’s Weekly Assessment 2021-25

Yet another week where I didn’t bother filling out my mood tracker. BUT! My dad finally finished the shed I paid for enough so that I could move my stuff out of the storage rental unit and into it. We’ve spent all week, and into today, moving stuff out of the room above the kitchen to get ready for my brother to visit next week. Eventually the plan is to set it up as my new bedroom and living room combo so that Tuxedo Cat can move into the room I’m using. He really wants a room by himself and my dad is on board with it.

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Tode’s Weekly Assessment 2021-18

I have gotten so out of the habit of keeping my mood trackers that now that I’ve been trying to get back in the habit, I’m messing them up. This morning it just occurred to me that the reason I feel like I have nothing to write about regarding my life is because I have finally reached a point since starting this WordPress blog where my daily life doesn’t have a bunch of bullshit drama in it. At the time I wrote that first post on here, I never imagined that day would ever come. And the time of my divorce, I wasn’t sure what I was going to do with myself. My life still isn’t where I want it to be yet, but it’s far away from where it used to be and for this I am so very grateful. And once again, I want to thank every one of you who has been here with me on this long journey. Your support and belief in me means more to me than you know. Thank you.

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Tode’s Weekly Assessment 2021-16

I don’t really feel like anything interesting or of importance has been happening in my life lately. Just the same thing day in and day out. I’ve never been one to watch TV much but since I started dating Golden Knight, there’s been a lot of that. And since Covid started, it’s felt like that’s all there is. Which is a weird thing to say for me since I’m a gamer. I guess that’s why I’ve been doing my games more lately. I don’t know. Maybe I need a new project or something.

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