Just a long annoying day and I still need to get my writing in.
Thank you, Leslie, for suggesting that I drop the “What I Would Have Done Differently” portion of this format. I completely agree that I shouldn’t be feeding into any maladaptive perfectionism that will only bring me down at the end of the day. Instead, I’ll try to focus on the things I’m grateful for. A boost in positivity can’t be a bad thing.
I’m already wondering whether or not I like this format. It feels clinical – like my mood trackers. I acknowledge that I should be assessing my day every day, but I wish it had a more organic feel to it. Maybe I just feel that way tonight because I didn’t really do anything all day so ordinarily I wouldn’t be posting at all, so there is that advantage to this format.
Thought it would be a good idea to set up a structured template for myself to use to go over and assess my day with. First half of the day was quiet with way too much puttering about, rest of the day was lots of running around and herding children. I think it’s easier to herd cats with a spray bottle.
Well, it’s only 6:30pm and I’ve finished Chapter 9 and written all of Chapter 10 – bringing me to Chapter 11. So in terms of my plan of 1 Prompt = 1 Chapter I’m still behind and I’m feeling the stress of that despite my word count being above par as of today.
So I’ve been thinking about the whole YouTube thing and last Tuesday I told my therapist that I want to commit to it.
I know I’ve been sick all week last week and I know there is a good chance that my mother is being manipulative in all this. All day yesterday and the night before she’s been highly vocal about how we, as in the boys and I, – mostly me – in her weird passive-aggressive way do nothing around here. Yesterday however she became full on force with the boys – targeting Little Bear. I tried to address it but Dad stepped in and shut it down. Continue reading