Just a long week of the boys fighting each other. Can the screaming just please stop already?
Mood Score Key:
Sliding Hypomania = 1 ~ Hypomania = 2 ~ Mania = 3 ~ Baseline (My Normal) = 0
Sliding Depression = -1 ~ Depression = -2 ~ Severe Depression = -3 ~ M = Mixed State
Energy Score Key:
Low = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ High = 1
Irritation Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Anxiety Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3
Migraine Score Key:
None = 0 ~ Mild = 1 ~ Moderate = 2 ~ Severe = 3 ~ Extreme = 4 ~ Aura Present = A
Sleep Quality Score Key:
Bad = -1 ~ Normal = 0 ~ Great = 1
Special Notes for the Week
Menses Start Date: 3/17/2017
Weigh-In at Med Clinic: ~
Sunday ~ March 12, 2017
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: forgot to document
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- forgot meds, med box isn’t set up
Meals
- Coffee
- Beef Roast Dinner
Notes
- I know Dad was pretty ugly around 11pm with the noise Little Bear was making, even after that Little Bear didn’t want to stay in bed
Monday ~ March 13, 2017
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: forgot to document
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- forgot meds, med box isn’t set up
Meals
- Coffee
- Mac & Cheese with Hot Dogs
Notes
- Little Bear fought with me over bed time – but I forgot to set up the mood tracker so I don’t know when he fell asleep
Tuesday ~ March 14, 2017
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: forgot to document
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- Coffee
- Left Overs
Notes
- Therapy Tuesday
- Little Bear was up until midnight
Wednesday ~ March 15, 2017
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 1am, up at 6am – 5 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 8pm
Meals
- 4 cups of coffee
- 2 cheese burgers on wheat bread
Notes
- 2 hour delay for public school due to snow storm from last night
- Dad complained about Scholar Owl’s supposed lack of school work again
- Tuxedo Cat was unusually crabby tonight
Thursday ~ March 16, 2017
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 0
Hours of Sleep: bed at 10pm night before, up at 6am – 8 hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- 75mg Topamax @ 7am
- 75mg Topamax @ 7pm
Meals
- 4 cups of coffee
- home made burritos and tacos
Notes
- I gave up fighting with Little Bear last night about bedtime and just went to bed, fuck that shit, I think he woke me up twice around 10:30pm and 11pm while climbing on me but I haven’t heard anything from my parents about any problems yet so I’m assuming he went to sleep shortly after
- Scholar Owl’s therapy – he said he wants to go to public school next year, so I’ll need to figure out how that process works
- I didn’t let Tuxedo Cat go to the school dance tonight because the boys have all been fighting non-stop this week, him included
- Tuxedo Cat continued his nonsense tonight and landed himself an extra evening of dishes, which made him angry but seriously this antagonizing each other just to get the other one going needs to stop
Friday ~ March 17, 2017
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 1A
Hours of Sleep: bed at 10pm, Dad woke me up I think around 11pm about Little Bear’s computer use so I had to lock it down, up at 5am? before my 6am alarm went off – so damned if I know how many hours total
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- out of meds – how was I not paying attention to that?
- 600mg Ibuprophen @ ?
Meals
- 4 cups of coffee
- peanut butter sandwich on Dad’s homemade bread (the bread was cut thick and it’s to die for, seriously)
Notes
- no public school, teachers’ work shop day
Saturday ~ March 18, 2017
Mood: 0 ~ Energy: 0 ~ Irritation: 0 ~ Anxiety: 0 ~ Migraine: 2A
Hours of Sleep: slept off and on from 7pm to 6am – who the hell knows the total hours
Sleep Quality: 0
Exercise Activity: ~ Exercise Time:
Meds Taken
- no meds
- 600mg Ibuprophen @ 8am
- 600mg Ibuprophen @ 12pm
- 600mg Ibuprophen @ 5pm
- 1000mg Tylenol @ 7pm
Meals
- 1 cup of coffee (regular strength)
- 2 cups of coffee (double strength)
- 1 cotto salami & cheese sandwich on homemade bread
Notes
- Tylenol finally addressed the pain
- Mom & Dad were fighting again, it was Dad’s turn to cook but he refused and went to bed, Mom tried to pass the buck on me while they were babysitting my brother’s kids – she told me I could feed my kids whatever, but when 7pm rolled around and I told my boys we were having leftovers, she brought in my brother’s kids to eat… and then she tried to tell me some dumb thing about how Dad was pissed that I left an ashtray on his desk, so I apologized about it and he said he wasn’t mad at me… so yeah, sick of this shit
- my therapist asked me if I thought my parents were aware that they do this and I don’t think they are, I think they are so mired in the shit that is their marriage that they don’t see who is getting caught in the crossfire – which only makes me more aware of what’s happening with my boys and how the cycle is repeating
- It just occurred to me today that the past couple of days I have been smelling oddball, out of place scents (like back in the old apartment I would smell burning paper for no reason, the last two days I’ve been smelling burnt plastic and perfume that no one else smells) – my old therapist asked me if I had a neuro test done for this, something about the brain or whatever, and I said no but today I had a bad migraine and now I’m wondering if these two things are connected at all so I guess I need to start documenting that to find out – like is it part of my migraine aura?