Now I know I’m not imagining it. My migraines are creeping back. They aren’t lasting for days but still they are coming back. Not sure what to do about it. I do think that they are connected to my mood. Maybe they are connected to my lack of calories as well which if that’s the case it means that for me Topamax is a paradoxical thing if I can’t get my diet to some semblance of normal. I’ll need to go through and crunch these numbers somehow to see if there is a pattern. I may need to start the dreaded counting of calories. Bleh. I hate doing that with a passion. I seriously hate that. What a damn chore. You know though with meds like these that mess with our weight in either direction it’s little wonder we end up with eating disorders and become obsessed with our food. It suddenly feels like it becomes our everything. It sucks. Why can’t I just eat like a normal person and not worry about it like I used to?
Mood Score Key:
Sliding into Hypomania = 1 ~ Hypomania = 2 ~ Mania = 3 ~ Baseline (My Normal) = 0
Sliding into Depression = -1 ~ Depression = -2 ~ Severe Depression = -3
Energy Score Key:
Low = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ High = 1
Irritation Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Anxiety Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Migraine Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A
Sleep Quality Score Key:
Bad = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ Great = 1
Special Notes for the Week
Menses Start Date: ~
Weigh-In at Med Clinic: October 13, 2016 ~ 151.2 pounds
Saturday ~ October 8, 2016
Mood: -1 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed @ 12am, up @ 6:30 am – 6.5 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7:00am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7:00pm
Meals
- 5 Cups of Coffee
- 6 English Muffin Pizzas
Sunday ~ October 9, 2016
Mood: -1 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed @ 3am, up @ 10:30 am – 7 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- am meds missed
- 75mg Topamax @ 7:00pm
Meals
- 4 Cups of Coffee
- The leftover miso soup, salad, and noodles Little Bear didn’t eat at the sushi place
Monday ~ October 10, 2016
Mood: -1 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: don’t remember
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ ?
- 75mg Topamax @ 7:00pm
Meals
- 5 Cups of Coffee
- Bacon and Eggs with Wheat Toast
- 2 Bowls of Buttered Macaroni with Parm. Cheese
Tuesday ~ October 11, 2016
Mood: -1 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 2A
Hours of Sleep: bed @ 11:30pm night before, up @ 6am – 6.5 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7:00am
- 600mg Ibuprophen @ 9:30am
- 600mg Ibuprophen @ 2:00pm
- 600mg Ibuprophen @ 7:00pm
- 75mg Topamax @ 9:00pm (because I got sick just before med time and I forgot after taking the pain meds)
Meals
- 4 Cups of Coffee
- Little Bear’s leftover sushi rice and veggies
- peanut butter sandwich on wheat
Wednesday ~ October 12, 2016
Mood: -1 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 1 ~ Anxiety: 1 ~ Migraine: 0A
Hours of Sleep: bed @ 10pm night before, up @ 6am – 8 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7:00am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7:00pm
Meals
- 6 Cups of Coffee
- 3 Chocolate Chunk Pancakes at Vittles – Piggie knows these are pretty big, I damn near at all of it. Maybe 3 bites left?
Notes
- My parents annoyed the fuck out of me with the over stepping boundaries today with trying to parent my children for me – seriously I don’t need help with this, never did and not why I am moving back in
- Anxiety from checking in with the apartment, felt like someone had been in there – like the weird “landlady” again, the heat register panel flap was flipped up like someone had tried to turn it on but the propane tanks have been empty since last year and I unplugged the damn thing because Little Bear wouldn’t leave it alone. Temps haven’t reached freezing levels yet so it doesn’t need to be on, so why was it flipped open? I swear to God I feel like I’m losing my mind but I know it was shut when I left last week because my phone is hanging above it. This is so much bullshit. I can’t wait to have all my stuff moved and get out of that place completely. It’s like these people are purposely fucking with me to make me move out. If it weren’t for the other issues I have going on I wouldn’t be moving.
Thursday ~ October 13, 2016
Mood: -1 ~ Energy: -1 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 1
Hours of Sleep:
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7:00am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7:00pm
Meals
- 4 Cups of Coffee
- 1 Medium Coffee from Gas Station
- 1 Cotto Salami Sandwich on Wheat with Cheese
Friday ~ October 14, 2016
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed @ 11:30pm night before, up @ 6:30am – 7 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7:00am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7:30pm
Meals
- 5 Cups of Coffee
- Turkey Dinner with Chocolate Milk at school with Little Bear (grandparents’ luncheon day – though I had to skip the turkey with gravy and stuffing due to MSG) so I ate: canned peas, canned green beans, squash, cranberry sauce, plain roll, vanilla pudding (that for some reason burned my mouth – Scholar Owl suspected lemon zest, but WHY was that added to vanilla pudding?!) Seriously starting to feel like it’s not safe for me to eat anywhere in public
- 2 Breaded Fish Filet Sandwiches on Wheat with Tarter Sauce